sugar hard.]]

ahhhhh

woensdag, december 31, 2003

Hey peeps!
me finali home after a mth vacation in sis hse..tink so arh
hrm wat shd i say ah?
yea wanted to buy bk but cheebye ah so many shits..
lolz..
hrm...
im so tired n im to lazy to bend and look at my keyboard to type
yarh..lolz..not to bad ah..i can type without looking n i type fast ah..
ok blehx.

i still haven buy sklbks.ah haha wat fuck. nvm
hrm..den accompanied junk to the clinic..
lepak wif fida n ltr junk came..
n den..we went to bdk
i wanna find specs larh!
i dun wear specs but its for vanity puposes arh..
we sponsored fida bus fares..
we so kind arh!
lolz..wadde
we lepak2 dere agn,fag2,haha..
n i accidentally bumped into adeline,
my ex fan!
wahaha..so many fan ah i gt!i got 5 fans currently!
action sia..but nvm..im goin to study..
n oso,bumped into emy.
lolz..so funny.
she kept looking2 n turning at me!
lolz..today me yan wat =p
no lah..i styled my hair,infront flat,middle i make lyk spiky..
lyk so called jap hair..
n fida n junk went "wah..she look2 at u all da way sia!"
haha.. lolz -schimiles-
wateva..blabla malas to type
jz reahed home at 9.30
i dun haf books!!argh

i went to do junk;s blog!why is it not changing?!!wat fuck

aight,wish u guys
hapi new yr!2004 is coming to a world near u!!ln to those sec skls,pri skl,kindergatern,ITE,jc(open nt),poly(open nt)..have a wonderful tym of skooling!!lolz

shit ah..i wana shit!sure the pangsai smelly one..jz farted!yucks!

maandag, december 29, 2003

WO hen sian lei..
my ygr bro slow lah go popular!
Wait for him,
all the songs iw anna dload fnshd oradi.
dloaded abt 15 songs oradi
within 40mins.
lolz!

ARgh....quick lah cum home!
slow arh!!
i wanna dload the movie 'skool of rocks',
decided not to be too cheapskate or wat.
lolz..i wanna go watch da movie!!
my bro in-law wanna wath,
he wanted to bring us..
but it opens on 31dec rite?
ARGH!stew-pit.
haha..i dloaded my old tym fav 'kinda' techno!
its donna lewis-i love u always forever!!
yayyy!!
i dloaded tt hey ya song!!
for my sis!lolz..
bsdes,i lyk tt song!!
YAYY!!n tt milkshake song..
n my FAV SONG!!
its turn me on!
lolz.. -sings gal caress my body,u gt me goin crazee-
Hmp..if want go bck cck,
want tke 168 or 506 or mrt??
ARGH!!

Lolz!
jz read bird bird's blog.

Dear bird,
BIRD BIRD!!u kan bird!u go fly n higgap at tt dog ah!
lolz jk ah.heebye ah tt dog n tt male.Hw dare he duno hw to help u.
He sd the dog wun bite?!!If me,i take the dog throw at his dick,
let the bird eat his dick!Own dog,duno take are.No sense of responsibility.
Is tt dog black colour?If its black,it must be my neigbour's fren.
the blacky's federation!GO BIRD!!u so gd spit vulgarities!
U go bird!!ho ho!u go bird!
Aight,if i'm dere bsde u,i help u beat tt non-dick!
Well,nt all chinese are ignorant lah abbeh,except for most of dem.
See lah..ur ex gf tt ino non-cebok wat!sial peh betina! Harami tt one!

Haiyah.. i want buy bk..the bkshop closed liao
SIan ah..
wasted my blardee tym cum here.
i tot if after go bkshop,
cn mit my other frens.
tt ash duno whre lost,
tt junk oso duno larh.
her comp goondu one hang2 i tink!
lolz!
haiyah..i go slp lah..
ltr i go back cck!

I lyk tis comp cz its fast!
lolz,broadband..can use as long as i want to!
bt wat sux,hang2 one!
im dloading tt kellis n milkshake song..
i wanna burn sum songs..
lolz

BYE

Hey guys!
gonna be a quick entry!
im goin to my hse at bedok,tae booklist n go buy sklbks.
i duno wat tym the bkshop close man!!
n my tummy feels so awful,
ceretberet(diarrhoea)!
Lolz!
1pm muz get outta da hse!!
prolly i'll reach arnd 2.30!
Wat arh,
den im goin back here agn,cck!
my sis duwan me go home.
she told me dun go home.
tat fella,
early morning,she lied ontop of me,
n den tok,
u buy sklbks todaylah,
den u cum back here k..
deb blabla..

man i wanna go mph arh!!
i wanna buy new storybk!!
=(
no marnee!

cnt blve skl is opening.
n im goin to skl AGN!!
5tyms!!
ARGH!!
Freakin gonna pass my o's!
so boring man the same skool!

aight!
tata!

Hmmm... oh...
Di kala ku kesepian
Dihanyut ombak yang resah
Kau mengubati kerinduan

Di kala ku keresahan
Dihanyut malam nan gelap
Kau menerangi hidupku

Kini segalanya telah berubah
Cintamu hanya memori indah
Ku ditinggalkan kesepian
Pilu hatiku

Kembalilah kepadaku
Selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka
Ikatan kita berdua


Sayangilah diri ini
Belailah jiwa nan sepi
Kelayuan... dedaunan keguguran
Dahan-dahan nan kerapuhan
Bunga-bunga cinta... layu di pusara
Hmmm... hmmm...

Di kala ku kerinduan
Dihembus angin nan pilu
Kutatapi wajah dirimu

Di kala ku keseorangan
Dihanyut asmara cinta
Kau membelai jiwaku ini

Kini segalanya telah berubah
Cintamu hanya memori indah
Ku ditinggalkan kesepian
Pilu hatiku

Kembalilah kepadaku
Selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka
Ikatan kita berdua

Sayangilah diri ini
Belailah jiwa nan sepi
Kelayuan... dedaunan keguguran
Dahan-dahan nan kerapuhan
Bunga-bunga cinta... layu di pusara
Hmmm... hmmm...


Hanya satu kupinta oh darimu
Hargailah cinta kita oh...
Gelora menikam jiwa ini
Berada di hati
Deraian cinta yang suci

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i so love the song,since it was aired!oh my!must go burn tis song!lolz..

Hey guys!
i haven slp.
my tummy is aching.
maybe im too hungree.
i'm coughing lyk mad..
lyk must cough lydat.
wadde

Went to haig road wif bro in-law,sis,ygr bro n me..
walked2..etc..
we had our so called dinner!
We ate at tis duno wat lah..
its lyk seoul garden!
shiok2 ah..
im so excited!
etc..
i reali love it.
my bro in-law n ygr bro kaypoh2 cook,
sis,recommended me,
took the food so we can fry or steam it.
my job?
aiyah...eat lah!
abohdenz!!
i oso took d food for dem too.
Lolz..
the waitress dere chio..
uh,not for me.i dun rili lyk those malay2 ones.
its ok..
i'm so glad tt the misha omar 'bunga-bunga cinta'
dey played it twice!
I LOVE THE SONG!
sis so hapi see me eat!
she kept larfing at me.
cz she sd "u 1st tym rite?!!so excited ah!!i noe ltr u go home,u write in ur diary rite??"
lolz!
she loves,seein me hapi.
my gr8 sista!love her to bits!
my bro in-law sd,
pple lyk me,its worthwhile eat here.
cz i eat haf no limits!
lolz..
den we went to tis shop!
i bought the gatsby clay!
wanted to buy l'oreal hairspray,
so wen i m l8,can jz spray!
well,cum to tink opf it,
i have short hair,
i can just mess my hair oradi.
skool can make spiky hair not?
lolz..
i want cut hair!
Ltr,i'm goin home man..
gonna buy bks,skl skrt n blouse,
send my other skirt for tailoring..
orite!
hmp...so.sis gonna give me 50bux allowance per mth!
sumtyms my dad will give me 20bux!
hrm.. 70bux per mth?
lolz..tts kool!
im hapi wif wat i have.
i dun ask much.
lolz
aight
tata!

::take my hand baby,whisper me those words i need to hear.please tell me tat u love me once agn::

zondag, december 28, 2003

Hi babeh! Hmp..recap on yest!
Went bt timah for lunch wif ygr bro n bro -in law.
Drove to tampines to find bicycle tube,
went to owen road,
to look for bicycle pump.
n den,went to bt timah..find car wash!
But all sux ah!All manual carwash!ARGH!
I want go in the carwash one!So cool!
Oh i nid to tell u guys tis!
At expressway lah..
i sat bsde my bro in-law.
Was talking to him.
I did not realise,tis angmoh gal in d car was looking at me.
All were,ang moh family.
Whee!
She's pretty..lolz!
My bro in-law cut dem lah..
I was lyk 'urh..why u cut!!i want see dem!'
After tt,i continued talking lah..
And den,dey cut us!
Haha..why man??
Hrm..ok jgn be perasan!
When dey cut,i sae tt gal oso still looking at me,smile2!
she's sitting at d back seat lah.
After dey cut us,she n her sister,kept turning back!
WOW!!I LYK!!
Oh ryann,steady siah u..gonna get an angmoh gf one day!
Maybe she tot im a guy,wif my spiky hair all tt!
i want cut hair summore lah..
LOlZ!!
AIyah..she chio lah!!
I sad la..cnt see her so long..
cries..

