Its my party and i cry if i want to.

Okai yan is sleepin on the floor instead of on her bed. Without pillows!!! She looks so comfy.
=) Shit what stupid song is this? Mariah carey!

I like Heidi alort from sugababes. She just looks freaking awesome in 'push the button' mtv. Everytime i see her, i think i have orgasm.Uncontrollable orgasmic behavior.

Note the spaces. I have nothing to write. Oh i know i can smoke legally nowwww.

There's this weird kiddo chatting with me on msn. About her school & stuff. Weird cos i don't know her. I mean i forgot about her name. I totally forgot about her.And she wished me bdae, u don't suppose wishing someone and it turns out 'Oh..who are you?sorry i'm suffering from extreme dyslexia. i hope you're ok with that'.

Every year friends ask me what i want for my birthday. And i always invariably say the same thing.

I don't know.anything.

Then So what's your plan?

I don't know.

The word i has already been a part of me i guess. Probably my brain cells disintegrated and RIP somewhere. On the other hand i want some peace.

But beyond the commercial trappings of life, in which I freely and unashamedly admit to participating, what I really wish for myself and for everyone is peace. I don't mean no loud music, no dog barkings, mute-d bus etc. I'm talking about emotional and mental peace, which is harder to come by. Sometimes when i go home, i wish i have this thing like 'partially deaf mode'. Dad always pisses the shit out of me. Oh god.

But i think it has to start from inside you - whether it is a conciliatory gesture to an estranged loved one, a donation to the needy, presence for the one in troubled, or even a hug for a friend in need. To paraphrase the Beatles, the peace you take is equal to the peace you make.

Whatever.

I'm not coming back. Don't wait for me.

Baby goodbye..

This news is so hard to express and to be typed down.

I LOST MY MP3. BLOODYY BLOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDYYYYYYY!!

ARghx. Basically i'm in the battle, as in clod war with the passengers in the bus. I pondered if the bus is going to the zoo. They behaved like hooligans, one shouting, screaming, laughing loudly, blast their music. SPeaker-mode. Though i know they will say "shit i pay the bus fare" . My reaction, SO do i bitch! And the rest of us. Ok i'm crapping.

I am overly saddened. If there's sucha word. Overly saddened over my loss of mp3. FUCK FUCK. FUCK FUCK.
Oh fuck. URGH!!

Went to watch emily rose. The devils ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE SIX!!! Ahh.. it was okay.
Went playground-ing. We spinned and spinned. That shitty spining top, the three of us got squashes, i vomitted twice like nobody business. Quarter of the playground got my vomit. AHH nvm i don't feel like blogging. I LOST MP3.

10moredaystoeighteen.oouh.

you really are my ecstacy.

This is the end of all hope...

Someday when i get older
I wanna own a restaurant
And be successful.
Or probably a social worker.
Own a car or a bike since my mom badly wants to.

Someday i die like in pearlharbour!
Someday when i retire
i wanna live in a farmhouse
Plough fields or maybe have tractors doing the job.
Ride horse with that hat i've always wanted.
Watch the sunset and sunrise
With my wife.
To rear chickens!
Or maybe just rabbits will do.
And spending quality times with the kiddies.
That's the stupid imagination i had when i was 3.
At the age of 3,
I wrote a card to my childhood friend,
I LOVE YOU.
Haha i guess she didn't think that way.
But each time when i see her,
Its funny how we used to ride bicycle together,
Share our bread, play on the rocking chair and vandalize the walls.
PLay games every afternoon till the evening,
And our mom have to drag us home.
=)

Today marks the day of my impending freedom!
YEE HAW NO PAPERS.
What's left is science MCQ on 22nd.

3days later is my legal age.
Sad case they banning smoking,
Like everywhere.
They "wiping" the smokers like the holocaust man.
Why on earth should they ban like everywhere?
Since they got alot of profits from taxing the cigarettes.
Oh yeay..casino is coming soon so they don't bother.
No ISD don't arrest me.

And then i'll still be in a big dilemma
Whether to take driving or riding or just don't bother.
If i don't, mom will nag.
If i take driving she said "You're rich enough to buy your own car"
She wants me to take riding license.
=) or =( ?
Nevermind, just take for the sake of "lifelong learning"

Did i tell you some aunties or the public is partially blind.
Like SERIOUS CASE THEY ARE.
I was in need of a seat in the bus,
This double bass dumb auntie pretended like she can't see me.
She didn't even bother to give me the empty seat next to her.
My anger uproar and i was on the verge of yelling at her,
All the crude words.
Oh maybe she's just blind and that its lucky she manage to get into the
right bus i suppose.
Bloody chinese.
Even if she doesn't understand english,
I'll scream at her in mandarin.
ARGH.

Speaking of which,
I wanna take sign language course!
=) OUH then i can sign lang and pretend i'm mute.
HAHA.

Then this period will pass so fast and i have many months to rot.
Soon i shall reflect on what i've done this year.
I'm just happy that i love my niece a gazillion loads.
SHE's mine mine mine.
BABY BABYNIECE!
=)


Before she was only like this



i wanna grow old
and spend forever with you
and die peacefully in your arms.

Pounder.

Physics paper just now. =) Atleast its better than chemistry. I should be prepared for the worst.

Yesterday supposedly to be studying with dear cuppy.
Lunch at bugis then to national library,
It was bloody crowded!
Then we walked around bugis just to find a photocopier,
Walked till burlington square, sim lim, rochor, almost near serangoon also.
Still no copier,
Went to Bt merah.
HAHA.. one page is 3cents. CHEAP.
Study at the library,
Almost lost on the way home.
It was fun lar,
Except I can't be bothered to list.
Then she bought me candy. =)

Alighting the bus, this small girl told her mom
she saw us smooching.
She said in mandarin!
HURHUR.

Alright,i'm too tired now.

I wonder if it is always my fault. Or am i too insignificant.
Like i said, i cannot be bothered. I don't wanna deal with any ex anymore.
Risking this beautiful rs.Its too late, even if its no too, i don't wanna try. Yes you're right, i'm happier now. You'll find someone better.
Trust me. Till then, take care. Even if you still potray me as the bad figure again, i don't care any less. I still hold on to my pride. 6months without any words from you, how can i have the least idea to wait? Take care fer now.
-This paragaraph has nothing to do with the author's feelings.

BABY smurfie muacks!

i run to you, when i can't find the way
I get lost in you.