para que lavida Lets make tis quick.
My chest is hurting me....
*rolls on d floor & groan helplessly*
woke up at 415am.
Maths test was 15mins late thou
Cz,took my own tym to iron sjab uniform,walk slowly & stopped by atm
Wow..rich got moneyssss!! now im not worthless if u wanna rob me!!

• Sjab training.
• watched band playing national anthem
• Suddenly vespa came n blocked our view
• emily went "U NOT TRANSPARENT OK??"
• i went "Oh my god..wen she came,i tot blackouts sia!!!"
• They larfed n commented wat a bad mouth i haf sucha lasertic bad mouth i haf.
• we h8 to c her face skipped sum of d marchings...
• BAH.we sat @ d canteen n bitched
• yan came
• we all posed n posed until my hp low batt
• went to yan hse
• met dem
• bumped into aishah,an old fren!!!
• Woahh...LEPAkZ
• She said my hair more taller n spikier..
• HAH
• Made our way to town
• hereen
• walking n den suddenly SOMEONE TAPPED MY BACK!! was KAT!!!
• she n wanie
• hugged dear kat countless of tyms
• so all of us walked together
• walked to lucky plaza??i tink!
• i duno
• la someone was sad
• poor gal walked to far east
• took neoprints
• Bumped into caroline!!! so happy n hugged her!!TWICE!!
• hah her tis mly fren was lyk ump okies...
• she was lyk lookin n smilin
• so i smiled back la...
• suddenly,saw MELISSA SIAH WUI LIN!!!!
• damn happy siahxxxxxxxx!!!HUGGED!!
• i tink now shes chiong-ing
• went seperate ways
• reached home at 8.15

sori its briefed... my tummy.I tink got gastric!bah.. n shoulder n chest hurt! *Cries*
im so sissy..
i only sob wen my body part is painful.
but seldom abt d heart.
Ahh..

i jsut realized my new layout was disastrous.
i used the wrong template fer the other blog.
yea..so gona use d default one fer d tym being.
Ok..byes

Now u have my heart,hold my heart so dun hurt me..

Hey guys...
ive changed template.
My comp looks ok,
duno abt u guys.
Hmps..yah..aniting tagged ah if u find any fault.

Nites!

Bills...bills..bills..

Mom nagged at me cz of d hp bill.
She opened d bill saw $90 n yelled my name.
I tot wth ah..
I told her its Frm 1st june to 20july dey count one.
She nagged cz of my sms-es.
The fon kol nvr scold..
wth...
arghiex!

Oh well,
shall cut down on hp usage as frm now on.
So i wun be rpely unnecessary sms-es,
n if im at home,
i will use hse fon.
And i shall not hang on d fon for unimportant stuffs.
Sorry fer those i've nt be replying ur sms-es,
hope ya understand.
Yep!
Feel free to give me a ring..
i min,my hp,
den i'll call back,
Hah.

Aight,
we played volleyball fer p.e today.
Wen i smack d ball,
d ball goes backward one.
Irritating sia!
N den i gave up,
i played wif my legs.
Kinda lyk sepak takraw.
Ran arnd d court lyk idiots.
Bahh...!
Im better wif legs co-ordination den to hands.
Yea..
Tats all...

BB!

Where have u been...

