a thousand angels dance around u

Oh i nid to shower la
wanna brush my teeth manx.
AHh.. n if im still fresh,
shall revise ss.
november is o's!
IM SO SCARED!!
Hope i wun be lyk a klutz,
lyk drop my stuff all over d floor.
or fall ond floor.
tt tym durin mly o-level,
i ALMOST fall on the floor ok.
my legs were wobbling wen in d examination hall,
i accidentally hit a chair n almost fell,
n i overshot la wen wanna go to my seat.
STUPID ME!!
i can be sucha klutz wen im DAMN nervous.
eh.. i forgot to tell u guys tt,
just now in skl,
i tok ALOT!
wif other teachers n tis library auntie.
HAHA...
dun how we bof can AU(ah..duno how to spell)
means kam ching lah,
means can get along la
Ok...
LOVE YA!

-ryann rush to da bathroom n strips-


x. name: ryann da AHH
x. birthday: 25/11
x. nationality: japanese. singh-gah-pore
x. school: kc bnss
x. piercings: 7
x. tattoos: ahhhs..
x. height: im lyk 156? HAHA
x. shoe size: 6
x. hair color: black
x. pets: my tiger dad, my gay ygr bro(i love my bro.dun dare mess wif him.i will kick ur ass ok!!)

L A S T...
x. movie you bought : i dun buy..my bro in law buy.i bought tt ayumi video clip.AHHH my japanese wife! aishiteiru!
x. song you listened to : now? ayumi hamasaki-voyage (ehh..i can sing tt song ok althou its in japanese)
x. song you had stuck in your head : usher-confession. Reminds me of tt village gal!haha.x. downloaded : stacie orrico-i could be da one
x. person you've called: junkie. i tok to he ron d fon for 40mins wif my neck bend n typing on da comp.haha
x. person that called you : ahhh.. no one.. boo hoo
x. person you talked to online : meu onli
x. time you dyed your hair: nahh...
x. time you took pictures: i tell u if i see cameras, i go crazy one bah.
x. tv show you've watched : good bargain?
x. person you were thinking of : Ahhhhh

RANDOM
x. you have a crush on someone: some village gal wif an ancient name. hah!
x. you wish you could live somewhere else: my sis hse..
x. you believe in online dating: haha... joke manx.
x. others find you attractive: who finds me attractive?? please rite ur name here -> ________
x. you want more piercings: Yes
x. you want more tattoos : no.i duwan to hurt myself intentionally
x. you drink : carrot juice,mixed vegetable juice,apple juice wif aloe vera, apparently those good for da skin one arh.. n ice lemon tea n pepsi dubble twist
x. you steal : i didnt steal.dey came to me by demself.
x. you do drugs : no
x. you like cleaning : my bedroom n yah.. i hate mess larh.
x. you carry a donor card : nah..

F O R // A G A I N S T...
x. long distance relationships: its ok bah
x. using someone : against
x. Suicide: those thought never came into my mind.i love myself. love urself b4 u can love others. but ryann da AHH loves herself too much until she cnt love others.man!tats called selfish.HAHAH
x. killing people : GEORGE BUSH!! U BEAST!! kill bush and his father
x. teenage smoking : smoke lah if u want. can i join?
x. doing drugs : some of my frens do drugs but WHY MAN?
x. driving drunk : i dun drink
x. gay/lesbian relationships: gay,lesbian,straight.. wateva...

C H O O S E O N E:
x. black/white: green
x. morning/night: night
x. pool/jacuzzi: im not gd at swimming
x. britney/christina: christina(SEXAY AHH SHE)
x. sunlight/moonlight: lyk, i hate the SUN.
x. blonde/brunette: brunnette!!! kristin kreuk
x. short hair/long hair: not so long

F A V O R I T E...
x. food : lambchop,muttonchop,beefchop.err..i mean beefstick
x. color: BRIGHT green.turqoise.red.
x. number: 25
x. song : ayumi hamasaki-endless sorrows(trance remix) and ayumi hamasaki- audience (feelin u remix)
x. Theme Song?: tt smallville! sombody save meeeeeeee let ur warm hands etc
x. thing to do : blog, revision,eat,sleep,nap,running n irritate the shit out of people, cycling, inline skating,biking,skateboard, and I LOVE TO MEET NEW PEOPLES!!im too sociable. can't help it.
x. thing to talk about : in class,if u sit wif d boys.all u can ever talk to dem is sex. if u sit wif ash n i, we talk abt gals. if u s t wif zak, me, emily n wardah, u will gossip
x. candy : MAOM!
x. drink : i tot i wrote tt b4 rite.
x. movie : Taxi 1,2 & 3, troy(d fightings nt gr8 but d props r gd), gladiaotor(i wish i noe how to fight wif sword) and last samurai(ITS GREAT!!GO CATCH)
x. bands : oh im lyk, the cranberries!!! goo goo dolls, feeders, switchfoot,rammstein,skatalites
x. holidays : DUN ever tink abt holidays unless my o's r over

H A V E Y O U E V E R...
x. cried over a boy: NO
x. caught your bf/gf cheating: YES!!! but i forgave her
x. lied to someone : humans not perfect dear
x. been in a fist-fight/arrested: yea.. almost flung a chair at her. but no ok. shes a girl... poor girl. but we're now gd frens.
x. regretted being with a boy: regretted born in tis world as a lesbian

W H A T...
x. shampoo do you use : organics
x. perfume do you use : escada-sentiment
x. are you scared of : creepy crawlies,COCKROACH

N U M B E R...
x. of times I have had my heart broken?: a few.. but its ok la..
x.of hearts I have broken? : ahh... dun ask me
x. of boys I have kissed? : my ygr bro. i LOVE to kiss him.
x. of girls I have kissed? : lyk countless?? haha..wtf. nah.. i serious duno
x. of continents I have lived in?: singapore
x. of drugs taken illegally? : none
x. of people I would classify as true friends
and could trust with my life: 2
x. of people I consider my enemies?: go to hell la
x. of cd's that I own? : i dun count
x. of scars on my body?: ump.. got one at my left bottom right leg, it entered the bicycle wheel. one on my left knee, it was kinda sliced. cz, fell during biking at pulau ubin. one on right thigh, i fell during ice skating n tt shoe blade cut.but nah.. d scars are invisible.
x. of things in my past that I regret: fallin in love(but nah..it tot me abt love.wat love is all abt), not studying harder but ahh i made it to sec5.HAHA, high hp bills, not saving money. i wil have been a rich buffalor rite now.haha.

Sexually insecured??

Oh..dya love tt tittle?
i suddenly came out wif tt words,
cz d guys were talking abt sex n all tt,
dey kept asking whose fuckable all tt.
FUCKABLE<--is dere sucha word.
ahhh...
yah.. guys haf nthg to tok abt 'cept sex.
was in physics lab,
overheard arshad's sexual experience.
so i turned around n we tok.
he said,
he fingered his ex gf n his finger smells real bad.
he asked his gf why smell lydat,
she sd "i tink uw ent to d anus!"
ahhh...
n den faizal sd "ahh..maybe hers vagina reali stinks. she paisey tt why she sd tt.."
we bof larfed.
afta tt he sd he wanna go home cz he kept tinking,
"bumi tak terime sial main jubo"
so he walked away,
he smelled his fingers agn,
he puked.
AHAHHAHAHA!!
-ryann tinks of sumthang-
So i sd "I tink ah..she's having menses. maybe its her 6th or 7th day or wat"
arshad, "yaya.. i tink its her 5th or 6th or wat cz tt tym d menses very light rite?"
i tell u,
the guys in my class r very knowledgeable!
HAHAHA.
So yah dere's more,
n duwan lah write here.
uncensored.

p.e lesson was ump.. ahh.
new p.e teacher!
his name is Mr Ganesan.
he's tall n BLACK!!
he's nice to me cz im sociable.(wtf)
I lose 3kilos.
WOAH!!!
wen i stepped on d weighing scale,
i was lyk "WOWWWWWWWWWWw!!!"
watdah was excited too as she loss 2kilos.
Oh im not overwt for goodness sake.
Im 54kg!
ahhh....
i nid to shed some fats.
wep layed captain ball,
whic was very THE LAME!!
no competition sials.
Mr ganesan is planinng for us ter play floorball!
oh how gr8.
im not goin fwer softball interhouse match ltr.
the tot of d ball bein toss,
skares d shit out of me.
i tink ah,
i will runa way wif d bat w/o hitting it.
it owaes happen.
cz d softball ball is very HARD!!!
im skared it hit my face n i will look ugly.
i play other ball games.