Name: Lukas Ryann Muriel (my surname is lukas!weehee)
School: Katong convent rgs DUDE WHAT IS MY SKOOL?? bnss is it?
Location: Fukuoka,Japan
Working: domestic helper
Age: going to be 17!YAYY
I am: Divorcee with 25 kids (LOLZ!)
Currently Dating: Kristin Kreuk
Wearing: t-shirt,shorts

Have You Ever...

wished you were dead: Death is so scary.Hmp..sumtyms..Nt nw anymore cz in life u must be strong and must overcome all those obstacles!
broken somebody's heart: yea...
had your heart broken: yea..
lied to get what you want: yea... i even cried to get wat i want!Lolz!
loved somebody so much you'd do anything for him/her: yea..i'll give her my heart if she nids one! Oh cnt..ltr i die!ANd if she's alive,she go get sum1 else!Aiyah..ya!
seen a movie star: not realli..is donita rose counted? n tat cik leh frm uh..'jeritan sepi' n tt 'alias kadir' counted??I've never seen hollywood super star!I wanna see cheryl fox babe!!
felt like killing someone: currently, i dun tink so.Ltr i regret after i've killed
lost someone you truly love: yea

Do You...

watch romantic shows:yes!But nt all d tym.Its very sickenin see dem french kissing, n all i can do is bein jealous!Lolz!
dig ur nose when ure bored: HAHA!LOLS!Cnt tell!
get hungree alot of tyms:i'm hungry ALL da tym
cry a lot:i dun cry alot..i cry cz im angree n i cnt vent it esp wif parents!all i can do is sit down,stoned,ponder2 wen im sad
smoke: yep
drink: carrot juice u mean??yea i drink tt but not alcoholic drinks.I wish we r allowed to drink!! ARGH!!No..no..
drive: yep,arcade.I'm good at riding afterall!I suck at driving..evrytym crash2!LOLZ
do you drink and drive: yea,while im in the arcade wif my frens racing,im thirsty,i will secretly drink.Cnt openly or the counter pple will scold me 'NO FOOD N DRINK ALLOWED'
like anyone right now: my heart closed oradi lah..just infatuation..
love anyone right now: yea,cheryl fox,kristin kreuk,ayumi hamasaki
sleep early at night: sumtyms wen im so exhausted

What Do You...

feel like doing right now: goin to d mcdonald!buy mcspicy double! but i have not bathe!I wanna fag too!But ltr after i fag,i'll be restless..I wished i had followed my siser n bro in-law to d weddings. Can eat.. yum yum..
wish for every time you see a shooting star: to find real love,be rich,excel in my studies. But ah, evrytym i got money,my money all wan(fnsh) liao.I dun buy clothes or stuff.I buy food only! Sumtyms,i cut my hair.. gel..buy all d vanity products,spent on my ygr bro.
think of during a kissing scene at the movies: threesome?? lolz
want in life: pass o's,get into poly.Nursing course maybe..or maybe media desgn.. I want go de la salle man! but..haiyah..money no probs lah..my parents dun mind abt studying..
hate most about yourself: sarcastic..broke
like most about yourself: Looks!my spiky hair!i want cut agn..!
look for in a gf: looks(im nt shallow.but must atlst have looks),sense of humor..gd heart.. fun to be with..nt owaes jealous..

Who Would You...

like to kiss: kristin kreuk,ayumi hamasaki,cheryl fox,rose mcgowan
marry if you had to marry someone right this moment: kristin kreuk,ayumi,cheryl fox.But dey duwan me..so yah..im gonna be an old bunglorette
want your ex to end up with: nah...cnt lydat one

What's Your...

favourite colour: hot red,turqoise, green
favourite cocktail: peach?
favourite numbers: 25
favourite place to chill out: hmp..anywhre dude! As long, near dere got food shop or i'm oradi full,im hapi.LOLZ!
ideal date like: if morning,go for breakfast,walk around hold hands n joke!If want simple one, we go joggin,den haf brkfast!
if afternoon,erh,asked her out to escape!We will have alot of fun..i love dates lydat.To bad spore dussnt have alot of amusement parks!Besides, im owaes too poor!haha..or asked dem out to science centre/museum/zoo!Cool eh?
if evening,we have dinner together(i want d candelite.bt im too poor.lolz.aiyah,go mcdonald,put candle infront can lah). Oh..n den i purposely,let her w8 sumwhre,i rush sumwhre get a rose or bouquet,n den present it to her!Let her be shy2..lolz..
motto: live ur life be free..(tts a line frm belinda carlisle). Hmp..i duno wat motto.. Learn n serve??LOLS!!!tts my sec skl motto! Uh,endevour promotes success??lolz..tts my pri skl one. Uh.. i duno man. Oh i noe,a true hero,will overcome every obstacles!Move on n dun sit on the same puddle!Whenever u're sad,drown ur sorrows wif food! Minum milo anda jadi sihat dan kuat!LOLZ!sorri..my motto nonsence.. i dun haf one acherli..jz made up..


zaterdag, december 27, 2003

anyways went to eat after dat n while we were eating got dis gerl at d counter hu kept looking at junk den junk fed up oreadi den i told her watever u do..do not do wat ryann did last time den i kinda replay wat happened last time in d library wen 2 gerls kept looking at ryann..den ryann got shout at their face lah so i replayed dat part while junk was drinking her coke den i suddenly shout "ape tgk?! jgn tgk lah!"
-taken frm ash's blog

Eh hello..i not mean ok.i just got SO IRRITATED!!SO FED UP!! cz,u imagine lah, in mcdonald,got gals,look2 at u den smile.Tt gatal2 shit.Then went to library,oso got look2 at u,smile.Tat gal who got maki-ed by me,i am so frust at her. Cz,we sitting near the shelves lah,she kept passing fro n back.If she pass by i dun mind.tis one,pass by almost 10tyms,10 tyms look at me,smile. IRRITATING OK!!SUmmore,hello,i am a GAL cz i was wearing my skl uniform. skirt Stupid shit asshole.Tt why,since all those incidents,i wear uglee2 one.I dun lyk lah tis gals look2,smile2. I not action lah.But for me, lyk irritating lah..evrytym lydat. SUmmore in skl,tt kid oso.UGH!!See,tts wat u get for bein so gd-looking.

ash sd tt day,my hair very nice.i wore tt kinda sunglasses.Its clear one..sum sort..summore wif center parting hair,floppy2,n sweater!LOLZ! reali ah i yandao?ash sd,if she passive,she want me!YAYY!! but no one want me.. she bung, want me.Den passive lehx..?

helo!
i better make tis entry fast.
goin to watch tomb raider ltr,
and fell aslp on the love couch couch.
haikx.
the more i stay here,the more i feel so sad.

went running in the evening.
Ran 10 rounds arnd the stadium.
Plus tis morn.
In total,i ran 4+2.4km=6.4km.
Tmr,i mean later,
i'm goin to wake up in the morn too,
running.
Oh,in the evening too.
I duno i haf gd stamina,
althou i fag..lolz
the 10 rounds,
the 1st 5's,ran non-stop.
ANd den,i stopped cz,
my ygr bro told me to stop.
He so sian waiting for me.
After tat,
i cnt stop myslf frm running.
so i continued for anudder 5rnds
THe 2 rnds,i got stop2.
Cz i duno man.

my heart bleeds for you says:
haiz..i just dun wanna be here
my heart bleeds for you says:
it juz sux
my heart bleeds for you says:
life sux
my heart bleeds for you says:
family sux
my heart bleeds for you says:
love sux even more
my heart bleeds for you says:
argh!
my heart bleeds for you says:
lagu starlin dedicate kat aku is on d radio
my heart bleeds for you says:
aku cam nak nangis seh..haiz..
my heart bleeds for you says:
aku rase aku nak outz ah


haikz,dear ash,relax k..
i noe its painful..
bt love cnt be force mah..
atlst she's bein frank abt d rs.
Chill dudey.
u b lyk me k?
No stead,hapi2..sad2 oso got.
Den,if got gals,u can say
sori.im single,not available,nt looking
lolz..ok tts dumb



I better go now..

-u scolded me lyk as if im such a piece of shit.i am human.i haf hearts ok. I'm not to be mean.I am not ok..i just duwan tt kind of lyfe-
-imissuiwonderwhywhyaren'tuhere-

vrijdag, december 26, 2003

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cos I'm counting on A new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...


And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

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i so love tis song.In fact,i love all savage garden songs!lolz



i am so tired now.sum shit i wish to write.
Yest,i went running for 8 rounds arnd da stadium,
sit ups,monkey bars.
to release my tension,drown my sorrows.
its just tat,i,duwan to commit.
not cz i wanna flirt arnd,
I DUN FLIRT OK!!
I repeat i DUN.
I just theenk tt im super frenly,tts all.
Yeah..went running,
alot went thru my head.

Went to alot of places today.
dun wish to mention.
i bought,
nail remover,shorts,deodarant,batt,pens.
But I wish to tell u guys tis,
We went to tis hse lah.
My sis went for a massage.
Haix.
U noe I bung rite,
Den for dem,
I’m tomboy lah..
Mom asked tat auntie’s son,
Pretty or not my dotter?
She’s referring to me.
HELLO!
He’s 23yrs old,I tok2 wif him,
Wen dey in d room.
So sian.
He said,
Pretty! Snap fingers,10 guys can get.
Wtf..
N mom went,
U see!pple say u pretty u still want to be tomboy.
She asked him cz want see his opinion,
She said,she see me not pretty.
Ya la..her fav dotter,
She tinks is pretty.
Not pretty only..
She have bad attitude,
Lyk very proud,arrogant all those qualities.
U guys shd see her face wen auntie su sd abt her fav dotter.
“mai very pretty..she’s very sweet,very cheerful.i reali lyk her and admire her beauties, I find,mai is the 1st one pretty,den her elder sister n den her ygr sister.her ygr sister not pretty I dind.Rili not pretty.So uglee”
LOLS WTF MAN!
Mom’s face was lyk ‘how dare u say she’s uglee?!!’
Just cz im lyk tis,mom hates me.
My probs lah.
Lolz.
Tat berline, I met hr
She sd “lolz..u str8 very chio!”
N her tt fren sd to me “u bung or str8,bof gd-lookin”
LOLS!!