Things which irritates Ryann
[x]Not punctual(im not punctual..n i h8 waitin).
[x]Dun irritate wen she's engross doin her work.
[x]Dun pressure Ryann-->i can make frens wif anyone. i have my wish to associate wif any1.Dun stop me.
[x]Wen Ryann did not return/pick ur sms/kol dun ask 'Whys'.
[x]Dun scream infront of her or shout in her ear she'll fuck u if u do tt.
[x]Absolute Rudeness-->Dere's tis sec1 gal very rude. Tis morn,she whistled at me.I did not turn & look. Tink im dog isit?I noe she sure will ask me for ciggs. Go to hell.I hate her cz i find her rude.
[x]Wen Ryann is sad/angry, dun console her. She dun nid one unless if requested.
[x]If She sae yes, means yes. If no means no. NO further questions is allowed to be ask.
[x]If Ryann duwan to talk, dun force her. She opens her mouth at her own will.
[x]Wen she ask for her stuff back, kindly return it on tym.
[x]If borrow her books/comics, handle it wif care. She love her books. Except her skool textbooks.
[x]Whiners. Get it over & done fer goodness sake pls!
[x]Those who always complain abt deir lyk 24/7 althou she find deir situation is not tt pathetic as her.
[x]Listening to people's love story unles sif requested. And expect her to advise him/her. 4 words, "Fuck off n die" But it depends on who la...
[x]Singing malay songs.Cz malay songs r crap, forever abt love.
[x]Unhygienic pple.
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Tis blardy burhan is irritating d hell out of me.
I am fucking pisssed wif him,
cz i told him im busy bloggin,
n kept msg-ing me,
n den sulk.
Told him im busy,
n he said "write diary oso busy??"
WTH!
Stupid guy,
poor gal who stead wif him.
In skool d same too.
One day, i shall give him a tongue lashing!
B-E-W-A-R-E.
Oh well.

Was watching spiderman2,
n suddenly sobbed!
Not cz im touched or wat,
was tinking abt sumting*.
N d scene sad summore,
yea.
*still tinks*
Shall slp on it tonite.
Yea..
Oh well,
wat if?
wat if it did not?
will it go?
will it stay?
does she?
doesn't she?
ahh.

I just feel tat,we humans r never perfect or not perfect.Some or Mostly of us always repeat the same mistakes over n over agn.Some of us live with regrets.Some of us never make full use of the chances and take tings fer granted.Leading to regret.And wen dey woke up from deir world, dey realised dey have lagged so much & its too late.Just lyk yesterdays....gone.Some of us move on easily,some does not.Some love with deir full heart,some does not.Some are very patience n giving to their lovers,dey suffer silently w/o deir lovers knowledge.Sometimes, the feelings almost kill dem.Some find it hard to love and later end up hurting deir lovers unintentionally. Some are too scared to express wats inside deir heart.It hurts dem seeing their love ones fall into the arms of others.Lets..live for today..wat's tmr is tmr. Lets live as if today is d end of our life.Express ur feelings to the one u like/love.U never know wat he/she might sae.It might not be easy for me.I never get the chance to express my feelings.Sumtyms i try to ooze out the feelings,but it did not work.I did express my feelings but.. yah..Oh well..

Tats all frm the 'Ryann's World of so-called Philosphy'.

Was browsing thru my prev i min my very 2nd post in tis blog ,
yea,
i mean,
its gd to write diary.
its nice to read abt ur past.
yea..

Too late for regrets..

Tis post was spose-ed to be published on Sunday. Yea
My nose is agn making nonsence stuff!!
ARGH!!

So recap abt yest after newater.

Managed to mit her*
We had fun n talked.
Talked about stuff wic nids to be tink.
Snt her home wif ygr bro,
it was 2130hrs den.
See babe, told u oradi.
If u answer ur parents calls,
dey wun scold u.
Am glad u listened to me.
Hah.
Met elder sis at causewae pt.
Was 950den,
n i was surveyed!
Wth... i tink she fake la,
she said she's frm some japanese company,
want to survey youngster wat kind of job for youngsters,
etc.
she said,
if im shortlisted,
dey will contact me.
Wth...
Hope dey wun play play wif my hp number,
cz i hate to entertain such stuff.
Lyk i've said,
i dun tok to strangers as in never mit or see their pix.