(bof us were excited cz no joggings for p.e)

zakiah: yayy!! we play ball. u play my ball i play ur ball!

ryann d AHH:yeah!! we timang2 each others ball.
=================
so da pervertic.
dun wurry.
everybody will go into tt kinda phase.
AHHH!!

was very attentive durin chem lesson,
i answered most of d question correctly.
tt zakiah n emily veh bad man,
never give me inspiration.
But bobo he sd "dun care abt dem.nvm come u study"
hahaha...
cz,i did her june hols homewerks,
i want to seei f i managed to do it very well.
AHHH!!
so happy.
cz, i only haf 5subjects.
evry subjects is very important to me.
i nid science fer nursing manx.
but ahhh...i dun tink i can get into nursing,
cz very hard man to get tt course.
so i tot of taking chatec.<---hope da spelling is right.
take some cooking or baking course..serve all tt.
n tt,i can sutyd a lil abt business,
n open up a cafe!
wat a high hopes huh?
told sis abt it n she told me nt to worry.
cz my bro in law will help.
AHHH!!
n ash planned,
we become partners.
she duno la art stuff help to do d cafe,
n i wanna shaheerah bee bee bcum d interior,
n yan the maintainence officer!
AHHH...
n yan will be arm wif her screwdrivers,
solders.. hammer..nails..toolbox!
hahaha.. so cute.

the reason im onlyne cz i duwan to fall aslp.
d bed is so DA TEMPTING.
if i slp,
den ash BYEBYE cz i wun wake up if she kols/sms me.

so ok!
BYE!

Fuck u.screw u.

im lyk so pissed ah.
dun complain abt ur life to me can?
im sick ok.
lyk eevryone tells me abt deir probs,
me giving advises.
im not paid ok.
not asking fer $.
im sick of all those ok.
dun tell me abt ur life,ur lover,ur pets, ur family can.
go get a blog n bitch lah.
lyk me.
atleast dey wun read ur blog anymore if dey hate it.
lyk me.
i dun read those stupid blogs
i tell u if im pissed,
i shoot out at their face ok.
i make sure dey get hurt so badly,
and wun talk about theri stupid stories to me agn.
cz my tongue very spicy!
AHh
PLease note,
im not jealous.
dun get me wrong.
SICK OK!
althou my love life is not tt gr8,
means nt att.
im not lyk 'OH MY FRENS ARE ATT.I NID ONE'.
im fine wif my ownself

stupid dad complained abt his life.
we r nuisance n burden to him.
he sd had to werk,get money,
ask do tis do tt.
he tired la after werk.
YYAYAYAYA!!
Lyk want scold him,
"have sex clever!make mom pregnant very gd!"
if duwan shoulder these kind of responsibilities,
dun marry lah or haf protected sex!!!"
i tell u,
he will throw me out of d window man.
ARGH!!!!!

i'm lyk,i miss sexay's voice.HURHUR!!

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AHh.... Uhh... woooah.... oh babeh... Ump... -bites her lips n lick her lips in a seductively way-

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Bit of a drama queen

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Going with your gut instead of your head

Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault

Good at recognizing patterns in relationships

Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count

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Been inl ove many tyms?? 7 not much wat.. err i tink so 7. I dun tink i fall in luv easily. I admire easily.

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I make great coffee if u guys r wondering ok. I usuali drink coffee wic is made by me or tt CANNED nescafe. not outside coffees.

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I could be the one fer ya...

I've just reached home at 145pm!
Was dismissed at 130pm.
stupid guys lah,
den d Mrs tan kept us back.

My tummy pain arh!
i nid da toilet.
i wanna bathe!
its not shower.
cz..i will bathe very proper.
AHHH!! wanna brush my teeth.

photo-taking session?
AHHH...

mrs mohan:(came up to me n stared at my hair) Wat kind of hairstyle is it? look at my boys. u won deir hairs. i tink u shd stand bsde tuck wei.

me:ahh...wat?

so yeah.. thanks to da gals esp syafiqa for doin my hair. ahh.. asyiqa went "AIYAH...apasal tcher mcm gini.kan dah tak hansem?"
wadde... i dun intend to look hansem wat cz im not.

after skl walked wardah to da bus stop n waited her to board d bus!
we now r lyk gd frens.
THere used to be Ryann da AHH, and wardah.
THey hate to see each other's sight.
BUt now..dey r gd frens!
Haha.
Wardah went "bielr tami mohan suroh ko turonkan rambot ko,aku kesian tgk ko.ko dah semangat lawar2."

AHhhhhhh.....
its ok.
Atleast i did smiled during d photo-session.
as long i smiled,
it will be fine.

ARt lessons,
tt mdm wong's helper,
MR vincent NG,
he taught us algebra just now.
(mom just spoon fed me FOOD!AHH)
ok.. ump,
i was so confused at d algebra part.
u see,
im gd in algebra.
wen he teach us,
i suddenly turned DUMB!!
ahaha...
so i rasied up my hand,
n mdm wong came to da rescue.

(Mdm wong erased MR ng's working on the whiteboard)

Ryann da AHH:kesian Ng ni.. mdm wong erase de nye tulisan. hampa de.

Zakiah: AH kau!! tengok..siak ah mdm wong sajer je erase.

Ahhh...
ok gtg n bathe,
n revise the algebras wksht wic i received just now.
shall work out some steps.
i wish o-level consists of algebra only!
ahh...
tis algebra we're doin is so chim.
brackets here. lyk { ( ) []
i wanna draw out time-table plan.
must plan my tym.
no more slacking.
i MUST ATLEAST get into poly.
i wanna show to my fucking dad,
tt im not stupid n i can outwin him.
He's so proud tt he's an A-level student.
YAYA... A-level mly student!
Malay not recognised la idert fool!
i go burn his cert den he noe.
he said "u see..ur brother poly. same standard as me!"
i hate wen im challenged.
pantang nenek moyang
ARGH!
From now on, Ryann da AHH,
will prove to the her dad tt,
she is not a failure!
im imagining im in NYP,nursing course,
n den got so many course as in,
ahh.. matron lah..staff nurse lah..
oh ahh!!
my sis recommended me to join engineering.
i noe tt i'll get bored of it easily.
i lyk to care for da sick.
or.. maybe anurse in some homes??
as in those orphanage all tt!
oh AH!!
Ryann da AHHH will transform to a supernurse.
she will wear tt nurse uniform,
and her hair spiky??
oh god!
a joke.


Sayonara!

Head over feet.

