Wet day...

Evaluation test today. Everything was all oh so perfect. Figure of 8,crank course, plank. But e-brake, I skid and fell. MEGA CHEEBYE SIAL! I locked my elbows and stuff,looked straight, i think i jammed too much on my rear brake. When the bike dropped on the ground, I realised I actually fell. CHEEBYE SIAL... Its raining thou, so its ok i guess. ARGH CHEEBYE. Plus, this crap moronic car, is a fucker la. I was on the right lane, i wanted to go to the left lane. The car was on my left. So i waited for her to like overtake on me, i tink my engine almost stall lar while waiting for her to overtake me. So i guess that shit fucker wanted to give way on me cos the slower i go, the slower she goes too. That car wanted to go the right lane la. So stupid car meets angry Ryann, I remember i scolded her "Cheebye la kau musibat!!!PUKIMAKKK!" I was cursing like a mad woman in the circuit. Kns la i got an immediate failure. Reason "Failure to give way to vehicle right-of way". CHEEBYE la..that's the dumbfuck car problem la. Stupid woman! I was so outraged, i felt like punching her. I don't know why i'm so angry just now, probably the rain. And yes, as i've alwas predicted, i'll skid. There goes today damn prac. Two immediate failure and 16points. Because change lane abruptly and poor acceleration. If not for this, i think i'd pass on my first attempt (Mcm confident jer). I'm so angry larr! But its ok, even if there's no immediate failure, i'll flung too. Hopefully the next one will be a better one.

I miss this shahidah lar. Can't wait to meet and bitch around. I missed working with her. Probably i wanna quit starbucks. URGH.

Together in all these memories
I see your smile.
All the memories I hold dear.
Darling, you know I will love you
until the end of time.

June afternoon...

Work last weekend was great plus tiring. I can hang on making espresso, cappucino, latte and etc. Except what infuriates me is their individual teaching method on how to memorise how many pumps or shots. Shut up la fuck i can memorise my own style. URGH. Anyway i should thank them for being so helpful. Apart from milk spilling, hazelnut and caramel syrup spilled on sri, me breaking three mugs, things were still splendid. Our closing partner didn't turn up. So manager and farhan and me slacked in the office while peering if any customers walks in. We traded stuff with orange julius. Crapped and laugh and cursing each other. I realised us in the service line need to smile and be polite no matter how bitchy the customers are. After they had purchased stuff, we would curse them and complain we should have slap them. We get angry when customers takes eons to place order. Last friday night, went over to gelatissmo to meet farid. Traded too. I don't like the stuff there. Their shakes can lead to diabetes. Literally thou.

Work again this friday. Plus parents flying away the day after. OH I DON'T WANT THEM TO GO. I'm gonna cut my terrible fringe, cos my face is not smooth anymore. -whines

Today video is from roxette-how do you do. Cascada did a remixed from it. Its nice, techno stuff. But the original one from roxette is better. =) Cheers! Plus i lost their 'look sharp!' album. Means no roxette. I've always love them since 1994 =)




And below is june afternoon from the same band too. YAYY!

stars about to fall...

you know i fucken love you so.
can you decipher that?

when i'm with you,
i'm closed to tears
cause you only almost here.
haven't i always loved you?

I'm singing one last time...

Today's training is fun except for this crap guy by the named of ash. EEKS don't talk about him. Coffee is eew to him and why the hell is he in starbucks. He said that our price for a short cup is $4.10 is daylight robbery. This is not hawker centre u can get your cofee for 80cents man. Also today, I avoided tasting "bold" coffee. They taste too strong or either it makes me sleepy or "creating" some roller-coaster rides in my head. We got to taste kenya coffee,but i just taste it at the end of my tongue n swallowed it with coke! As long as the taste doesn't linger in mouth/tongue, i'm fine or i'll get dizzy. BAHH.

Dad is bullcrap. Yeah it is true that your salary plays a big role in this 'real world'. You should be working for $1k instead of $800. But for me, I'll be motivated to work if i enjoy what i am doing. Why should i be working for something in which i hate/detest it. Where's the fun in working in an environment where you can't have fun or be your ownself. Yes, the value,the money thingy is there. But where's the passion man? For instance, if working in CBD area, working 5 times a week everyday is 9-5 and desk-job, where's the kick. I'll rather be garfield atleast i can eat and be mean. Each time he nags at me about this, i'll get fucking pissed off and literally wanna throw him and be eaten by stray dogs. In life we need to enjoy what we do. Not for the sake of, 'WE JUST HAVE TO DO IT'. Life is about choices. ARGH. Dad you should eat poo lars. Even if he thinks this is a low-class job, i'm doing what i like. He's just being low class cos his job is fucking mundane plus he just work for money and no passion is there. He hates using computer and semi-computer illterate. BAHH. Besides, its not as if i'm going to work starbucks till the day my bones goes "Stiff". Cause i love a change of environment. Probably bus captain? Or security guard?