So we bought Tix,
watched 'I,ROBOT'.
The next slot left is 11pm and 12MN.
Yea... we watched the 11pm,
went to mcdonald,
TOOK PIX!!
hahah =D

Yeah..after watching d movie fer 1 hr,
i realized i kept dozing on n off many tyms.
N was hoping the tym will fly.
The sound effect afftected me,
shocked the hell of me.
THe FEDEX EXPRESS robot so cute sia,
imagine one day,
a fedex robot send parcel to ur hse!
Wat ah.. want to have robot revolution,
the robots marched at the roads,
they went "please return to ur home immediately".
Got riot between the street punks n d robot.
Crappy sia.
BAHH...
I'm sorry la,
i dun lyk those sci-fi high tech movies,
hmp yea.
Tats why i dun watch star wars,
i set the person on FIRE if dey recommend me such movies.
Waste money sia $8.50..
Oh..n den halfwae sis wanted to go to d toilet.
She went "Who want accompany me if i want go?"
My ygr bro so bad duwan accompany her,
cz he's too engross watching.
Can see from the face my sis is dying fer da toilet.
Me, too bored watching,
i volunteered delighfully.
Its not cz im bored la,
just tt,
my sis is a girl female,
n its so late arnd 12+,
toilet no one,
n she's pregnant,
wat if she slip n fell,
who will attend immediately to her?
wat if got some pervert enter the toilet?
i love her n im scared anything bad will happen to her n d baby.
They waited fer 7years for a baby.
Can't imagine if anyting bad happen to d baby.
I want to bcum an AUNTIE!!!
YAYYYYY!!

Yeppiex...
d funny part towards the end of d movie,
i noe tt Sunny,d robot,
sahked hands la cz wateva duno wat.
n den.. VOILA!!
THe movie FINS!
haha... so dun ask me abt I,ROBOT,
cz i kept dozing on n off,
i tink its boring la.
cz if its not boring i wun be dozing million tyms.

After d movie,
took a cab home(Sis hse).
Reached home arnd 130am?
Pity d cab driver,
he's damn frenly,
but i did not talk to him,
im too tired n slpy,
later i end up scolding vulgarities @ him how?
My bro in law fren was in d hse,
i only managed to sae 'hello' to him,
my mouth too heavy.
N so.. i changed into a polo tshirt,
sorri la.. im too lazy to find my clothes,
so any clothes just wear.
i did not even go n wash my face,
eeyergh.
On the air-con,
n BAM!!

bahh...
woke up at 10am,
den went back to slp,
entertain sms,
i hate to entertain sms/pick up kol,
wen im in d middle slpng?
well hu does rite?
but.. zak pick up,
if me,i see whose number den i pick up.
yaya..
woke up finaly at 1215noon.
Sis la..
she went "U kol Singtel la.. activate ur mms..can la.."
I "My voice so hoarse n not nice duwan la tok"
embarassing sia tok lydat,
n summore breathe not fresh.
Ahh...
my ygr bro just cried,
we quarrelled.
sorri boy..

and den 1+,
went to haf dinner at bt timah,
wif bro in law's sis!
Her dotter is 16 years old,
very tall!
Pretty! *smiles*
haha.. nah.. dun tink lydat.
n den from bt timah,
D mother n i talked from bt timah,
until Geylang.
wth sia.. i din realised i talked too much.
Haha..tat is sooo ryann.
She kept talking abt her dotter to me,
im lyk WTH?
oh well its ok,
i tink tt im very gd at pretending n lying.
Bahh.. cz i kept smiling n show tt im enthu,
wif her conversation,
but inside i'm lyk 'oh my..speaking wif aunties?'
Haha..
She's a nice person.-smiles-
After tt went to 'Baby hyperstore'.
Shopped fer baby stuffs...
so boring..n so,
decided to chill in d vito van while waiting fer dem shoppin!!
Blasted the music,
on air con full blast too!
Oh..i want drive van!
BAHH!
Its mercedes one ah..dun look down.
heh.