OH PEOPLE!!
i cut my hair already!!
wow happy!
fuck me lah <-non literally.
why i get excited over lil tings?
haha.
oh..well went ta 'hair street'
had it trimmed!
and my back hair,
is lyk those ching chongs,
duno how to decribe!
BUT I LYK!
WO ZHEN DE SI HUAN!!
AHH!
From the hair lyk CANOPY TREES(correct me if im wrong.i dun take geog),
now my hair is thin,
lyk those kotex advertisement,
so free and thin?
isit?ahaha..
wtf im toking man!
i just find tt deir advertisement is crappy,
wat does menstruation gotta do wif riding bicycle?
my interpretation is,
dun larf at me ok.
i tink tt,
if having menses and u use tt kotex brand,
u will cycle very fast.
WAT LEY!!
joking.just made up.
im not TT Stupid.
BACK!
oh ump..n my front hair?
oh its spiky larh duh.
still d same.
but i shall not do it spike,
cz can see my scalp.
its not TAT thin,
as tt previous cut.
ahaha,
tis tym,
its d lady who cut it fer me.
she's so sweet cz she smiled at me.
AHHH!
nono..im not interested in her.
its just tt,i lyk those who smiles.
wardah accompanied me,
she sd "WOW!i oso wanna cut my hair.the lady so gd cz she's very proper.she kept lyk, checking ur hair.which one long,she cut and all tt.worth $10!"
Ryann the AHH spoke "U lyk my hair?"
Wardah Loves raul said "yes! tmr u style ur hair lyk d one u did tis morn."
AHH!!!
speaking of tmr,
its PHOTO TAKING SESSION!!
YAYYyyyYYYYY!!!
Cz u see,
Ryann the AHH wanted to be a model,
but she's too damn hot lah,
so dere's no vacancies.
AHHH!!
Mirrors are my best fren plus cameras!
But acherli,
i duno how im gonna style my hair.
cz i cnt style my hair lykt is morn,
as the fringe is short.
oh..i noe!
mess up spike?
Err...duno2.
shall bring my wax to skl tmr.
i scared the OM check my hair.
HAH.

i did not have a gd slp.
kept waking up every few hours.
so irritating.
my body clock is not functioning.
at 620am,
my ygr bro came into my rm.
he apparently wanna slp bsde me,
and he touched my arm,
its SO HOTT!
he's having fever la.
so i woke up and dragged him to d kitchen to give medicine.
sick people inspires me to bcum a nurse!
BUNG NURSE???
ahahaha...
i feel very irritated wen those whom r ill,
duno take medication.
Tats my ygr bro.
He duwan eat medicine,
later he wil be so weak lyk goin to die lydat.
UGH.
oh and den,
i slacked n roll on my bed and curled on my bed until 705am.
went ta bathe n went out of the hse at 717am!
AHH..
i tot i was late cz i took a long tym to do my hair.
oh im not late.
on da way,
i feel so weird,
cz its been holidays,
7am,im still slpng.
and im carrying bag to skool,
heavy sia.
must be the physics TYS,thick maths txtbk n storybk.
u see,i dun pack my bag!
i only brought those to school today.
HAHA.

Sum dialogues frm da class just now.
Sorry its in malay.Non-malay,pls learn malay.
WE wanna get a job must learn mandarin.
NOT fair ok.
Oh nvm..im MULTI-lingual.
cz i can speak, mly,mandarin,el,comp language lyk Xml, Html, Dhtml, and sign.HAHA..
Dya noe tt bilingual helps Slow-ageing?
So ya... go learn a new language.
NIhongo(japan) is recommended!haha

(Zakiah was tying her hair)

Ryann da AHH: Oi.. jgn angkat tinggi2 eh.. mantain ketiak tu!

zakiah: aircon la!!

Ryann da AHH: ye lah tu!air con full blast!
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(the guys were teasing me 'Ryann' here n dere)

zakiah: Eh ko dah tukar pix frenster ko.Cantik aku tgk

Ryann da AHH: ahh!!oh..haha..

zakiah:aku tgh tgk pix ko,pastu adek laki aku nampak de ckp Eh sape tu kawan kak?Sachok lar!! Lagi better drpd picture yg cermin mater bodo ko.takde org nk buat kawan dgn muke bodoh tu

*Sachok means hot in MATS n MINAHS lang.
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(knowing zakiah,she LOVES to caht onlyne n meetin guys!)

Zakiah:hari tu,aku baru balik dari keje, ade satu laki ni ah amik aku dari keje. de ckp "u boleh naik tak scrambler i?" Ala..aku kan dah biase naik moto kan. abeh aku ckp ah, "i tak pasal ah.." ABeh biler aku tgk moto die, SIAK AH... de nye scrambler tinggi la..mcm kat waist de.

(Emily & Ryann da AHH giggled. both went "PASTU??")

zakiah: de bawak aku gi tanah merah ferry terminal. kan ko tau ade mcm tis road la. de bawak aku masok hutan. ade anjing2.lagipon tgh maghrib. aku takot ah. aku raser kalau de nk rape aku pon,mati aku.cz mcm 2hours nak carik way out.aku raser sampai kiamat pon tak sampai main road. ade anjing lagi tu. pastu kite dah sampai, situ ade jetty. kite dudok ah pastu de ckp "u tau tak..ade rider mati tau.de tgh buat stunt and tak perasan depan laut. pastu de termasok dlm tenggelam, mayat tak dpt jumper". Aku teros takot ah.. aku diammmm je. Situ kan tempat motor buat stunt kan..den de bilang aku ade org kene sampok la...

Ryann da Ahh wif her crap interrupted): Skali..de yg rider tu eh! dah mati bgn balik.de carik ko nk mati same2.

(Zakiah was scared n emily larfed.)

Zakiah: TAkde lah.DE kan manusia!!

Ryann da AHH:maner tau de masok badan sape2 ke.

Zakiah:(she larfed n continued) skali kite org hilang eh. dah ko tgk aku dlm 'missing' pulak.

Zakiah: A girl named zakiah and a guy was drowned at tis scene

Ryann da AHH: pastu de buat cam ko baru kluar rumah eh.. and den ZAKIAHHH!! pastu "tat was the last tym,her mom, cik wanbi saw her walked out the door".
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see...we crapped alot.zakiah is sucha gr8 fren!! really.HAHA

i am so flattered tt bobo was so kind n helpful to me.
my papers were flying,
he helped to pick up for me.
he went "Mai!paper kau!!"
Ryann da AHH was very blur @ tt point of tym "Ah!paper aku? takde lah"
"Engkau punyer lar!!"
Ryann da AHH looked at d floor "Oh a'ah eh!"
So he picked up for me.
Luckily emily did not tease me wif him.
AHH!!
He's super kind to me,
esp maths.
esp tt LOCUS or ARC tingy.
i just asked him hw to do,
he drew all fer me!
wahh..lydat o-level draw for me ah.
i shd be thankful but im not.
he shd teach me.NOT do.

And tis syafiq gossiped only abt me.
he said "Looked at mai!she's so cheeful so many expressions ah wen she toks"
Ryann the AHHH is a part-tym actressbung too!
HAhA.

i got tis mini plan!
i tink,maybe wardah n i will catch spiderman2,
during musical nite.
cz we not goin fer da skl musical nite.
she wants to go bugis.
if i see nice shades,
i shall buy one.
im very picky wen it comes to choosing shades.
i have only one shades.

ok i tink u guys r bored oradi.
i wrote a novel!
TADAA!!
ahh
im hungry.
gonna eat n slp.
After tt shall do my maths hw.
O-LEVEL!cannot play play oradi.

WAIT!!
i forgot tt,
i woke up tis morning,
after gave bro his medicine,
went ta da toilet.
i can hear my parents quarrelling!
cz,mom set up sum trap!
she used rat glue to trap hse lizard!
AHAH.
cz mom put it horozontally,
dad changed it to vertical.
i heck care lah.
she put set up tt trap cz,
she just painted d hse,
tis tym,contractor Ryann da AHH did not helped out.
usually mom n me r d only contractor.
she contractor lyk design2 all tt,im engineer!
those lyk nid to climb,hammering, is me!
she duwan her wall to be dirty cz those lizard dun ahf toilets u see.

Was about to go to my rm,
dad pinting at da trap "LIZARD.See!"
so i kept staring at da trap for sucha long tym,
until i realzied,sumting was moving.
YUCK!!
lizard.
showed mom,
she was delighted i tink she's kinda paisey.
so i went to lie on my bed,
and tis song played on d radio.
HURHUR!
ok secret.

mom forced me to go to slp now.
duwan!i want food!
my tummy is grwoling.