I haven bought skl bks,uniform.
i nid to send my anudder skirt to the tailor,
i want to shorten tat skirt.
i hope it wun be too short lyk the other one.
if i wear it at my waist,
it be lyk tennis skirt.
wen i bent forward,
i duno wat to describe.
wtf man the skirt!
so i haf to pull it down2,
lolz.
wtf,i love tt skirt afterall.
my tennis/skl skirt.
i nid to buy blouse.
i haf wife vairety of colors on theblouse,
purple,orange,green.
i love it.
n the skl badge,is burnt!
oh how MORE i love it.
wtf!
i hate new blouse,
its not soft.

i want to buy sportbras.
i duno whom i wanna sit wif in class.
if only,melissa's did not go to ite,
i wld have sit wif her.
tt gal rocks!

I'm going runnig later arnd 6.45am.
i dun tink i wanna slp.
i'm too sad to slp.
u noe wat,
i fl lyk fagging when dey r slpng soundly.
release tension,
god damn i fl lyk shitting now!
lolz..
n wat acherli am i sad abt??
haikx..her.got scolded.so sad man.
wtf.
i duwan to fall in love agn...
*sings:wat do u get wen u fall in love..hearbrks..lalala..i...nvr gonna fall in love agn.."
the next tym if im att,
tat gal is a model.
lolz.
model?see..tt mins,i wun fall in love anymore,
until ive reached 18.
gals are so irritating,leeches.
ok,i take back tt sentence.

aight im back!
i gelled up my bro's hair!
nw he's handsome.
oh man,
i cant blve he acherli joined choir just to stand bsde the gal he lyks!
lolz..kids are so funny.
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HI morning peeps.
Those entries ontop,shd be on Thursday 251203.
I forgot to paste it in blogger.lazee lah.
Its 10.06am.

I haven have any wink!
I did not slp since last nite!
Yet,I fl so awake.
I cnt slp,
Cz my tummy fls awful,
I fl lyk vomiting.
I cnt vomit.
I touch my tonsils,
But I ended up BURPING!
Lolz!
Cnt slp,cz I ate too much food last nite,
Chicken briyani rice,soup kambing,prata,mee goring,thosai,tea tarik,ice lemon tea.
Hehe..a lot rite?

Well man..i did not slp.
So arnd 4 plus or 5am,
I forgot lah wat tym I offline.
I went to watch tv.
Tis scv channel #18.
Duno lah…got lyk mtv
SO SHIOK!!
Iw atched until 6.30am.
Dey played all the coolest song I lyk one!
They played,john mayer-bigger den my body n d other one,
Matchboc20-unwell,Jason mraz-remedy..etc
Forgot liaox..

So shiok..den I watched mtv most wanted at 6.30 I tink.
Forgot.
7am,I watched blues clues!
Yayy..i love tt show.
Cz mainly,
The guy so c-u-t-e!!!
Im not attracted ah!
Its just tt he has big eyes,
His eyes lyk the stupid2 pple type,
His shirt nice!
Hen ker ai lei…
Wo si huan..
Haaha..
I watched until 715am,
And den I went running/jogging arnd stadium.
5rounds only tis morning.
My tummy fls awful tts y..
Hehe..i so gd ah..
I ran all d way..
Jogged,run,brisk-walked!
Wow..hehe..den I will haf nice leg!
Wheex.. and I want do sit ups,
Cz Im goin to haf a fat tummy,
Flabby2.
I DUN LYK!
Cz,my tummy owaes flat one mah..
And nt flabby.
Now must do..
Must have sessy body!
Wheex!
After tt,
I went to do marketing for my sis.
She came to me,
She said she sleepy and tired.
She whined lah..
“I tired skali..i penat..nanti nk gi pasar,nk masak..haiyah..”
So I volunteered to do marketing for her.
Went to the wet market,
Bought chicken,onions,ginger.
Forgot to buy macaroni.
Lolz..
I so kind ah help her?
Lolz..cz I fl bad for her,
She so poor ting tired2 go market n kena walk summore.
So why not after ive finished running,
I do the extra energy by goin to market.
Guess wat,
Those 2 shops in the market,
The man who sells chicken asked me,
“neh werk today?”
I was lyk ‘hello?I 16 lehx’
So I replied..
“haha no lah..i’m still skooling.Encik,do u noe wic shop sells onions all tt?”
lolz.. I told him,im new here.
Hehe..he so kind.
I went to the other shop..
Bought lah wat shd be bought
The seller asked,
“Today off day,tak gi keje?”
I again,shocked lah!
I stuttered cz In my head,
I remembered tt gal sd I luk 21.
I stuttered..
“werk..eh..keje..eh eh keje..eh sko…skooling”
haha..
he went ‘oohhhh’
lolz!
He asked “just got back frm jogging?
I replied yeah..
Hehe..
I lyk to see my face after I have run.
Cz my cheeks,pink2.
I lyk,den can see the wire2 as ash sd.
Its VEIN OK!
Not wire2.
I’m too fair lah..tt y..
But I still want to be fairer..!


Went home,
Told jijie abt tt
She larfed.
She said if she go dere,
Tis nyonya owaes tink she skooling.
Tis nyonya asked her
“meimei..u skooling ah.?”
Sis “no lah jijie..im werking..”
Nyonya “wow..so early..ur mother asked u to go market?”
LOLZ!
So I larfed n told her,
“wow..i look lyk werking..sure the auntie will tink wow tis ga very guai volunteered help her mom”
I tink I look older jz nw,
Cz I wore shorts,
Lyk very nice one she short,
N t-shirt,
Nice adidas watch,
Sandals..
Maybe tts y ah?
Lolz.
After dat,
Helped jijie iron her clothes.
Cz she want go werk.
Then went to shop,
Bought the macaroni.
I read newspaper oradi..
Drank 3 glasses of carrot juice
Tts why,im kol bunny.
Cz I eat veggies too.
I love tt ‘mixed vegetable juice’ drink!
YUMMY!
Ash sd,I have a rabbit nose,
N my cheeks,got tt wire2 ting
She idert lah!
Wen I tok to her,
She lyks to stare at my veins,
Scrutinize n later larf.
She said “I NEVER SEEN LYK TIS B4!"
Madness!
Aight babeh,
I’m goin to fag for one or 2 stix,
Den I go to slp.
Ltr wen I woke up,
I shall clean the house,
Iron summore clothes for my sis..
I want to shit lah nw..
Lolz!
AIYAH TIS AYUMI SONG NICE!!!NICEE!!!
Too bad I duno hw to sing tis song.
I noe sing the ‘fly high’
Haha...
i haven fnsh doin junk's blog.
lolz..later lah..
tata...


woensdag, december 24, 2003

news 2nite.......Ms Teo Hwee Nak got married yesterday...u noe the young lady who's a literature teacher in BNSS & she's now a journalist..she's married now...check it out at shazila blog....
-taken frm khai's blog

SHE GOT MARRIED?!!!!!OMG!!OMG!!!OMG!!SHE'S MARRIED!!FOR 2 YEARS I ADMIRE HER,SHE GOT MARRIED?!!!THERE GOES MY LUCK.DAMN!

I am sleepy.But i dun feel lyk slpng.Maybe,i shd continue watch the 'stormriders'. Hehe..aaron kwok yan! Wheex! -whistles- Sori for da naughty-ness.I lyk his muscles and tat movie,he acts the dao type!! Hmp..such an appealing.Maybe i shd be dao dao type. Lyk tat more attractive hor?Must be the serious2 type. Lolz! But my face dao2,can meh? Haikx...

went to mit berline just now.Was late(As usual).I was watching storm riders lah.Shiok2 watch..until 3.15pm.I quckly bathe den quickly clear the room n go out.Lolz..ferz tym take lrt.I min tis one the bt panjang one.Lolz. She neh scold me late.She's so calm n dun care one.We walked to her fren's hse.Bt before tt,me went to withdraw some chi'en..hen jio lehx n my legs lei oradi standing. Walked to her fren's hse.She ah,brought me one whole big round to her fren's hse.Bad person.My poor leg must suffer.So poor ting. Lolz..met her fren.We hanged arnd under her block.Ate bing kan!=D .Her fren sporty2 one,tan2!yayy! Dun get da wrong idea.Walked back to the plaza,took neoprints..and den,me went home.Tat berline she ah,im infront of her,want to gossip abt more.She sd i got ta ta li!Means,big eyes!Lolz..big panda eyes i shd correct u.Haha..n she gossiped wo ker ai lah..yan lah..Lolz..nt gossip lah.. just talking.Haha..dey spoke in mandarin,i can understand.Atleast i dun feel left out.Dey fun people!Haha.. i forgot whre she's from. I asked "u frm langkawi is it?" SHe sd "im frm spore" I replied "oh oh...haha sori!" She replied "ya lah..yandao sure meet many people oradi.." Lolz..whre got?? I tok to my didi on the fon after put down,she sd "yaya darling.." SUmting...she tinks i tok to my stead. Hello,i dun haf one.haha..wah,best nye de puji aku cute lah..hansem lah.. hehe.. =D Her fren got tis 7210 hp! or the 7210I! Wah..so fun! haha.. dey anyhow want take my pix! Tat noisee ger sd "come!i want take ur pix..very handsome i want!" Crazy..i dun pose for her.Dun lyk take pix.Very uglee...

I went to pierce my ear!Yayy..now my left one got 3 holes,the right got 1!I want pierce summore!Fourth hole! And den,industrial one AGN!ARGH!! Hmp..i want to have 5 holes on the left and 2 on the right.If plus the industrial,will be 6!!Yayy!hapi2! But no money.. i duwan spend anymore tis mth.Next mth can.Hmp..maybe tonight,i shall ask my sis to give me 5bux den i go pierce the fourth hole. I hope she lets me!PLs god!Help me..i want more piercings!!!MOREEEEEEEEEE!! if my parents not lyk cheebye,i would still have my tragus piercing.Its not tragus lah.Ive never seen any1 pierce lyk mine.Its the earhole dere,u noe the bone,its lyk the cup..tat one.. haikx n i will still be having my industrial one!THe industrial acherli closed cz i neh put ear stix.Thanks to tat mr pepek loh. -flashes middle finger-

I want fourth hole!THe more the merrier!! Bye!