2.4km test run this thursday. I hate the fucking teacher la ok. How can he told the class that they can run 4rounds instead of 5rounds. That's not 2.4 OK! Poor me, i have to run 5rounds instead of the actual test tun with section head. Corrupted la this fuck teacher. PISSES.

i need you, i love you
didn't wanna leave you with the wrong impressions.

Celebrate and dance so free..

I've been yawning for every 5 seconds and my jaws gonna drop on this computer table. Literally speaking,though.


I'm done with my drawings. EEKS!! I've always wanted to be a doctor, or a jet-fighter pilot, or a medic? I didn't think i'll end up drawing/drafting and designing electrical layout. Oh boy this must be a total bore whore. boo.

Happy birthday DAD! =))

Parents going overseas for two weeks. Oh whack i need to seriously cry now! I don't want them to go, seriously. Though they sucha nag and stuff, that means my "MAID" will be gone for 2 weeks. Refers to mom. Mom gonna spank me should she be reading this. YADAYADA... Mom been nagging why i've not been going for riding lessons. Thanks to my crap new job training!

I'm typing this pointless entry and come to think of it, i've got work tomorrow at 0900hours. EEKS!!

happy eleventh dears!
thou you're really evil.

*Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
You know I love you so
You know I love you so.

Kamikaze...

My current stint has taken a whole lot of my leisure time and spending longer quality date. I wish that time wouldn't have to pass so fast.

On the contrary, i'm still having fun and "burning" a hole in my pocket. That is somewhat good or either bad. Good cos i'm pampering myself to good food and good stuff. Bad as in being BROKE in two days? Ahh.. whatever it is.

If only i can rewind to fifteen, things wouldn't be this hectic. And we can dance to gay songs everyday. The good days are spent by being a potato couch for hours and having a peaceful time with a beer coke in hand. That is when i got no school, work or riding lessons. Plus love wouldn't be this complicated. Who needs one at that age? If you had told me you loved me, i'd run to you. The best days has yet to come.





if i could change your mind, i'll never let you go.

Have you heard...

she speaks without thinking.
she really got muscular biceps and legs(my HULK in disguise).
she treats me like a little girl cause she's boyish.
she can be too mushy and emotionally dependent.
she really have tons of patience level.
she screams at me when she's having a bad day.
she is a hardcore KLUTZ.
she loves to fake break ups.
she loves to irritate the shit outta me.
she loves to call me FAT.

these are some characteristics which makes her, him her.
these are some characteristics which tickles my heart.
these are some reasons which i almost killed her.
these are the reasons why i have a deranged mind now.

i misplaced my rialto and snow patrol album.
and i can't download that lucky number song on limewire!
WHICH EVIL HANDS STOLE MY ALBUM?!!
what an ASS luck.

Meantime lets groove to stone roses.
I LOVE THIS!



How could it ever come to pass
She'll be the first she'll be the last
To describe the way I feel

ooh oooh.

Breathe...

Today is sucha happy day! WOOOHOO..............!

Had practical today and the instructor in charge of plank and slalom kept praising me every round i passed the course. kembang-kembangan sey aku.weewit. I guess today is lucky that i managed to ride on the plank successfully for the whole of 100minutes. He was so nice to brief me about the slalom cause shit instructor from previous lesson never briefed to me. During break, he called the 1st-timer to re-brief them again. I am the 2nd-timer, he invited me too seeing that i'm rotting alone. =) Slalom was OK. Except that I hit the cone once cause i was too fast. Why the heck i hit it or else my timing will be 5seconds! And he is so the gatal.Always panggil aku 'sayang' sayang here and there la. ISH. But what an irony is that his name is RYAN. ALA HOTT NYE ORG NAME RYAN. ok aku sound mcm straight. takperr takperr.

Apart from practical, i really like wednesday. Cause my favourite subject is on wednesday. Except that this subject is 5hours straight. I completed my 5room-flat electrical layout. Gonna start designing the electrical layout for bungalow. Tak lamer lagi aku dah jadi designer ni dok. Mr ong said that i look like philippine maid. WTTTTH. He said it to form teacher then i told him "i want to beat you up la." He's freakinggg tiny and cute thou. Except he's OLD and got yellow teeth.

WOW!! I'm still exhilarated.

Now i'm thinking of ways to tell my manager that i'm resigning. I got a new job offer which pays me better! But i don't wanna leave my great colleagues. And this manager told me "Please help me until i hire my new partners." Yelah nanti ko dapat org baru,nk buang aku kerrr ni?.

OOOH monday is payday!!!! I think i wanna eat at fig&olive or breeks! Nah..I wanna give some of my pay to sis. So i shall just stick to my $3 beef noodle. BUT I WANT TO DINE. urgh. No ryann its fattening too indulge! I want that fcuk shirt. Fuck its expensive knowing that my shirt will look like $9.90 no matter how expensive it is. Prolly i shall spend on shades this month ONLY.

I gotta think of my working schedule now. OK GO!!

You Have a Sanguine Temperament

You are an optimistic person who is easily content. You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything. A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better. You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun. A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours. You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much. At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness. A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily. You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you.

What Temperment Are You?

breathe a little piece of me.