Ryann da AHH is signing off!
lyk FINALLY!

stop sign.

im singing,


Cos I want you baby
And I need you lady
Don't stop acting shady
Take a detour
I'm singing to you lady

What's the matter, don't
you love me (Tell me now)
Don't you really care now
(care about you)
Oh, I'm about to lose
my mind with your stop sign


im pissed now!
ARGH ARGH!
im not egoistical okies.

went ta mit ashie d trashie elephie,
we fagged,
had 5 stix!
ahh..
she toks abt her gf.
abt hw horny she gets wen she's wif her.
AHH!
n she told me abt her n junks's lil future story.
we gonna live together.
ash is wif her gf,
junk's wif meu,
n me!
she sd i will owaes go clubbing,
bring gals home,
chg chg gals,
n dey will be eurasian n chinese.
WOAH!am i gonna be a cassanova in my future love life?
oh i noe..cz i'm single n haf alot of girl frens?
Nah..dey r just my fren.
Except one!
but..she's not interested in me.
AHHH!!

Who am i?
want lyk me for wat?
want ter cry!

i wanna sing ump,
who are u,my country?
more than celebration and tears.
more than memories put together,
or the summing up of years.
i see u enduring all weathers,
sunshine and.. etc etc
our life defend n uphold.
may the gd we'll achieve,
as one nation,
be good to d world<--is tt d right words?

i wanna go NDP!
but i hate too see those PM's.
i wanna go cz i wanna see those marchings!
AHHHH!!
and i love drums,deir flute..etc etc.

i miss those days,
still single.
sec 3 days lah to be exact.
i'm busy wif my own world.
every saturday, practice marching,
at d padang for the NDP.
and..gets very excited wen i see *her*.
AHH!
and d day after ndp,
had NATIONAL CAMP.
all the schools in spore,
in uniform grps,
camp!
n i'm d first aider!
so its lyk,im an outsider.
im not the campers,
am first aider.
dey tot im not singaporean.
want noe where dey tink im from?
NEPAL!
Im voted d best MEDIC!
dey so love me..
AHhh..
i was so happy.
and i really love tt camp alot!
and i had to do "Autographs"
haha.
cz..can still remember,
was queing up,
i turned around n i saw *her*.
i was lyk "WOW!ure here too!!"
alamak..i was sooo delighted to wake up early morning,
and i dread going back to d bunk.
cz my bunk is for those officers,
and phone booth,is only located dere.
and i will get to see *her*,
OH AHH!
i get those rushes wen i saw her.
and oh!
one of my "patients" ,
she injured her ankle.
and i had to find my ma'am.
i ran up d stairs lyk mad,
and tis gal looks lyk my ma'am.
and saw i shouted "MA'AM!!!"
to my expectation,
it was *her*.
how paisey-tic.
ahhh...
why d hell m i toking abt thesE?
no no..i dun lyk *her* la.
just miss those days.

hungry!!
but i brushed my teeth already.
cannot eat.
arghs!

i shall face it tis way.
*sexay* dun lyk me.
so i shd not set high hopes.
i tink *Sexay* lyks sum1 else,
sum other bungs.
if *Sexay* is interested in me,
i mean... can read those signs.
oh gimme sum signs.
oh *Sexay*
how sexay-tic.
arhhs.
i shall nickname her *Sexay*
her voice sexay tats y.
not really sexay.
its nice!
oh ahh!!

i miss *Sexay*
good nite *Sexay*
sweet dreams *Sexay*
must miss me ok *Sexay*
drim abt me k *Sexay*

yucks.. i sound lyk a sex-maniac.
WAHAHAHA...
i was lyk,
AHHH!

*ps:shall nickname myself, RYANN THE AHHH!
hurhur.


Can u spot the difference??



picture 1


picture 2

wic one u guys prefer?
its my after-bathe pix.
no wax or gel or mousse were used at tt point of tym.
only water!
hAH!

Drinking myself to slp again. INSOMNIA!!

tmr skool.
AHHHHHHHH!!!
i need sound effect.
sumone pls do tt AHHHHHHH!!
oh god.
my parents going out!!
when the cats are out,
d mouse r going to partay!!
d mouse is me larhs.
non-literally.

goin ta bedok to mit ashie d trashie d elephie!
wahahaha... oh oh i love tt 'elephie'
courtesy of ryann da cute n tats MEEE.
i shall spray escada-sentiment perfume.
SMELLS SO FUCKING NICE!!
we're goint to fag!!
OHh...smoke machine.
i noe i noe..i shd not.
but aiyah.. bored!
i miss those days,
where we smoke lyk nobody's business,
n us..finishing the whole of 20stix.
Ahh..
dun get angry wif me manx,
been lyk 1mths plus neh smoke,
n i last smoked was last tuesday!
ahhh... i want buy cigarette!

am listening to jennifer paige-stranded
u noe it only breaks my heart.
to seeu standing in d dark.
i noe ure waiting dere for me
to come back.
im too afraid to show.
if its coming over u,
lyk its coming over me.
im crashing lyk a tidalwave,
tt drags me out to sea.
iw anna be wif u,
if u wanna be wif me.
im crashing lyk a tidal wave,
i dun wanna be,
stranded...
so baby come back to me.
its d lyrics from tt song.

yayy..ashie d trashie elephie just sms-ed me.
lucky gal,she got money got gf.
i have my family,money n gals?
ahaha..
Im afraid tt if i have one,
it might affect my studies.
i duno larhx,
its a risk to put ur heart at d edge.
its a nice feeling,
but im an independent person!AHH.
im lyk,busy wif my own world.
Oh ok gtg.later ash scold me fer bein late.
last word.
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!


.::^LASTs^::.

last person u kissed: my sis
last cigarette: marlboro menthol
last good cry:i dun remember.
last library book checked out: last wednesday?
last movie seen: harry porter & d prisoner of azkabaan
last magazine read: Mountain Biking. the frontpage it wrote 'EAT MUD'. AHHx
last curse word uttered: Pig?
last beverage drank: season ice lemon tea
last food consumed: rice n fish!(oh my...i ate a fish today)
last phone call: ashie d trashie elephie!ahaha.. tt elephie is an extra. courtesy of ryann da cute.
last tv show watched: duno lahx..sum indian tingy.
last pErsOn sMs'Ed': sis.
last cd played: m listening to mp3s
last item bought: time out chocolate!
last downloaded: song
last disappointment: errh.. i duno
last thing handwritten: phone number
last word spoken: ahhh
last sleep: 2.30am
last weird encounter: at swensen.tis waitress flirt. Ugh!
last ice cream eaten: sticky chewy chocolate at swensen!
last time trippin on drugs?:Don't drugs.
last time hugged: my sis.cz.. im gonna miss her
last time scolded: just now
last chair sat in: im sittin on it
last time lipstick used: WTH!!WAHAHAHA...
last shirt worn: i miss my bright green shirt.
last poster looked at: i dun remember.


.::^AGOs^::.

1 MINUTE AGO: watched stuart lil in d washing machine!
1 HOUR AGO: lazing arnd d hse
1 DAY AGO: walking at d park wif junk
1 WEEK AGO:cycling at east coast!!
1 YEAR AGO: a carefree person..

.::^FIRSTS^::.

First job: job??im schoolin. Well ump, tis st john sent me to "changi hospital". We learnt how it is being a nurse. Always on two legs. I learnt to take body temp,changed diapers (i wasposted to the chronic ward!disease sia d ward.yuck),feed,etc.. n i love to feed tis patient! he wears dentures!haha.. oohh.. tats hw i met phoo phoo. so pretty. she's my god sista,she's very great! and i learnt hw to speak burmese! :) oh i miss her.
First funeral: i dun rmember. i was young..around 3years old lydat,n my uncle died. theonly ting i remember is tt, my elder bro n me were playing catching at d grave while his body is being buried?n i kicked a tombstone pretending it is a ball.HAHA. i was young rite.how i noe.
First pet: fish!so dumb man.tat was d last.
First piercing/tattoo: K1! my sister told me tt, d doctor will use gun. i was scared cz i tot u noe, GUN?SHOOT!oh nvm.
First love: its more to infatuation? sec2.
First big trip: Indonesia. dirty place.HAH.


i luv d way u talk.lemme kiss u!<--sexually deprived

Confession...