Gd morning! welcome to anudder session of 'talking wif ryann'. Today,im goin to sing!!

have I told you how good
it feels to be me
when I'm in you
I can only stay clean
when you are around
don't let me fall

if I close my eyes for ever
would it eas the pain
could I breath again

baby I'm addicted and out of control
but you're the drug that keeps me from dying
baby I'm a lair but all I really know
is you're the only reason I'm trying


I'm wasting away
made a million mistakes
am I to late
there's a storm in my head
and a reese on my bed
when you're not here
I'm not afraid of dying
but I'm afraid of losing you

baby I'm addicted and out of control
but you're the drug that keeps me from dying
baby I'm a lair but all I really know
is you're the only reason I'm trying

when you're lying next to me
love is going thru to me
o it's beautiful

everything is clear to me
till I hit reality
I lose it all
I lose it all
I lose it all

baby I'm addicted
and trying ,trying ,trying
baby I'm addicted
Don't want to lose it all
baby I'm al lair but all I really know
is you're the only reason I'm trying

baby I'm addicted
baby I'm addicted
baby I'm addicted
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lolz! Nice not?? I love tis song!!SOOOOPA SOOOOPPA NICE!!Tis enrique, if his mtv,all the gals are gorgeous2 den kiss2(i oso want kiss) one except the mtv in 'para que la vida'.DUN ANYONE DARE TO DISS OR CRITICIZE HIM Oh man i love tat song!!i can sing spanish songs,japanese songs!! Multi-bilingual! I want to go for jap speaking class n sign language.Hrm..nvm,my sis got the sing language bk.I can learn frm dere.I duwan her to pay.SHe owaes spend on me i feel bad!If cheap can.Tis one expensive2! Yest,we went arcade.SHe topped up for me $20!Haha...we went to play the ting whre u can get prize. My sis said 'TIS ONE FAKE ONE!!' lolz. i asked hw can lah be fake.SHe sd,dey sumtyms chg the ssettings make if faster or wat... cz ur bro in law got werk lyk tis b4 wat.Lolz..realli?!!
whee!wait..a note to ash
congrats u r finally att after 5mths wif starlin

Lolz..kesian seh 5mths after den finali found sum1! Hmp..im not gonna find love. Lyk ive said, 'if i pass my n's, i wun go n find love.i want to concentrat8 on my studies,myself,freedom,support myself first financially"

WOw!tis berline flirtatious gal is onlyne!!Long tym neh see her onlyne.Hehe.. sian worx.Hmp..i want to buy a bicycle!!BICYCLE BICYLCE BICYCLE!!! So i wun be bored at home.I want feel how ash feels wen got no stead.I've never feel lyk dat except tt,i fl deprive of kissing.Tt tym im deprive,i kiss2 my ur bro.Not lips lah.Just cheeks and hair.If lyk tt deprive how?No i wun be cz i dun lyk any1 now.She sd she feels lonely w/o std.For me,im bored bein in a rs! Lolz! THe shortest tym bein single is 1 mth.THe longest is 4mths.See lah.. evrytym find sum1 new.... Now sian.

*yawns* Yest we went pasar malam!! Got tis gal working at mcdonald pretty2! Long hair,chinese,st8 hair,lyk the sporty type,fair2! Alala... haha.. she was sitting down.Me went to buy ice cream.SHe saw me we smile.N den i oso smile2.I walked oradi,i turned arnd to see her arnd,she was looking at me, smile2,i oso smile.Lolz.. -sings she fucking hates likes me- Ok..tts a bhb-ness. I bought earrings! Cz ltr the hole close.i bought the zip one! Lolz.. i want buy the shoe..but big larh.nvm wateva.. den we saw the manicure shop!! WOW!!i love beautiful nails.My sis encouraged me to do.Hmp.. duwan lah use my money $12.I got no money now.If i withdraw,ltr left a bit now?? Ltr sad.Lolz..

YEst too,we bought tis vcd 'mr vampire'.CHinese one.Funny one.Haha.. orite tts funny.My ygr bro watched,n he was afraid to slp.My bro in law,invited us,to slp 2gthr!So the 4 of us,crammed the bed wif only the queen size mattress! Lolz! TT y im not onlyne at nite.I was slpng. Want to mit tt berline not??Nvr mit her b4.But ah.she want go mit hr fren,take tings den talk2. Hmp.. nvm..i shall ask her to bring her fren oso lah.. den i bring my ygr bro or he can stay at the arcade. -lolz-

My ygr sis,sent me a e-postcard!Haha..so sweet.She's at my hse,im at my sis hse.Just the rite tym to open the mail n rite postcard.I woke up tis morn,n i wanna hear tt enrique song.THe spanish one 'escapar' no apaguez la luz' 'para que lavida' .GUess wat?SHe sent me an enrique postcard!! Yayy!! her note 'just to say hello n buy.dun nid to noe' Crazee! Nvm.. the postcard
feautured the escape mtv!I love tt mtv esp the secene they in the car! -grins- Tts my purpose to buy a car! =D WEll,nt realli.i want sumting cool.Sumting to love.i love my bike u noe!!

My tummy pain lah.Lyk aching!Yest me went jogging arnd the stadium,played themonkey bar,push-up n sit ups!!Yayy!it must be helpng me!I want a well-toned tummy.Hmp..have sum packs!!Den i can show off!Lolz..if i want show off, can at swimming pool only!eh..but i wear the lyk the diver!Oh!Who noes if sumting lyk wat oni..den i wear my sports bra n shorts! Den dey will go 'wow!nice tummy ah!' Whee!I want to repaint my nails lah.Not nice lah i paint.. haha. THe only ting gurlish abt me is i love my nails n i love to do my nails! Izit? my sis sd tt!haha..wateva lah..i want pierce ear!!

Yayy!im goin to mit berline!Atleast i wun be so bored.I asked her to buy essentials! But ltr i pay lah.. Lolz..ltr we can walk2,fag!Gd gd! Hmp..luckily she live bt panjang oni.SHe asked me to go her hse area!DUwan ah..i want go cck lot 1.Den ltr can send her to bt panjang mrt.Lolz.. she n me only mit?Lolz..its ok lah..im not shy2 lyk ash.LOlz.!But cnt go out so l8 ltr my ygr bro alone at home.Hmp..nvm lah..i go bt panjang,den we go bt timah.WALk2,den go home! Easy ah!haha

I love ayumi hamasaki!! Yayy!Next mth,i want buy her dvd! The video.SHe performed whre ah?I forgot!Okpeeps,enarf of the entry.I want go bathe n sing tt ayumi song in the toilet!!BYe!


dinsdag, december 23, 2003

1)STARTING TIME:
0253am

2)FULL NAME:
mai

3)NICKNAMES: bunny(argh!!!),mai,umberak(my uncle calls me tt!),merah(wtf for pple who duno hw to pronounce my real name)

4)SCHOOL: bnss

5)EMAIL: pvt pls.

6)EYES: dark brown

7)HEIGHT: 155 156.i duno.bt I checked yest tt my height is 157cm.i duno larh

8)SIBLINGS: elder bro/sis,me,ygr sis/bro

9)BEEN SO DRUNK BEFORE?: I dun drink

10)EVER BEEN CHEATED ON?: yea

11)EVER MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: I cnt remember.i h8 to go to skl wen it is raining cz I make an effort evrymorn to wax/gel up my hair

12)SET ANY BODY PART ON FIRE FOR AMUSEMENT?: not on fire.just light the lighter,n I play wif the flames.touch2 the flame..

13)KEPT A SECRET FROM EVERYONE?: I tink so..

14)HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND?: wen I was young cz my elder sis/bro were to pre-occupied wif demselves.i have anudder diary n I put a bogus name. Does tt count?

15)WANTED TO HOOK UP WITH A FRIEND?: no

16)CRIED DURING A FLICK?: huh?

17)HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: YES YES!!! For 2 yrs u noe..

18)EVER THOUGHT OF ANIMATED CHARACTERS?: yea

19)EVER AT ANYTIME OWNED A 'NEW KIDS ON THE
BLOCK?: I dun own.my bro owned dem.i dun read dem..

20)EVER PRANK CALLED SOMEONE: yea!!!hahaha..

21)BEEN ON STAGE: to receive prize,yea.



-----------------FAVORITES------------------

22)SHAMPOO: organics essential oil

23)COLORS: green,turqoise,hot red

24)SUMMER/WINTER?: summer

25)ONLINE: msn,blogging,surfing,finding new ideas to chg the layout frequently

26)LACE, SILK OR SATIN: silk

27)LIKE ANYONE: yea

28)WHO HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST OF YOUR
FRIENDS: dat jaja.7yrs.

29)WHO'S THE LOUDEST: oh!definitely not me.im the quiet,shy2 type. -ahem-

30)WHO'S THE SHYEST: ash

31)WHO DO YOU GO TO FOR ADVICE: anyone

32)WHO DO YOU GET ALONG WITH: frens,old grannies,the people.i tok to anyone I see

-----------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU----------

33)CRIED: yea


34)BEEN MEAN: just now

36)BEEN SARCASTIC: its my pastime

37)MET SOMEONE NEW: no

38)TALK TO SOMEONE YOU HAD A CRUSH ON: no someone new lah.. duwan all tis nonsence2

39)MISSED SOMEONE: bird bird..