Went home n my aunties,
grandpa,grandma n uncle,
was abt to leave d hse.
WTH!!
i hate dem la,
dey tease me lyk,
"hello brudder!!" "eh i tot its ur brother" "eh i tot is a boy!"
Fucking cheebyes.. next tym i shall walk wif my bra n underwear only.
Dey tink its a joke,
i dun find it funny.
If dey're my frens,
i would have set fire to dem long ago.
It just TURN ME OFF wen im mistaken for one.
Tis young boy,
he went lyk "Hello sis!"
i was so happy!
wanted to give him all my money lydat,
so yea.. hate tt mammu,
owaes kol me mai boy.
N tt cik kina went,
"eh gal..u wear lyk tis not nice.. lyk boy.."
Wth.. im wearing polo tshirt,unwaxed hair n jeans look not nice??
i fell lyk kicking her ok,
no one ever said im ugly b4.
who da hell is she siax!
was damn sad la...
n den,
my elder sis sms-ed me!
"dear sista.dun care wat ppl say abt u. u r beautiful n i believe wif even short hair i still can grow more beautiful dat if u want".
I smiled man.
She's so nice.
Love her!
Even my own blood dun sae im ugly,
she's just damn jealous im pretty la.
wtf...
her dotter is fake,
make ups.. whre got natural me!UNLYK ME!!
BAHH

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Today's entry 270704

Today..skool boring siax...
wheres tis mas?!!
had SS source-based test,
sleepy sia while doin d paper.
Wanted to slp,
but NO!!

bahh....

i'm realli sorri.
i wish tings wun haf to be tis wae.
we've had many happy n sad memories,
u were dere wen i needed u,
i were dere wen u needed a shoulder to lean on.
remember the dreams we've planned?
the kids, the vine garden(cz i wanted one)?
n wen dey r asleep?
but it has come to an end.
i noe u still do love me,
i wish i could too,
but i've drifted million miles frm u.
i wun blame tat its ur fault d rs turned sour,
i admit we're not perfect.
i've long gone forgive u.
i noe u did not mean for these to happen.
i forced myself to love u b4,
but d feelings is not d same anymore lyk d first tym.
Although we're not couple anymore,
we can still be frens if u want to.
If u want to go back to tt disgustin beast(Wat u kol her),
i wun stop u.
its not tat i dun care,
im so sick of being let down all d tym.
i admit i was jealous wen u lyk tt hafidz n hazim,
cz i still have feelings fer u at tt tym.
i was sad wen u lyk tt disgustin beast,
cz i'm afraid shd she hurt u,
and i noe ure naive to surrender urself.
if u surrender urself,
n if she leave me,
u will be in total shame.
not her.
i just want u to be wif sum1 u rili love n is very sure of tt,
to be wif her thru good n bad tyms,
not to give up on her shd she let u down.
Maybe gal,
if u find someone new,
pls treasure him/her,
do not break up wif him/her in a fit of anger,
n ltr patch up.
Learn by mistakes.
No use regretting wat is long gone...

Get my bed...

Its 1240am!
not spose-ed to be onlyne.

But just wanna sae,
i tink briefs ARE HOTT!!!
esp white ones.
if i'm a male,
i will wear brief,
not boxers!!
Wearing boxers never cross my mind.
Check out CK's advertisement.
haha..sori if i sound lyk sex maniac.
But..briefs are hott & sexayyy!!

]]25* Ure da sweetest ting i've ever tasted... **

 

Talk to me,even if its just to say goodbye...

Tym check 910am.
Wardah just called,
mit dem 930am n haf breakfast.
BAHHH!!!
Its raining,
hw to go newater plant sia?!!!
i duwan la go if d rain will wash awae my wax!!

My stupid ygr sister woke me up,
wif her bangings on d door la,
the way she open her drawer,
so damn noisy n rough.
Useless tis gal,
look lyk gal but damn rough n blardy fierce.
she slapped my ygr brother in d bus,
until tne whole bus can hear.
*shrugs*
Again,i wun date such gals.
BAHH!

My mp3 is playing
counting crows-accidentally in love
madonna-power of goodbye
madonna-rain
smash-talk to me
savage garden-i want u
savage garden-hold me

Sori no techno or fast song for tis morn,
not in d mood.