Ump..woke up at 12 noon!
haha...
mom woke me at 630am,
cz gotta lyk pray.
i noticed someone was standing infront of me,
i noe its mom larhx.
u noe,i m very blur lah wen i wake up.
the bedrm lights was on,
i asked msyelf,
"WTH IS WIF THE LIGHTS??WHY IS IT ON??"
cz ump,
never pray for so long!
hahax.

oh im so BORED to TEARS...
my handphone so silent man today.
stupid.
people, pls call me or sms.
oh nvm..shall go n press my uniform!
oh i love my skool skirt!
ahhh..cz its short!
haha.
shall shorten the other skirt.
i noe,
bungs wear skirts until d knee.
wth manx..so ancient.
i lyk gals wif short skirt,
tall gals,
sexay body,
OH AHHHHH...
nice fingers,
nice lips.
WAHHHHHHHHHh!!
sexay voice..
sweet scent of perfume..
nice boobs!
OHHHH....BABEHHHHHH.... AHHHH...UHHHHHH
ure torturing me..
it hurts...AHHHHH..
DUn stop dun stop..
AHHHHH...Oh fucksake...
HUnnie i love u...
ARGH....
*ryann reached her climax n oh god it feels so gr8*

sumthang is wrong wif me...
i want to MOAN!

i'm bored tats y im writing those.
HAH

pls dun mind me.
carry on wif ur duties.
tis author gotta go off sumwhere,
to shoot our her *Stuff*.
WAHAHA.

Im wearing a peenk astroboy shirt!

Oh ryann..u got lyk ARGHZ!
Yucks.
i'll kill myself if i were u.
*shoots herself*
OH MY GOD.
Yucks.
aiyah.
i wanna larf now.
WAHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
i nid to cry now.
weeeeeeeks..boo hoo.
last word.
YUCKS!
wahahaha..muahaha..haha.
can't help it.
duwan to see la.

orite,take not to my dear readers.
my *plane* landed a day earlier,
so im here crapping.
so its back to school<--bata slogan.HAH

u noe wut,my ygr sis is lyk,
she wants to wear baju kuring,tight fitting one!
she sd IM FAT.
Oh ahh..she's jealous cz pple owaes praise me.not her!
shuddup la.. she's thin.
wats so nice abt bein thin?

i kept sneezing manx...
im ill i tink?
slept wif air con since d school hols,
n i hate swimming.
stupid pool.
stupid lifeguard.
bias ching chong!


oh just now walked at d park wif junk.
haha.. we talked abt our crush.
ahh.. im so irritated larh.
my FUCKING prob la.
i want to hear to my songs tt stupid lil sis
kept forcing me to chg to her stupid pop song!
she's been using d comp for 3 weeks n still..arghz.
we will never get along ok.
she's plain jealous of me.
dere'll be alot of fightings between me n her,
thank god she dun tok to me abt boys
or i will just yell at her.
tt Minah m'sia is away frm me,
tak padan anak metro,
she's nice,
if i see her cuzzin,
i duno wat i do.
just cz she's adopted dey dun tok to her.
idert fools.
she's so obsessed wif m'sian mats,
n she owaes go "he's cute.." "so handsome.." "i want him".
i miss her thou,
her age?
primary 6.
haha.

lets tok abt yest,friday.
ump..did nthg much.
i watched d haunted mansion n school of rock.
was bored d whole day cz,
my ygr bro wic is my ONLY company went out wif bro in law,
i chose to stay at home
cz i duwan to see a football match,
as i will get depress,
u noe i lyk soccer!
PLAY soccer.
speaking of tt, tt 'diva la futbol team',
duno la..been getting strange sms n phone calls,
its owaes those frm SMU WOMEN SOCCER TEAM.
not in da mood to play..

althou it was a boring day,
at nite,
went to mit sis we went to yishun!
northpoint isit?
yaya..tink so.
we ate at swensen!
AHA..i admit deir menu r not appealing.
STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE?
wth manx.
might as well put..bubble gum chocolate.
still sticky rite?
oh u noe,d waitress,
is a chinese.
she kept larfing wen she look @ me,
m i lyk weird.
i noticed she kept looking at me while she's,
writing down n recommending to sis.
she kept looking and smiling n larf.
she even FLIRT wif me ok,
infront of my sis summore.
u see,
she gave us d drinks,
she gave one to sis,
n she put one for me,
infront of me,
i aws about to take it,
n she took it away,
lyk play play lah.
so i just smiled la at her.
ump..so we paid d bills,
she looked at me n waved goodbye n smiled.
oh i went to ask her fer tissue,
she just smiled and kept looking at me,
while taking d tissue.
its sounds lyk crony,
but it IS true.
HAHA.
her name is LI HAR.
i was lyk HARH???
AWWWW!!!
lemme see..anything wrong wif me yest?
i remember i was wearing Green shirt,
wif white berms n slippers n spiky hair.
weird isit?
oh shucks.
AHhhhhh....

orite..changed my disp pix,
so..check out.
its on the top right of tis blog.

its 130am.
im slpy.
oh i nid a visit to da toilet!
shall brush my teeth.
fuck man..
those contractors r so slow!
the cabinets r not yet fixed,
which means,no stove.
i want food!
and..the toilet door!
i love my new toilet..
ok gtg lah.
mom nagging
go n die lah she.
she expects me to clean d hse,
clean WAT LAH!!
i cleaned my room oradi ok!
she accused me of chatting onlyne,
i DUN ok.
i min..i do la bt not much wat.
i spend my onlyne time to do my blog,
n surf.
tats all.
dun blve ask my frens la y i reply dem so slow.
arghz.
my leg pain now.
in a foul mood.

Summer sunshine.

i hate bein in tis filthy place.
get me out of here.
away from violence.
my head is killing me,
migraine attack.

i swear i'll never talk to u,
ever again.
go away now.
i'm not losing anything,
without u around.

tis sukiyaki song is so soothing,
i dun rili hear love songs,
but i rili lyk tis song.
old tym favourite.
the corrs-sumer sunshine,
AHHH.
my fav too,
dey're irish.
mom died,
and ump..andrea spose-ed to go violin class.
but she's afraid of her tutor,
so instead,
her sis sharon learned hw to play.
tats y sharon plays the violin,
andrea play d whistle,
her sister caroline plays d drum.
her ex bf taught her to play d drum.
she's having a 2nd child.
erps?
jim corr d bro..
ump, i duno.
but i noe dey used to perform in clubs or bars?
err?
i read abt dem 3yrs ago.
can't xpect me to remember evryting.

i wana listen to sukiyaki.
Ahh..

ok bye.

Sweet beginnings bitter endings.

Wrote it yest... my english is nt gd.sori if its not ur cup of tea. hafta practice for o level compo. haha.. does tt make any sense?haha..acherli i can't sleep.. wrote it until 6am. dere's alot more but..haha. wanna have some suspense.