40)HUGGED SOMEONE: yea

41)FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENT(S): yea

42)WISHED UPON A STAR: no

43)LAUGHED UNTIL YOU'VE CRIED: almost cried wen I heard those two is frm ping yi.im lyk WAT KIND OF FRIGGING SKL IS TT??lolz..

44)PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE: no

45)WATCHED A SUNRISE/SUNSET: bz hibernating

46)WENT TO THE BEACH AT NIGHT: no

47)READ A BOOK FOR FUN?: yea..

48)ATE A MEAL: no lah..i robot.i dun nid meal to werk.im the solar robot type.stupid qn!cheebye ah yu!of cz I eat la!

49)ARE YOU LONELY?: yea

50)ARE YOU HAPPY?:yea..went to escape last week

51)ARE YOU TALKING TO SOMEONE ONLINE?: no..

---DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------

52)GOD/DEVIL:god.but devils exist too!

53)LOVE: yea..

54)THE CLOSET MONSTER: eeeeeee!!skared!dun tok lah..lolz.u stupid qn

55)HEAVEN/HELL: bof exist

56)SUPERSTITIONS?: sum sort (Aye cheebye!!tis o-town we fit 2gthr isplaying!!wow shiok2!!-)

57)FULL NAME: wat has it got to do?

58)WHO NAMED YOU?: maternal grandma

59)BACKSTREET BOYS OR N SYNC?: bsn.n sync suck man esp Justin timberlake.

61)WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SHOWERED?: last year

62)WHAT WAS THE LAST THING THAT YOU SAID WHEN U
WERE ONLINE: tata

63)WHAT IS RIGHT NEXT TO YOU?: Kristin kreuk n ayumi hamasaki

64)WHAT IS YOUR COMPUTER DESK MADE OF?: I duno man..wood I tink..

65)WHAT WAS THE LAST THING THAT YOU ATE: fried rice

66)WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON?: cnt go Tokyo.married oradi ltr see gd looking pple,den lyk get intro trubble. Hmp.. antarctica? Lolz.. no lah..spain,vienna

68)WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: haikx..dun tok lah..

69)HOW'S THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?:-checks-its dark but got lights evrywhre cz the view can see BKE of cz got lights.or else the cars all langgar.lolz

70)WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?: onlyne

72)HOW DO YOU EAT AN OREO?: eat the cream first n den slowly bite the biscuit!food shld be indulge!not to gobble up =D tt why I eat very slow one..

73)ALL TIME FAVORITE TV SHOW: Lydia lum.. smallville (oh those 2 gd-looking pple.tom welling n Kristin kreuk.) I dun watch charmed anymore

74)DREAM CAR?: mazda the sport car one.rxs duno wt lah.. or a Tuscany. I want a sport car!or a jeep

75)WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP: nurse,paramedic,fire-fighter, webpg designer,teacher(lolz)

77)FAVORITE MUSIC?: alternative

79)FAVORITE FOOD?: definitely seafood n veggies.but I eat wats served.. lolz

80)FAVORITE DAYS OF THE WEEK?: if it’s the holiday,everyday.if skooling day,all sucks.

83)IF YOU COULD CHANGE YOUR NAME, WHAT WOULD IT
BE?: ryann sean Lukas!

84)DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?:
pillow n blanket

85)THE MOST STUPID THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?: haha..evryting is stupid

86)FIRST SON'S NAME?: randall

87)WIFE/HUSBAND NAME?: duno

88)FIRST DAUGHTER NAME?: adrienne

89)FAVE DRINK: ice lemon tea/vanilla coke/carrot juice/mixed vegetables. I duno..cannot choose one!

90)YOU LIKE SCARY OR FUNNY MOVIES BETTER?: funny

91)ON THE PHONE OR IN PERSON?: pErsOn

92)LUST OR LOVE?: lurve

93)IF YOU COULD CHANGE SOMETHING ABOUT
YOURSELF,: I wish I have a deeper voice cz my voice lyk baby,taller,more fairer,I want a dimple,I wish I dun haf eye bags but too bad its genetics, I have green or blue eyes.. ah wateva lah..all those vanity stuff

94)DO YOU CONSIDER CHEERLEADING A SPORT?: its not a sport.its saliva drooling…

95)DO YOU HAVE PETS?: no

96)WHO SENT THIS SURVEY TO YOU?: my friendster dere..

97)WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THIS PERSON?:its my gan mei who wrote tis

98)WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG?: its the gal caress my body.u got me goin crazee..turn me on.. N DEFINITELY AYUMI HAMASAKI!!! endless sorrows n fly high



100) DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO DO THIS
SURVEY?: if dey want too
----

Name : mai
Time started: 0323hrs
Birthdate: 25novemba87
Home town: Canada spore
Sec School: katong convent bnss
Pri School: eunos
Poly/Jc: see wat I get lah..
Uni: maybe..

Righty or lefty: bof.but I write faster wif right hand

~~~~~Your Looks~~~~~
Hair Colour: black
Eye Colour: dark brown
Do you wear contacts or glasses: perfect eyes
Do you have any piercings: I have but I dun put the earring. But 3 of dem closed.not left 2! If not,I will have the industrial,n d one wic os near the ear hole dere n my 1st hole!!argh!!
Do you wear any rings: sumtyms