yest, fetched sis at Jurong point. she was irritated at my ygr bro. wanted to go snowcity but he make those irritating beahvior wic irks my sister. so i try to cool her down. no sense of direction taking mrt. when we reached tanjong pagar, i tot of goin Lil India cz sis love to eat thosai. haha.. she sd too late oradi..missed the outram station. so we took the NEK at city hall. dropped at Lil india.. ate.. the 'waiter' is frenly. SMilie smilie. so i smiled back la. Heh.. im frenly. den we walked to 'Tekka Mall' i bought a *hurhur can't tell*. yea.. and we walked to bugis. Ygr bro had mac.He ate fries, ice ceram n ice lemon tea. i tell u, drinking tt drink, can get diabetes lehx. SOOOOOO SWEET. Then we walked to suntec city to mit my bro in law who was repairing the ticketing system barrier tingy. Yea.. journey so far... tired lehx. shd have wore berms but ah.. cz want go snowcity can wear berms meh? err.. yea.. on d way, got chinook carrying d spore flag.. n sum jet plane lah.duno wat hell. dey practising for NDP 04. Sis dun watch NDP. She sd waste of tym. I watch NDP cz of want watch dem march. Tats all. Haha.. talked to her and we laughed. Told her mom wills cold me if i diss our PM esp *oldies* cnt sae d name. Later Internal Security Department find me,die. haha. Will be charged for against the govt. yea... so tired.. we find the KOI garden and sat down. Sis taught me how to sign lang some words. She took out the news paper and taught me how to sign the story. Its fun. Ok.. and we went to bk wif bro in law. After tt, walked2..wanted to watch movie but no nice movie. Got 'the punisher' but NC16.My ygr bro cnt enter. Yea.. looked at some maternity clothes n baby stuff. And we're home! Tyme for story. Haven tot of the tittle. The reason why the main cast is Ryann, is cz i lyk tt name! ADrienne, cz i lyk d name n it rhmyes. =)

i wun wurry my life away

hey guys!
im at choa chu kang library.
hoho..thans to emily & hajar.
u see..hajar lemme use her lib account la,
but must put money lah.haha..
so dun wurry hajar,
the balance,u can take it!

i am soooooooo hapi.
oh god.
pls help me.
can't help it.
oh oh..oh oh...
HELP!
if any of u r lyk "Ump..wat d hell ryann is talking?"
oh hoho... ump ump..
wow!!
omg..im so stunned n shocked wen she wrote tt!!
oh oh...
is it true?wow..im so flattered.
orite..sumone help me down..
dun tell u guys.
if want,ask me.
bt its not big news la.
RELAX!!! i am still single
dun get da wrong idea.
anyone wants to mit her MS BUNG right,
fill in application form.
heh.

orite..im a lil pissed wif tis kid.
he jump arnd in tis library,make noise,
n he came to my screen n read abit of wat i typed!
oh nvm..cannot blame.
im listening to sis discman.
how cool!

my tummy is not hungry,
strange.
if i am hungry,can
eat at delifrance,drink at starbucks,long john,KFC.
so sad huh..
wen u got d money n u dun haf d craving to eat or drink.

yest i exercised!
running around the house la..
shuttle run lydat.
wahaha..
cz d weather is so hot,
n im so shy to run arnd the stadium alone.

last sunday,sis was pissed @ me.
she wants to bring us swimming at d "wet wild",
its d new one at downtown.
but i duwan.
i duwan its my problem la.

u noe wut,
i shd not write many tings here.
i dun lyk other public to read my blog.
if dey read without me knowing can la,
tis one dey walking arnd,
sum standing..
eeyergh.
i hate people watching me wen im on d comp.

oh,sis went for baby scan.
d doctor or d gynaecologist u call,
says 75% d baby is a ger!
cz..cnt see the down dere,
d baby sits or lie cross legged.
my sis n bro in law told me,
d baby kept moving arnd,
nvr stop.
he/she(not confirmed) plays wif his/her fingers.
clenched d fist n open,
move here move dere.
ump.. n he/she got sharp nose,
log skinny fingers,
lyk his/her father la,
bengali plus chinese.
wahaa... n i said to bro in law,
"dun be suprise if ur kid later will drive ur van secretly at nite wen u r sleeping"
cz..d baby so active wat,
my bro in law active oso last tym,
he used his dad's car secretly at nite,
n cycling at nite.. scare people who passes by d grave at nite,
hell motorcycle rider.
crazy ah tt one.
haha..

i watched 'kal ho naa ho'
yest nite.
sorry fer bein slow la to watch.
still,i lyk aishwarya rai.
u see,d shop owner recommended me watch,
devdas, koi mil gaya, mohabbatein,
he sd latest movie.
HAHA..u tink im not indian i duno isit?
all watched readi.
tt nite..i stayed up late n watch 'chalte chalte'
so sad..it made me sob n sob n sob.
haha sori la...
but in d end,happy ending!
rani mukherji starrs wif sharukh khan.
yest nite oso,we went to lil india,mustafa centre.
my bro in law obsessed wif soap arhs.
so many soap he bought.
from one brand to anudder brand.
he kept smelling n smelling n put it in the basket.
he loves soap la tts y.
the cashier who served us,damn slow la..
she lyk kena forced lydat.
sis in law sign lang me 'slow' haha..
cannot talk..later she angry.
if we sign lang,50% she wun noe we talking abt her.
hehe.

after tt,went to eat..
n..bro in law took us for a drive ride!
we passed by braddell,
etc,
some private housing,
lower pierce reservoir,
d pathway so long lehx..n SOOOO quiet.
only our van is dere only..
no other vehicle.
we passed by seletar reservoir.
is it seletar or upper seletar?
duno la..forgot.
but we went dere la.
ygr bro n me climbed up the tower.
so high!
we shd nt be skared cz aiyah u noe la,
its 11pm at nite n no one in sight.
only got cars n vans parked la..
duno for wat purpose.
those matured lyk me shd noe la.
wahaha im matured??
jk.

den we reached home,
on d way,bro in law asked us to read some prayers.
cz u noe right,wen u frm places wic r not gd,
some spirits might follow u.
yea..dere were silence wen we read some prayers,
n b4 enter,we stayed utside for mins n read some prayers.
cz..my mom n religious teacher told us to do lydat.
so d spirits wic somehow is following us will go away.
summore my sis is pregnant n im having tt tym of d month.
OH ITS A GAL TING!
haha.
yea.

so its lyk,
we owaes go out la at sis hse..
either to have lunch,dinner,movies,a drive,or survey bikes.

bro in law wanna give me his bike.
his bike,ump forgot wat d part is called la.
u noe,d fork,tt part where u connect,
is crack abit.
cz bro in law rode it,
jumped arnd,go up d hill go down.
etc la.
he said if i break his frame,
he will buy me new frame,
n i can take all the components.
'affirmative' <--yea..
i will do it.
i'll break the frame,n walk arnd wif it.
so people will noe how fierce i am wen riding.
haha.
im sick of going down almost all the stairs i can find arnd sis hse.
except haven go down the HDB stairs n the swimming place one,
cz dey r so steep...
d swimming one,u double the number of hdb steps.
so..one day,i will go down frm d swimming complex stairs!
but must haf camera.
greatest accomplishment.

tt day,
i almost fight wif tis pri mly gal i tink.
lyk wth man.
hshe tinks she GINA la..
d grp leader.
my ygr bro learning to ride d bike la,
i heard she sd "sickening man tt one ride d bike'
i passed by her la..n yelled "be careful"
asked bro to be careful..
n she turend arnd n duno sd some mly words.
n u noe,if im being provoke,
i will go mad.
i gave her a stare.
stare at her until she scared,
n her friend kept quiet.
alright,i may seem so cool n funny,
but wen im angry,only ash noes me.
right ash?
i diden mean to smack farhan's dick la.
n den,i cycle,
passed by her n her grp of frens,
i sped la..
she sd "oi..dun step at here..dun act step la"
n some etc.
i dun care la..
cz if im angry oradi,
evryting on me will move.
so..i sped la,
she say dun step,
i more action.
i corner la act lyk F1 race,
n got tis steps of stairs,
i went down frm dere.
action2.
haha..

just now bro in law fren call the house.
crazy..nothing better want to tease me.
d birds n d bees.
wants my hp number.
i did not give my number la,
i dun lyk to give my number anyhw one.
he flirted wif me.
how dare.
oh nvm..im used to his flirting.
oh..i want to go east coast n cycling wif him!
dun get wrong idea.
i cycle la..not want to go out wif him.
he asked me out to cycle wat.
haha..

anyone wants me to treat me a meal?
too bad..no one i noe is here now.
can treat dem.
nvm la..i shall just kip d money in d bank la.

orite..i have written a novel.
sori la..long tym not onlyne,
so many tings to write.
so guys,take care ok?
bye..



i heard u calling to me.u come to me,i noe now i am complete.i am complete.was lost in the moment got carried away, heard the sound of u calling my name,now i am complete.