~~~~~Just Lately~~~~~
How are you today: so-so
What does your hair look like at the moment: wait ah I check.oh its lyk,side parting n I look lyk a stupid person if I dun put on gel.i have a spiky hair.tts y.
What song are you listening to right
now: I dono.the radio.. but s dong is nice
What was the last thing you ate: fried rice
~~~~~More About You~~~~~
What are the last four digits of your phone?: 9594
If you were a crayon what color would you be?:
green
Have you ever almost died: YES!!! Almost getting hit by a bus cz of my tis tchr whom I have a crush on.i wanted to cross d rd.i saw d tcher. So I tot the traffic is clear lah.is for the pedestrian to cross.i just walk oni n have my eyes fixed on the tchr.i dun realize I almost will get hit until after the bus passed me.if I have walked anudder step,im dead.. summore my ex was dere!lolz. who cares rite..i dun lyk tt person.
Best advice anyone's given to you: cnt rmember
What sport do you hate the most: all I love.is pool a sport too?if it is,I truly hate pool.
How many phones do you have in your house: 4
Do you have your own phone line: hp? lolz
Animals: wat?
Place for a dream house: terrace hse all etc.. wic will cost a bomb
sprained/broken/fractured a bone: sprained. N I duno wats wif y tt mid finger.my mom got mad at me n she beat my middle finger.n thebone dere lyk gt sumting.i touch tt part,lyk my bone got lump tt kind.lolz… must be cz of the impact
Who would you tell your dreams to: I duno..any1
Who is the loudest friend: lyk ive sd..not me.. lolz.. -guilty look-
Who is the quietest friend: ash wen anrd gals
~~~~~You and Love~~~~~
Do you believe in love: ya
believe in love at first sight?: ya
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend:single not looking not available
Did you send this to your crush: no
What song do you want played at ur funeral: ayumi hamasaki the endless sorrows
Lights on/off: Off.
Do you like snow, sun, rain: rain
White or chocolate milk: duno lah..bof.dun ask me food can?I anyting can!
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: mud!!
Skiing or boarding: boarding
Day or night: nite
Cake or pie: pie
Diamond or pearl: diamond
Sunset or sunrise: sunset.. sunrise ltr hot lah.. cnt stand
~~~~~~Have You Ever~~~~~
Loved someone so much it made you cry: it even made me cry in the middle of the road.thank u.
Time finished: 0337hrs

I AM: ryann.
I WANT: money.essentials.hugs
I HAVE: dey left me
I WISH: i am frm a rich parents
I HATE: bein lonely
I MISS: wat else..
I FEAR: snakes,judgement day,cockroach
I HEAR: powerless by nelly furtado
I SEARCH: for love
I WONDER: will i eva be a normal gal one day
I REGRET: not studying hard for n.but i passed.but i hate the points
I LOVE: riding bicycle!! goin dwn hill!! fall...
I ACHE: i duno..
I ALWAYS: love u but u doubt my love
I AM NOT: normal
I DANCE: wen i fl lyk it
I SING: wenevai fl lyk
I CRY: wen i am sad..
I AM NOT ALWAYS: loaded wif $$$
I WRITE: poems..
I LOSE: confident easily
I CONFUSE: myself,bird,
I NEED: to pass my o level
I SHOULD: ti duno
Yes Or No...

You keep a diary: yes.
You like to cook: i dono hw to cook.if u give me recipe den i noe
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: i duno..
You believe in love: yes

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The weirdest person you know: ash
The Loudest Person you Know: han
The Sexiest Person you Know: uh.. yea...tt one.. *ahem*
The Cutest Person you Know: harry potter!!
Your closest friend(s): no close frens.frens.
The People that Knows the Most about you: i dono.dey psycho if dey noe so much abt me.

-----------------------------------------------

Do You...?

Have a(any) crush(es): no
Want to get married: i wish too.but pls look at my state!
Get motion sickness: no
Get along with your parents: like cats and dogs.
Like thunderstorms: no
BIRTHPLACE: spore hospital, singapore.

-------------------------------------

(FAVORITES )

NUMBER(s): 25
COLOR(s): green turqoise red
DAY(s): i duno
MONTH(s): november
SONG(s): tat turn me on song n milkshake
FOOD: seafood
SEASON: i duno
SPORT: anything as long not pool
DRINK: non alcoholic

-----------------------------------------------

( PREFERENCES )

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: bof
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: hot choc
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: all
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? all

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( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )

CRIED? haix
MISSED SOMEONE? yea.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes!
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yea
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? sms n kol
MISSED AN EX? yea...
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yea
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? no.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? maybe
FOUGHT WITH UR CAT? no.i dun own cats






maandag, december 22, 2003

im so blardaic piss.
since the comp at my hse is all fixed,
i shd go home.
here boring ah...
im too far frm my frens
if i go out,
i cnt leave tis stupid irritant alone at home.
must bring him.
if bring him,
ltr he go home,
n tells my mom abt my frens attitude wadde..
summore cnt do the usual ting we do...
argh stress.
also,cnt use the net so long,
sis one is dial up.
argh.
mine is broadband.
i shd go home.
home is whre i belong.
lolz.
not whre i belong.
but...
argh.

if i go home,i cn mit junk anytym i want,
we live only a few blocks away.
n can mit ash.
essentials.
argh.

im so pissed cz,
tis stupid irritant kept wakin me up frm slp,
n i dun wake up.
i nid to do the usual ting.
after i wake up,
i will bum arnd the hse.
he kept hurrying me to go to d hawker centre.
so he can give the excuse he want eat.
but acherli,he wants to goo to d arcade.
he went to kol sis n i got into scoldings.
he better watch out!
after i go hawker centre,
i shall drag him home,
if he want go arcade!
n i shall threaten him
tt i shall tell mom,
he spent 30+ bux on arcade games.
im nt backstabbing.
he back-stabbed me 1st!

-flashes mid finger-

im soopa bored.
im so hapi tis myojo song 'lady' is playing on d radio.
i bought tis small radio for $8.90 it has speakers!!kewl..
bro in-law asked me y buy tt.not shiok to hear
he told me his fwen bought tis fm/am tuner,
its so small,sleek and he asked me want him to buy for me.
i nicely decline.wat for buying tt?
small,sleak,expensive n i dun listen much to radio wen im outside.
bought it for fun...

haikx...
went to many places.
went to geylang,
imm,
diamond industry(at paya lebar),
chinatown,
home.

my sis bought a diamond ring.she so petty lah.
yarh..

tts all for today.

p/s: i write lyk tis,might as well dun blog rite?.lolz. nvm.. ash asked me to update..nuthing interesting to write)

zaterdag, december 20, 2003

im here.
im hungree.
reached sis hse at arnd 11.15.
lols...i ran all da way frm yew tee mrt to her hse.
cz i badly NEED to pee!
my bladder is in need for bus-stop.lolz...
i bought kfc zinger burger.
sis bought me pizza..n sum chicken.
wow!wich one to eat ah???

oh well..i passed my n.din noe tt n is so easy.
maybe not.
but first,these credits goes to, *drumrolls*
"n d award..goes to... NORA SUZANNA BTE SOHON AHMID S.O VARUKATTY ALLAPITCHAY!!" erps..sori babe.
i am so thankful.cz of u,ive never passed maths since sec3,
u made me pass!band 4!not bad babe!
thx,for makin all d way to my hse,just to tutor me last minute,
waited for me until my maths exam is over.
u r my saviour BIRD!!bird!!!
i will treat u to food wen i got money babe,
as a token of appreciation!!
n last but not least,thanks for helping me
wif my art.the sketches u helped me.
drawing nude girls for my art!!
a last minute preparation...
u helped me babeh! once agn,thank u.
btw,ure drawing is beautiful.splendid!!
BIRD BIRD!~THANK U!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVEEEEEEEE UUUUUUUUU!!!!!
-kiss kiss-

aight2..relax.i din noe,last minute cramming,
cld come in handy.
lolz..and i think the cambridge noes i did not study for n.
dey right!cz my combied humanities is 2.
n d rest 3 n fours.
i shd have studied man.if i had,
maybe the grades were different.
only studied ss n hist.
hist studied lyk mad!
i tell u,i can remember almost evry chapt n sequence.
lolz...haha.. !!

oklah..i hungree ah..bye!

woensdag, december 17, 2003

heya!
im goin home today.
tmr results.
im nervous.
i dun tink im able to sleep man.
i had 2 dreams.
one is i pass,anudder one is i sumhw fail
its blurry man wen the fail part
the pass one is i'm in skool,
i had to go to sum class to give stuffs
the class 3D.
Lolz... of all the class.
yaya..etc..
if i fail,
i say gdbye..
bus company!!
here i come!!
im joining ur company to be a bus capt!
haha..if i pass,
haiyah..duwan tok lah abt it.
haiks..shd haf studied more!!
argh!!
and if i fail too,
i'm ok wif it cz i noe ive studied hard enarf.
haiyah..
ok lah..
tata

vrijdag, december 12, 2003

hey hey!
just got back frm so many places.
went to 'association of deaf n mute' wif jie,
at mountbatten.
went to lil india,mit her tat mute fren.
haha..we ate.lolz
so full ah,my tummy can burst,
weehee!i'm so happy,
i'm able to sign!
Not tat pro lah.
Oh,just now,we climbed up the overhead bridge.
i breathless lah,
so i signed my sis "i climbed stairs,i'm breathelss!"
haha..she neh taught me,
i just guessed hot to say stairs,
but i am right!
lolz.. yaya..
i can communicate wit tat mute guy.
he sd me funny!
muahahaha..see!
lolz... just now want to alight,
i signed him "bye gay!"
haha..for fun kol him gay!
and i kept scolding him big breast.
oh,just now b4 met him,
he saw me on 1st glance,
he tot my sis walked wif a guy!
haha.. i look lyk guy mehx??
weehee..maybe cz of my spiky hair.
haha..
oh,sis bought for me,
a watch and a ring.
the stone is zircon.is a man made,sorta diamond!
haha.. i luv the watch!!
haiyah,tis ayumi 'endless sorrows' song,
i just dloaded,sum remixed one,
sound lyk a-go-go type.
wahaa...
*sings kimi himoshi tsuebe sana.. hi koh shi tei..na ku ta mo.. *
oh,den sis n i bought food for my bro in-law @ yew tee!
just now at lil india,she bought fruits.
not tat heavy lah.but i lazy to carry.
so i put it inside my converted pouch to haversack!
haha.. so cool ah the pouch!
haiya..bird2 go kl..
i'm all alone.
my sis just now wants me to wear the men's shirt(kemeja).
duwan ah..toooo guyish duwan ah.
lolz..
my sis wants bring me go midnight show!!
just now,on th way,
sis told me abt me wen i was young.
she said,i almost got given away to my auntie.
cz my auntie cnt conceive.
and my dad's family all psycho parents to give me to my aunt.
and got summore..
and dad oradi want to give away,
and my mom was lost cz imagine giving away their own child.
and my parents asked my jijie n kor to decide ah..
tat tym dey young.
at nite,they slept lah.
my kor dreamt i died,
he woke up n told my sis "i dreamt she died".
he cried lah!wahaa... so my sis went back to slp.
she oso dreamt abt sumting.
she oso say duwan to give me away
and the next day,dey duwan me to be given away.
so i'm still here in yusoff's family.
blergh!
and jijie sd my kor funny,
he asked if i am given away,who want to give me milk..
etc..
yah
if i am given away,
i grow up,i duno wat to do manx.
it will be depressing.
helped ash's archives section.
now ok readi.

p/s:i wanna go for sign language.shd i go ornot?i'm in doubt. shd i go or not go? my jie is willing to pay for the fees. should i?? i want learn. but my parents will say for wat ..

donderdag, december 11, 2003

Hey!
just now went IMM wif nowa!yayy!
I bought a sandal n a pouch..
so hapi!hehe..
spose-ed to go cck lot 1,
but her slippers brk lah..
hehe..so funny lah..
wun tell evryting..
we walked2 dere,
was in the sandal n pouch shop,
when a black-out broke out!
oh,i brought nowa to the slipper section,
i taught her to just dump her shoe dere.
so she just took the slipper paid for it,
n her broke slipper,just throw in the giant shop.
hehe.. sot..
uh..
why today evryone lyk sad,
jz nw my bro in-law tok2 wif my sis,
counselling.haha..
haiyah,so gd lah the hubby listens to her probs.
bro in-law asked want go KL onot shopping2!
Hehe gonna take train dere!
Im excited,cz ive never been in a train b4,
except for SMRT.
hehe..
cz,tat tym we in the bus,
i saw tis ting overhead lah,
i asked is tat overhead bridge,
and also cnt be one cz dat one whre gt pple can walk one.
bro in-law sd tats railway track,
n he asked want to go?
haha..yayy!
i want go shop2.
Nah..im acherli lookin forward for the train ride!!
haiyah!my jijie asked me to wake up 7am,
go serangoon.
want noe for wat?
just to eat thosai!
crazee ah..haha nvm lah,
if she want to,
den i haf to lah..
cz later poor her no one go wif her,
if sum bad guys kidnap her,
i sad oradi!
taa!

Hey guys!
See da new layout??
Do u lyk it??
Haha..well,i dun tink u lyk ayumi hamasaki.
But i do!
Hehe.. yah just designed it.
And everything,i did it my ownself.
except for background.i turned it from wallpaper to my background!
yea..n the navigation,i haven do it.the layout is not complete..
Heex..
I'm hungree...haikx..i want go to cck lot 1! buy LJ!
whee..ok tata..
i love tis layout cz dere's ayumi n everything is done by me!lolz!
gd job ryann,ure in the next step of becoming a web page designer!

woensdag, december 10, 2003

1. What is your full name?
mai de souza! lolz!

2. When is your birthday?
251187

3. What is the best gift you ever received on
your birthday?
as long its a gift..

4. What schools have you attended?
pap eunos,eunos pri,katong convent,bedok north

5. What can we find on your study table?
i dont have one.. i dun use table..i have shelves!

6. Favourite ice cream?
macademia choc nut! belgian choc..aniting as long choc!choc chip..

7. Favourite cartoon character?
SPONEGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!! if anime will be narusegawa frm love-hina

8. Who is the hottest cartoon character?
love-hina

9. Do you think you can win a million dollars on Survivor?
nah.i dun even want to enter...

10. Who would you take with you on the amazing race?


11. Which of your classmate would you take with you on Amazing Race?
if guy i will take,tuck wei or jin long or melvin.girls will be ash or khiz. Khiz can run arnd so yah..altho she full of world

12. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
hair n clothing style

13. Do you think anyone in your class is hot?
I am!

14. Do you have a crush on someone in your class?
=)

15. Who do you think is hot amongst your friends of your gender?
never met one

16. Do you play a musical instrument?
drum but not tat pro,recorder,

17. What movie makes you cry?
wen the lover die or wat..

18. Who makes you cry?
parents

19. Who makes you laugh?
bird bird..n everyone

20. What would you save first if your house is burning?
refrigerator!got food inside!

* What 3 things would you save first if your house is burning?
refrigerator,stove and bed

21. Do you like animals?
parrots,rabbits,cat,puppy(i wish we can have one),elephant.aniting as long not creepy crawlies!

22. What would you name your children?
so many names!if guys,ryann,lukas,rayon,mikey,matthias.gals,adrienne,ariel,lorainne,cheryl,rachelle,nichole,

23. Have you ever fallen for someone who was attached?
no

24. Do you have a nickname?
ya

25. What do you think of homosexuals?
hehe! rocks!

26. What do you think of good looking and hot homosexuals?
hot drags!! -whistle-

27. How many times have you told someone you loved him/her?
if i luv dem,i tell dem all the tym

28. Did u mean it when u said it?
ya

29. Have you ever kissed your date before the 4th day?
can't remember

30. Which outlets do you do most of your shopping at?
popular!i love to buy books!kinokuniya is seldom

31. Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt?
tom cruise

32. How do you spend your weekend nights?
laze arnd the hse,tv,online..

33. Whats the most valuable thing that you have lost?
not lost but broke it.my sis broke the keychain tingy mom gave me.den i sad oradi n cried!

34. Do u think the person who sent this to you is cute?
i stole tis quiz

=======================
ok..im slpy lah now..i fl lyk drawing some anime cartoon.haha.. wanted to go town wif ash n kat.
made plan oradi yest.but jz nw nora asked me out to eat.but was raining.so i tld her to cum here
and order pizza.i duno hw to say.suddenly she cancelled she sd duwan come.she sd she sad cz today her
bdae why must she do evryting come here n she order pizza.den i fl bad,and i was struck wif an idea.
i told her to come here..pleaded her to come.yah..while she on d way here,i went to the bakery n bought
her a cake lah.. hehe..yah.. she reached.lala..firstly,i made her feel bored.pretend lyk as if dere's
no celebration.haha..after for a while,i took out the cake!she was touched!i saw her lyk want cry!
waha..i sang for her bdae song!!see i so gd.I forgot to buy her a rose.i did not see a flower shop
here..ya lolz..spent the day together until 9.30pm..

bye!

asphyxiated* >>> 365 days to 18. says:
BIRD U WANT BE HOUSEWIFE IZZIT?
dementophobia>>long.way.home says:
why
dementophobia>>long.way.home says:
?
asphyxiated* >>> 365 days to 18. says:
u always do housework
asphyxiated* >>> 365 days to 18. says:
i never see bung like u before

lolz im trained to do hsewerk wat!besides,i stay my sis hse n she so kind to me. As a way to say thanks,i help her wif the hsewerk cz she n her husband is working wat.I feel bad if i just stay at her hse n neh do aniting.If lydat,who want such pple to stay at their hse if oni lazee gd for nthg. haha.. Also,i nid to wash my clothes too n her washing machine packed wif clothes so me help her lah... i'm lyk tis cz i dun lyk mess.So if i noe hw to hsewerk now,if i have my own house,my hse will be spick n span!see.. i'm one of those kind who dun love mess.If i go ash room,eyes pain!Hw can she live wif surroundings lydat?? If me her,i clean all the stuff n throw away unwanted stuff cz her grandma will ask her to put back the unwanted stuff tat why messy. Haha..

if at home,i worst ah.. evrynite wash dishes!but here i oso do.But not much cz we eat out.. oni wash sum cups.. one or two.. haha..

*sings:for the good times and the bad..i'll be standing by u!!!! we in heaven* *ryann shakes butt,rubs her body wif the pole,lick the pole,crawls on the floor, turn turn..*

sori abt tat.im bored n im listening to techno! Weehee!! haha. Me chattig wif kat n birdee! Today is some bird's bdae.Duno wic bird lah.. *grins* To tat bird,
Hapi 17th Bdae!May ur luck wun be so bad!!if tat stupid blacky so bad to u,u scold him! muacks!

Wow!2004 18 oradi!But haven bdae not 18 lah.Cn help me buy cigarette!! weehee!! Yaaa..kuttt! *sings:calcutta i am taxi driver man in calcutta.taxi taxi taxi in calcutta..i am taxi driver man!!!* waha... tat dr bombay lyks to say Yaaa..kuttt!! Maybe he want yakult lah..but calcutta neh sell.

chattig wif nowa we talking abt khiz.tis gal in my class.Lyks to 'world' man! She dyed her hair brown n she go around saying her hair is natural brown.She brought her mom to school to tell the principal it is true.Just because the mom hair also brown means its true.Nonsence siah!If lyk tat i dye green hair n make spiky hair go school den bring my mom oso do the same. Can say.. nono!the spiky hair are genes.ITs natural standing! cheebye. She also said her birth cert got put hair color.She sd hers is brown!Wtf man.. I tink birth cert must register upon the birth or the next day.Summore baby, hairless hw can noe brown?!!! Stupid.She tink she alone got birth cert? She tink we all born in the toilet tat y no birth cert?Stoopid woman. Duwan tok abt her ah..

me listening to ayumi hamasaki!! i want buy her cd.$27.90.Haiyah.. wo mei yo ci'en(i no marnee). TIs song reminds me of caroline!My x crush. Junk noes she bad siah. she anyhw say "eh,she lyk u,u noe.she handsome onot?" Hehe.. n tat gal sd "yah handsome.i oso lyk her!" Den we hug2. But.. nah.. maybe she joke2 lah.SHe ah..if got probs,owaes come to me.She introduced ayumi songs! Dat was when me in sec2! haha..she email-ed me yest.Wah..she sd she miss me lah.. whee! No lah..dun gt wrong idea lah.. Me neh lyk her now. Haikx..

haikx.Stoopid.haha.. i tink i want go fold clothes lah.Yest i did the laundry.Now i want to fold.Me volunteer service!haha.. i duno if the pants n underwears are already dry not.cz its drizzling or raining now.Cnt see lah.. my sis live so high cnt see clearly..all lyk hazy.haha.. but the shirts are all dry cz i put in the dryer but the pants i hang dem on the pole!

ok wat shd i do now must make plan man.
lazee at the sofa n watch cartoon for 30 mins n buffer my nails!
go n bathe,brush teeth
tidy both rooms
fold clothes
sweep the floor

yayy! orite done.gona do tat.Haiyah..i'm lyk so girly lah buffer the nails! but nice wat shiny2.N im brought up being vaine by my parents.So now im vaine. Whee!enrique song 'no apaguez la luz' Its dun turn off the lites in spanish!!
I can sing tat song ok!!haha.. ok..taa!

~oh yea.so no apaguez.me hace falta verte cada vez mas.mer que nar divinar~ the rest duno hw to spell..

dinsdag, december 09, 2003

hiiiiiii!

so hapi. watched oni one part of my sassy gal.tired lahto continue.

was awake frm 7am cldnt fall aslp until 1pm.so 1pm slpt until 2pm.in d middle, my jijie kol me.i duno wat she ask.if i was slpng n gt fon kol or pple qn me,i will reply but wen i woke up,i cnt remember aniting. bt i remember tt she kol jz to say hi n wat i am doin.so sweet!2pm+,thx to ash.she kol me,i woke up.so dragged myslf out of the sofa..lazee..cleaned the bedrm.. spose to mit hr at 4pm at orchard.bt 3pm me go n bathe.haha..so inconsiderate of me.

yah..met her.haha..i got my bdae prezzie.belated.a bracelet sumkind.but d sad part is,i neh wear it.i dun wear such stuff.. maybe i'll wear it lah..see ferz. she shd haf bought me a watch!10bux oso can.cz i wear watch evrytym.so it wun be a waste.yaya..