General Ryann!!

ryann was here at _______pm
too lazy to write.
alot to write.
haikx.
nvm.
i nid to do some soul-searching.

By the tym u're reading tis,
i'm on vacation.

Till next time. (",)

Will u be mine?

Dun tell me she's PL?!! NONO! take me take me.. i dun lyk d gal who sat bsde her in d pix. HMPS. it shd be me. where are u *sleeper* gal?? haiz... wat a sad ting.

LAYER ONE: What is your..?
-- Name: ryann
-- Age: 16+
-- Birth date: 251187
-- Birthplace: tokyo,japan
-- Current Location: by ayumi's bed
-- Eye Color: brown
-- Hair Color: black
-- Height: 155
-- Right handed or Left handed: both. but right hand is more faster la

LAYER TWO:
-- Heritage: historical?
-- Weakness: not bein able to express my feelings to *Toot* .There is somehintg which is holding me back.
-- Biggest fears: cockroach
-- Your perfect pizza: i prefer noodle
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: obtain a diploma in nursing n be a nurse.

LAYER THREE: Your…?
-- Most overused phrase(s): haha
-- Thoughts first waking up: food
-- Best physical feature: wth.. ass?
-- Usual bedtime: 12am
-- Most missed memory: sec2 n wen im 5yrs old

LAYER FOUR: Preferences..?
-- Pepsi or Coke: pepsi twist n coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: seoul garden (im spoilt la..)
-- Single or group dates: depends
-- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: nestea?
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vaNiLLa
-- Cappuccino or Latte: espresso

LAYER FIVE: Do you…?
-- Smoke: social..not much
-- Sing: when im super bored & Sleepy.
-- Take a shower every day: once a month
-- Have a crush(es): one..two..three.. *TOOTIES*
-- Think you've been in love: twice
-- Like high school: yes
-- Want to get married: haikz
-- Believe in yourself: in some ways
-- Get motion sickness: pass motion?
-- Think you're attractive: ugly lor..tt why mei ren ai
-- Think you're a health freak: sorta.i love carrot juice n mixed veggies juice
-- Get along with your parents: on occasion
-- Like thunderstorms: scared got la
-- Play an instrument: flute n banging on pots n pans

LAYER SIX: In the past month, you’ve…?
-- Drank alcohol: no
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall: just now
-- Eaten sushi: 5days ago
-- Been on stage: for what purpose?
-- Been dumped: no stead how to get dump?
-- Gone skating: in line skate,many months ago incl rollerblading.skateboard last year
-- Changed who you were to fit in: wadde man..

LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: haikz..
-- Numbers and Names of Childrens: ryann n d name of my crushes. wahha *psycho*
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: under the block can.wahaha.jkjk.
-- How do you want to die: die with my love one on the bed
-- What do you want to be when you grow up?: nurse/chef/

LAYER NINE: In yourself, you would want…?
-- Best eye color: rainbow
-- Best hair color: i envy the golden monkey
-- Short or long hair: spike
-- Height: 161
-- Weight: acceptable

LAYER TEN: List the number of:
-- Drugs taken illegally: panadol,paracetamol.took it w/o visiting the dr.just bought frm physician one.haha *bimbo*
-- People I trust with my life: my elder sister
-- CDs that I own: neber count
-- Piercings: 7
-- Tattoos: no
-- Times my name has appeared in the newspaper?:
ryann? ryan seacrest..ryan frm THE OC..ryan giggs..etc
-- Scars on my body: on my left knee, fell wen i swerve my bike at a very fast speed,the wheel stuck between the granite thingy,pebbles sand, n cut my knee.at pulau ubin ah.the other one at lower left leg, cz my leg entered the bicycle wheel.my brother la
- Things in my past that I regret: never save money.spend on food.

The peoples for for the singapore idol for 2004 is, RYANN!!! (tats me)

am so slpy.
nid my slp.
shall revise for awhile b4 i slp.
lucky i got my coke with me to keep me awake.

spose-ed to go for a movie wif my elder sis n ygr sis,
but harry potter is selling fast or either full,
except for midnight one.
confession of teenage drama queen dun haf,
dono la my sis checked.
err hmps.. acherli diden wanna go out cz i wana watch,
witches & boot camp.
but my elder sis said i so naughty,
she came all d way here n i did not turn up,
she sd she will pay the tix for me,
cz ygr sis only treat her for movie.
i got $ la..but duwan to use.
haha..3 people gave me money today! =)
parents n sis.
wow!

was blardy pissed durin d bus ride.
firstly we wanted to take taxi to tamp,
but not even one cab is available.
either not available or too blind to see me.
idiot fool,am wearing bright orange oso cnt see.
GO SUCK COCK LA THERSE DRIVERS!!!
i tink dey rushing to SUNTEC la..
wanna pick passsengers dere cz the pay for higher,
plus the CBD(i tink) rate n etc.
secondly,those bunch of filthy typical malays r so noisy.
kept laughing & talking so noisily,
i noe la..want have fun,can.
but not until it irritates the shit of others.
if want make so much noise,
go some other place arh,
or make noise between each other cock la.
disgracing typical malays.
i dun criticising dem la,
but they those typical mat minah adek2.

we ended up walking arnd TM,
bought delifrance la cz too hungry.
ygr sis bnought wallet.
tat shop assistant kanina shithole la.
i will have boob implant la,
so people noe im a gurl.
she sd chinese to my sis,
she asked im a girl of boy.
WTF OK!!i'm so pissed i want to scold her,
i dun lyk it wen im mistaken for a boy or male.
but lucky she got compliment me,
she sd im pretty den wear lydat look lyk boy.
n she asked her anudder colleague,
she oso blind tot im a boy.
kick her ar!!
the colleague oso suprised la,
she sd i pretty too, but grow longer hair wear skirt.
MY PROBLEM LA!!
i lyk myself wat.
summore i never bind oso duno see brast isit?
maybe mine too small invisible.
i shall never walk into tat shop anymore,
for they mistaken me for a boy,
incld one of the lecturer in SP,
he sd "yea..one boy ask me"
i asked him qn,
how can he say i am a boy?!!!
next tym those who mistaken me for a boy,
i throw my shoe at him/her.

after tat,went ta pizza hut to eat!
i diden rili lyk piza hut or fast food.
i love hawker centre,cooked food.
as in proper food la.
we split money,
my sis gave me money!
=)
Haha.. 2 days ago gave me,
today oso got.
lyk tis life so gd.

The sad part was,
i went home cz i got exam tmr,
ygr sis slpt over sis hse,
i want too!!
but tmr la.
hehe.. i touched2 sis tummy,
her tummy normal arhx,
why not BIG?!!
nvm..later i stay her hse,
i feed her.
go her work,send her food.
ask her eat infront of me.
ohh..even im lyk tis oso,
my sis still love me n dun mind much abt me,
she dun mind holding her hands wif me.

ok goodbye la,
must revise.

BYEZ!!

Hmp..just got back frm remedial n lunch.
mom scolded me "WHY COME HOME??!!"
haha..i told her "i miss u tt y". pure liar.
shall sit at here until 4pm,
off to mit wardah goin to bishan stadium,
accompany her watch soccer match.
i really did not want to go,
but she kept please-ing me here n dere,
irritating la..had to give in,
cannot help it wen pple please-ing me,
besides,after dere,im goin to slp over sis hse!
mom wants me to slp dere cz she wants to clean the whole house b4 the 7th.
to renovate.

err..yest went out wif my elder sis n ygr sis.
walked around bugis!! hehe
i bought 2 clothes.
i bought for the color cz i love green,
n i feel tat i reali nid green color.
yea..green n bright hot pink clothes.
wear for fun la..pink not fav color,
but its ASTROBOY!!
oh oh!i saw tis shoe la..hen mei lehx,
its POLO one.
Its white n shiny green!
i LOVE IT!
but my sis did not lyk it!
:( oh its ok,
besides, i dun intend to buy one.
i'm very petty la in shopping,
except clothes ONLY.
haha.
yea..we ate at kfc,
sis bought me 'cross stich' tingy,
im stitching PIGLET FRM WINNIE D POOH N FRENS!!
wheex.
sis wanted to buy me 'adidas' watch.
but i declined.
was busy wow-ing over it,
she kept asking "u want?u want?u want buy?"
its spore sale la $49.
duwan la her buy for me..
lyk wasting la.
i still got other watches,
itsn ot usable cz not batt.
hehe..shall ask her buy me other stuff.
she sd she wants to buy me a shoe!!
*Wow*
so fun lah stay wif her..
she owaes spend tings on me.
but arh..lemme see la if i lyk the shoe,
until i lyk n if i nvr buy it i will cry,
den i will buy.
wahahaa..

oh i forgot,
yest bro in law,elder sis,sis & me went IMM.
"akira warehouse sale"
wheex.. spend almost 1k.
They bought lyk u noe, "PC Lcd MOnitor screen"
but its not for pc la,
its the flat screen tv lah!!!
cost $799 .(i want one for my rm)
bought DVD home theatre system,
n discman for us.
bro in law sd if my sis want discman,
he oso have to buy one for me.
so i told him,
no nid..i can share.
on the spot he sd yes.
haha.. but the brand akira.
dun lyk larx d brand.
if only got mp3,
can ask him buy one for me.
hehe..i want to have visa,
i want tt 'manhattan card' lyk his!
=)
ask my sister get one for me!
wahaha.. jk jk.

orite byes!

Dun be suprise if i love u...

I SO NEED THE FOOD!!! WHERE IS MY FOOD?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tats spoilt ryann,
whose mom has been feeding her wif nice yummy food,
which she could not find any other yummy meals,
other den her home.
tat is true.
=)
she cooked pineapple soup today n egg??
erps..WHY SO BUDGET?!!!
i want her to cook me tom yam soup!!!
*wails*

obviously the two went to visit my grandma,
pneumonia.. err.. her lungs expand cz got water?
sum sorta la.
i so sooooooooooooooooo wanna be nurse!!!
but tat means i have to be a PERFECT GAL,
with long hair n gurlish??
no more spiky hair???
oh god!
*faints*
Nurse got PL onot??
who noes dey pretend want clean the bed,
cover the curtains,
but dey "doing" on the bed silently??
wahaha.

im stuck at home wif my ygr sister.
boring man tis house,
cz my accomplice is not here,
my lovely ygr bro.
i miss her him.
i love to treat him lyk a gal,
dun wurry!he is still a perfect boy!
not gay!
want kiss kiss n hug him.
he left me for 4 days,
if he is here,
can bring him to shop & buy him things.
HAKIM!!! WHERE ARE U??? I GOT MONEY NOW,
sister rich oradi..got $4.70 (cash)... come i treat u.
i miss sleeping wif him,
i dun lyk to sleep alone!!!
hmpfh!
obviously tat stupid lil bro is having fun,
wif my aunties n cuzzins,
dey went to duck boat ride?erm boat duck ride?erm singapore duck tours?
wateve u call it la..
i oso want to go out la...
but..i duwan to go out without a bicycle!!

nvm..shall sms my elder sister,
tell her i miss her.
but later she will go lyk mushy2 la,
cz she love me!
she said i am her best fren n she love goin out wif me!
hehe..
aiyah..but shy la.
i very shy la wen want to express my love to my family member.
but my elder sis not shy,
if i go to school frm her hse,
she will kiss me n send me infront of d door,
smelly2 want kiss me,
i smell of hugo deep red want smell me.
CHEY!!
my mom take me granted,
she duno isit i kiss her every morning to tell her i love her althou she's sumtyms a pain in d arse,noisy mouth bias freak???

sian ah...
want to treat myself to a luxury meal!
eat at swensen!! or seoul garden!!
WAH KAOZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ WAHHHHHHHHHAA!! psycho sia to do tt kinda ting.

I cant wait for tmr remedial,
got CHEMISTRY n MATHS!!!!!!!!!
wheex... chem fun la acherli,
draw molecules la.. esther..polymer..monomer.. etc.
cz i understand tt why fun la.
if exam,not fun.
maths cz teacher gonna teach ALGEBRA i tink!
wahaha YES!!!!!!!!
miss tt 'Strange u noe.mouth open book close' her now fav phrase i tink.
used to be 'stupid or wat?'

I have to pack my stuff if i wanna go sis hse tmr,
shes been asking me wen to go her hse.
aiyah..
lazy to pack.
want to do homewerk la.
im deprived.
deprive of riding on bicycle.
i want to cycle far far away,
wif ayumi hamasaki.
err... literally la,
hang her picture on my handle bar.
*psycho*
no i wun do tat larx!
siao char bor!

Neurotic

Went to SP wif emily,mas,bimbo,khairul,zainol,shahri, mei qi, alice, yi hao, yin nei, zhi rui, joy joy, wi bin, hui ting, jason, alice & kelly. Alots lars.. ooh... met kenny dere. Khai spotted him. He came wif his crumpled skool uniform. He complained there was no remedial cz the teacher did not turn up. So sweet of him to offer me m&m chocolates. haha. =)

The tingy ok la.. Not tat bad. Went to the business course. Diploma in retail, Diploma in Creative media production, Diploma in Accounting(dono la wat ley).. etc ah. forgot. BUT, im not really interested. I lyk creative media production.Can do video editing etc. English must have b3! wah kaoz! err.. shall work hard..who noes i might be working wif my GF,cheryl fox! Wow!! want kiss her. *psycho* But,I still want take 'nursing'. Speaking of tt, board the train., got 3 nurses. Chio bu lehx.. jap sia d hairstyle. Tak padan nurse.Kalau aku de nye patient...wow..pengsan.tanak kluar frm d hospital sials.

Got a grp of IJ gals. *eyecandy* Oh b4 i forgot, tis stupid idert guy, kept asking questions la.Everytym sia.. every where we go,he asked qns. U noe got quiz tingy, n who answer it correctly will get some souvenirs la. Stupid ah he. He busybody want answer. I feel lyk saying "Might as well take lah all the souvenirs la". Irritating.

Slept in the train..the journey felt so long.. wanted to sleep in the bus too. but tis auntie tok2 to her fren. KAO PEI SIA!!!! KNS!

I'll find a new layout for my 'secret' blog larhx. Hmps.. not too nice la..cz its a waste.No one will read it & acherli noes abt it.HAH!

no mood to write lars. Haiz. Maybe i shd go to slp.. n den do maths homewerk. Haiz...... haizzzzzzzzz...... haizzzzzzzzzzz........... haizZZZzzzz...

Tainted Love

Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Oh...tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way

Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Tainted love, tainted love
Tainted love, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love

Head Over feet

I don't know wat wrong wif me tis morning. I suddenly feel so sad. So sad until i could not express it here. Maybe i should go out & take a walk. Oh well..goin to SP later wif emily & zeek(Tt dude nvr reply n is nt onlyne. dono if he's awake nots). I'm on 'Alanis Morisette' music marathon. I love her songs. Girl power songs rocks. Maybe tis will help me. Her songs are mostly about life. Meaningful songs. =)

Should i smoke?? Nah...smoking dussnt help me at all in any forms. Maybe cycling or a run might help. But where can i run here?its not tat im at my sis hse where i can run at d stadium.run until i collapse n my heart will feel so much better.I did tis before and i ran 10rounds arnd the stadium. Maybe cycle far far away. Go where my legs takes me to. Cry?No..i dun cry.. I cry when i can't express my anger.Well tats mostly lah. Inline skate? My inline skate's strap broke..i jumped arnd wif it.haiz.. Swimming wun help..i'll end up drowning myself.Who noes the suicidal thought might suddenly come. U guys might be wondering y suddenly i am writing tis. Tat is because, i am so bored wif my life. Its so dull. I will feel depress wen i have nothing fun to do. Well thats me..i am an active person. But, might be asking me why nvr go out walk2? Walk walk for wat?? The more i feel depress. I need to do some sports. Haix.