haiya so lazee to elaborate...just summarise
went to eat at far east,ash bought ring n a new lighter!$10 fuck ok!i want buy one too ok!!but i dun smoke much.argh
fag2,
me neh pple watch ah altho sum gals look at me.smile2 siao izit?i dun smile at dem i pretend neh see dem.im just no mood to see gals lah.sick of bein in rs.,
eat ice cream at hiagen dazs.duno hw to spell wat fuck,
went wisma to get hr ring engraved,
bought my love-hina vol10 at kinokuniya,
ash went home,
me went jurong pt to fetch sis,
was l8 for 15mins(u duno me izit?Guest of honor grand entrance),
she neh scold me,
maybe she forgave me,
hello!i signed language to her 'i am sorry',
so it will me more sincere.maybe lah,
went into tis shop name 'sasa'.stupid shop name,
perfume shop,sell vaine products for pple lyk me,
she loves tat romance ralph lauren i tink,but i noe romance la,
me sprayed those on my shirt.so fresh,
she sd "eh..u anyhw oni" nvm,
went to the esprit perfume,
the new frag 'for my delight',
smell nice,
i told her "smell nice!",
she asked me "take ah..",
was appalled,
so generous of her(As usual),
duwan to take it but,
she insists,
cz i dun lyk expensive gifts as i'll fl bad for receiving one,
yah..
went to the haircare section,
she came to me n asked,
"tis gel gd not?",
sd "tis wax.why?u want put on?",
she sd "no lah..buy for u.u want?"
kindly decline,
nah..duwan lah,
i've got one oradi l'oreal,
dun rili lyk gatsby wax,
asked her whre to find thenailtingy,
u noe lyk u tis ting,
den ur nail will shine,
nail buffer i tink.lolz,
can't find,
atlast,
while paying,
saw tat.
i bought it wif my money,
i fl bad lah if she buy for me,
she wanted to pay,
i insist.
yah..
bro in law waited for us while we bought food.
he drove us all the way dere to bt.timah,
sis did some transactions,
went home,
lala..
end.

yah..haix..WHY MUST EVRYTYM QUARREL WIF NOWA?!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT!! cancelled the meeting cz yest(sunday) we quarrelled agn,i sms but neh reply.u guys,noe lah i quarrelled.see prev entry lah.i tot she duwan mit me.. haikx.. so i made plans wif ash.My fault izit??

was watching vcd n i tld her i reply her later.she ltr sms-ed im too busy for her. just now cancelled outing,n watch vcd.argh!!i cnt be owaes free rite?!! tis morning,kol her oradi.entertained oradi.argh! duno lah..she sd dun bother to sms/kol.duno lah..i fed-up lah evrytym quarrel.HATE IT OK!! argh! wtf. i'm goin to grave soon.haikx..all heartpain..duwan find gf..more heartpain..cnt stand...haikx.HEARTPAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! duwan gf anymore..6 ex gf sick oradi.-sobs- want to be str8.. nono.. i will find drags..gays... DUWAN GFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! cheebye all leech only. no wonder me so skinny n short.not enarf blood. orite,i'm mean lah. nvm.. my blog,n i bitch wat i want.dun lyk,go fuck urself!

tis ash kept bugging me for love-hina vol5 and the rest.haiz.ash,u return all the comic frm vol 1 first den i lend u.i love my bks n if borrow,must return.dat jaja better return me my hist textbk or i slaughter her!i am very particular esp bks. if borrow my bks must take GD care.cnt got dog ears,folded,scribbles, a lil tear.i wun lend the person anymore if my bks are abused.haha.tats me. other tings can lil wrong.bk cnt.

junk invite me go her hse.so far frm cck.hw?1h45mins journey to bedok.one bus-stop away frm my hse.haix might as well go home.haiyah..i want go but aiyah..if neh go ltr fl bad.argh!!!!!!!!!!! of all days.why must be tmr!!!!!! i planned tismorn want mit nora.EVRYTYM GOT PLAN,SURE GOT ANUDDER PERSON ASK PLAN OSO!! wen i no plan,no one bothered.MADNESS!! Junk asked me bring nora to her hse.but ltr if quarrel agn lyk tis morning,i make plan den cancel she will scream at me agn!!! Not cancel lah. i tink she wants oni us to go out alone.ARGH ARGH!!! nvm.cool dwn.better go n have a nice shower!its 1.20am.my jijie is snoring away.jealous!

p/s:the layout i haven complete it.i'll find a nicer pix of ayumi n a new layout.i want to shower.tis layout is temporary.

zondag, december 07, 2003

I SHD HAVE BOUGHT CIGARETTES!!!fucking fuck! here at my sis hse whre to buy??
argh!!i want to mit ash n frens tmr.but duno if dey can...

.im.in.need.of.cigarettes.

ok.cheebye too.
nora read my tt entry abt tat mute.she scolded me inhuman cz i scolded him until lydat.dementophobia>>.... says:

ok...
dementophobia>>.... says:
look
dementophobia>>.... says:
u said me inhuman cz i scold him
dementophobia>>.... says:
if he's not mute,
dementophobia>>.... says:
will u have sided him?
dementophobia>>.... says:
if u side him prob cz he's mute,
dementophobia>>.... says:
i might be wrong to say tat sutff to him
dementophobia>>.... says:
but he shdnt have sd tat remarks
dementophobia>>.... says:
lyk tat tym
dementophobia>>.... says:
i said u big in physical
dementophobia>>.... says:
but i did apologise
dementophobia>>.... says:
did he?
dementophobia>>.... says:
no!
dementophobia>>.... says:
n u imagine u first tym mit sumone
dementophobia>>.... says:
u neh tok to her or wat
dementophobia>>.... says:
suddenly she sd to u
dementophobia>>.... says:
"u fat ah!"
dementophobia>>.... says:
u lyk?!
dementophobia>>.... says:
if she had apologised,u wun get angry rite?
dementophobia>>.... says:
he din apologise ok
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
you're doin it again.
dementophobia>>.... says:
wat?
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
you fuckin asshole.
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
get lost
dementophobia>>.... says:
huh?
dementophobia>>.... says:
wat?
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
I HATE YOU.
dementophobia>>.... says:
wat?

U see!tats why we dun werk.she loves siding others but neh tink of me.

Ok.i might me wrng to say lydat abt dat mute.In a sympathy view,u guys might say i am bad for sayin all tt abt him and maybe he is just giving a casual remark.Lyk wat nora sd,she's just saying casual remark.But in overall view, u see,he duno me.he dun tok to me.ok tats fine.and den suddenly u guys imagine u in my shoe.just mit.den suddenly sd to u "u smelly ah!" or maybe "ee..u fat ah!!" U lyk?!! Maybe its a casual remark.But casual remark oso got and extent too.I dun mind seriously if he sd me tomboy.But,if he HAD sd tings lyk "sorri ok.i did not mean it..just saying only" LYk dat,i will not get angry.ANd i will noe its not casual remark.If he did not apologise,it might be an insult or wat ok. So nora,u go and pity other.dun pity me! EVen if i sd u pyysically big,it was a joke n i apologized to u many tyms ok!U duwan to forgive me n duwan tok to me anymore.So i cnt say anyting.

Stupid.I dun care if any of u say me bad cz i sd all those mean stuff abt tat mute guy.Look lah,if its a casual remark,u shd say sorry ah if u say "u fat" or wat.Unless if its lyk "hey pretty gerl!" Or wateva ok!Anything good is ok for me.

asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
i know im fuckin fat
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
you dun haf to fuckin remind me all the time
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
you dont have to fuckin rub it in all the time
asphyxiated* >>> stab me. says:
i seriously hate you damn motherfucker

my fault agn?FOr me,if pple say me tomboy i angry.but if nora pple say her fat she get angry.so its the same ok!She gets angry! of cz i get mad wen pple say me tat.i oso noe i'm not str8.u see lah.. pple give e.g angry until lydat.

hi!
me at mys is hse.slpng here until i get my result.i duwan go home. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! i am angry.angry angry.

U noe wat!wait ah i relax first.orite.we go jln hari raya lah.my jijie brought her.haiyah!lazee lah check tis fridae.haha..but got sum chiobus send me heart!! waaaheeeee! orite.

back to tis.she brought her guy fren lah.but he's mute lah.my sis can speak sign language.yah.so we walk2..den he sd me tomboy.my sis sd "mai!he sd u tomboy". I want to scold him ok!! he anyhw only outsider first tym mit say me tomboy!he tink he byk hansem izit?!!his goatee lyk sheep nye janggot! sial. So i sd "haha..nvm ah". My sis lyk shock cz i sd nvm only.I tell u guys ah! even i noe hw to sign some basic sign language,i am angry wen he sd me tat. althou i nt expert in signing,i can anytym sign vulgarities to him ok!!!! CHEEBYE AH!!No wonder he is mute!If he can speak ah,worst siah he will talk. wait later i pray to god i will say tis "Oh my god,Allah.thank u for makinf tat fadli mute.if he nt mute,i duno wat he will talk.u so clever one!" CHEEBYE. Lyk hello!he's outsider he anyhw say me tat.If my bro in law or wat say me tt,i dun mind lah.we close.he dun even kol me tomboy ok!i owaes bully him mr bean but he so kind.he bully me my name mai duno hw he sd in hokkien style. WARGH!U noe wat,i lyk want to bully tat mute ok!stupid mute!!wahaha!! i shd sing infront of him. "i am a normal person..i have mouth..i have voice box. i can sing!!not lyk some human,got mouth,toungue but too bad no voice box.mute mute!!MUTE!!!!!!!wahaha..oh god,u so clever made him mute!! waha! u best sia!! i salute u manx!" I tell u,if i angry,i just say wat i want. I dun care if it hurts dem to core.I am a foul person.If u make me angry,i make u angry!I make u cry oso can!I lyk want to bash him sia.Shall ask ash to bash him.junk dun bash pple.If we bash him,he cannot shout for help!WAHAHA!!!!! MUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! MUTEE EH?!!!MUTE IZIT?!!!! or maybe i shd sit bsde him n ask "why u neh tok?mute ah??mute izit??mute ah?!!!wat...sori! u mute?!?!i cnt hear ur voice.u mute ah??reali mute?!!muahahaaa mute siah!u mute shd go n die lah..no nid live lah..!! "

maandag, december 01, 2003

hello!!!!
im at nowa's hse.we gonna go buy *** hehe..lolz. tat crazy bung. handsome shot hair.nah.. jk..i just find tat she looks gr8 wif the short hair.lolz

so sian lah..why her laptop dun have cranberries or anything nit pop rocks?? so many blink 182 songs.yuck yuck.thx to tat non-cebok gal i h8 blink 182... ok..i wun be online until god noes when cz my comp spoilt.my stupid ygr sis use until nite, dad got up and jsut witched off the switch off.fuck man.i tink the motherboard or wat crashed oradi. cnt on.. only monitor can on. argh..

today cancelled outing wif harry n wardah cz u want mit tis nowa. my list..

tuesday:outing wif harry n wardah
wednesday:cut hair
thursday:i duno if im goin out wif ash
friday:gonna go joggn in the morning wif raine.but tts not confirm.tat woman i told her i want jog bt no one want follow. den she voluntered herself.lolz so funny lah dat sotong ger.yah...told her maybe friday.ltr or wat..maye i msg her to confirms!i want chalenge er see she strong ornot run arnd reservoir.she sd if tired i carry her.no way man.i throw her in the reservoir!!hahaha..orite..taa