Slept at 4am,
talked to her*.

im really sorry,
i just can't give u anymore chances.
i gave u too much already,
but u've never change.
i've been so patience & giving towards u.
if u ask me if  i've forgotten the past,
the past will always be in my mind,
but dey will not be the tots to entertain myself.
if u ask me,
i can still remember,
our 1st anni at fort canning,
d day u broke up wif me 2 days b4 my bdae,
the mcdonald hse LJ,
our strolls at fort canning,
ur hse,ur rm,
my hse,my rm,
lovecouch,
the morning breakfast at bk,
the dinner at boat quay,
bishan,
east coast,
suntec city,
sentosa,
NUH,
the last anniversary,
u bought me a stupid clock,
i bake u a cake,
n u tot i was bullshitting.
celebrating ur bdae,
ure parents did not make tym to celebrate ur bdae,
n ure down as no one celebrate,
i went to rush to d bakery to buy a cake,
we were happy back den.
the dinner at han river.
the trip u made frm ur hse at jurong,
to my hse just to cook me a meal,
u hate the bus cz the journey was 90mins,
the early morn call until 5am,
n u did not have tym to slp as u haf to go skool,
tt tym wen i left u all alone at taka cz u make attitude,
i am sorry to have u left all alone as i hate ur attitude,
the constant fightings 24/7.
and u asking for a break up,
wic happens either once or twice a month,
times by 9months n 4 mths we've known,
and u asking for a patch,
me bein d stupid giving one,
suffer w/o u realizing it

i hate ure frens because dey have 'airs',
u hate my frens n i duno y.
and wen u told me yest nite,
u love me n duwan to lose me out to sum other gals,
n den u promised u will change n nvr repeat the past,
sumthings just wun go back to the past,
the feelings wun be the same lyk before.

we've done too much,
we've went thru alot,
i struggle to make the rs work,
but ure 'childishness' habit of breaking up in a fit of anger,
just wun change.
i was hurt,
u tore my heart.
if we have to go back lyk the past,
it will be lust,
not love.
i'm sorry,
but u noe i'll always be dere to listen to ur stories.
i'll try to make tym for u ok?

bye..want bathe!!!

Ooh..ur body is wonderland..

I have cold!!
My nose sumthang wrong.
Kept sneezin.
Since morning.
Not owaes sneeze,
but mornin sneezed,afternoon,nite, any tym of d day.

Goin NEWATER PLANT!!!!
-jumps around in circles & clap her hands-
My left ankle still pain.
I min,can walk properly n jump,
but i cnt lyk move my ankle in circles,
or put my right leg on my left ankle,
it hurt.
So long readi..since JUNE!!
Still remember tt nite my leg so pain,
i sobbed!!
Pain PAIN.. i hate to see myself bein physically DISABLED!
haha.

Tis mosquito bloody fuck la.
GO N DIE!!!!!!!!!!!
-chase the mosquito wif parang BAYGON-

I'm tinking...
[conversation btwn ryann n ash]

dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
hmps..am i a flirt?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
huh?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
a bit lah
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
wen u're single only
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i see..
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
her fren sae tt im using saodah
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
her frens sae im flirt cz im handsome
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
wth
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
rite?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
maner ade?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
u're not using her pe
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
eh kater ngan kawan dier kan u can get better gerls lah
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i cnt accept d fact sia dey say im flirt.i just feel tt im too sociable
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
eh babi la... haha... nanti saodah hurt
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
hahaha
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
haha betol pe
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
its d fact
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
u noe it i noe it
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
noe aper?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
kalau ko nak make use of d gerl pon ko will go for d lawa ones
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
u noe its d fact wat
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
u noe u can get better gerls
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
hmps...uh...haha..
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
yah...wth sia
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
haha see!
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
if i want to flirt,
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i can flirt wif tt jace rite...
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
or wif berline..
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
or others la..
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
crappy la her frens
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
stupid frens!
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
yes dats rite
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
mepek ah dorang
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
anyway hu are dey to say dat?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
dey dun even noe u
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i can say tt IM NOT A REAL FLIRT
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
gals flirt wif me got la!
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
ya
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
dun u tink so?
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
anyways u're single so its ur pasal if u wanna flirt or not
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
saodah is NOT ur gf
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
haikx..i duwan la haf gf la
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
my gfs all dun trust me
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
dey say i will leave ferst la.. i go flirt if i neh kol dem
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
u see la..who walk off ferst
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
wth.
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
*sneeze*
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i haf cold
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
haha
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
a'ah seh dorang yang prangai
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
dorang yang leave ko
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
mepek ah dorang
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
haiks...
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i duno lah
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i want to burn my face
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
so i look ugly
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
i tink i must look worst den tt triple b
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
so my gf will trust me
dementophobia>>lift u up and fly awae wif u into the nite25 says:
n tink i wun flirt
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
hahahahahaha
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
giler lah ko
it's never been me to want this much from you says:
bebual mepek je

Hmp....
im not a flirt,
dun call me one,
u all dun noe me well enarf,
stop making stupid /dumb assumption.
u all still young,
just turn upper sec.
dun tok cock.
if i wanna use ur fren,
i can get other gals.
i am confident of tt.
i am just damn sociable ok!
Doesn't mean yandao is a flirt.
Uglee oso flirt wat.
Some more worst..despo.
Im not despo,neither yandao nor uglee.
Im in between.
As in.. not ugly not yandao.
HAH!! RITE RITE???u agree rite?
yaya.. i noe oradi!
bhb sia!

I lyk tis song savage garden-i want u
The song old one..year 1997.
haha


Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place
Where your crystal minds and magenta feelings
Take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chica cherry cola
I don't need to try to explain
I just hold on tight and If it happens again
I may move so slightly to the arms
And the lips and the face
Of The Human Cannonball that
I need to I want you...

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you when
I get to you
Ooh I want you,
I don't know if I need you but
Ooh I'd die to find out
Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but
Ooh I'd die to find out

I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for
But a look and then a smell of perfume
It's like I'm down on the floor
And I don't know what I'm in for
Conversation has a time and place in the interaction
Of a lover and a mate but the time of talking
Using symbols, using words can be likened
To a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat
Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you when
I get to you

Ooh I want you,
 I don't know if I need you but
Ooh I'd die to find out
Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but
Ooh I'd die to find out
Ooh, ahh...Ooh, ahh...

BYEBYE!!

[25]-ooh i want u.i duno if i nid u(so can i feel u gurl) but.. oooh im dyin to find out*

p/s:ryann will slp wif dirty tots tonite.

IM BORED!! SLEEPY.
lets interview myself.

Things I will Miss If I'm Attached
1)my afternoon nap.
2)being lunatic as usual
3)mixing wif my other galfrens(later jealous how?)
4)taking a walk wif yan(Cz..i will get very tired after dating)
5)bein damn sociable
6)my afternoon nap.
7)my afternoon nap.
8)my afternoon nap.
9)my afternoon nap.
10)my favourite tv shows(cz tired)

so its lyk my nap is so damn important

10 Rules Of Joining Ryann-ity

1)Do not disturb/irritate wen Ryann is sleeping.
If u do so: Ryann will just beat u up wif watever tings she can find or curse u. (Tested PROVEN 'I was sleeping. I did not mean to smach Farhan's dick. I was sleeping n he disturbed me, my hand just moved' -ryann sources-)

2)Do not talk/irritate/shock .interrupt Ryann wen she's so engross doin her work.
If u do so: Ryann will curse u & yell @ u.

3)Do not slap/hit her head or beat her.
If u do so: Ryann's body will automatically react and punch u(Tested PROVEN 'Tis bung not happy at me n she pushed me. My blood suddenly shoot up.My ears come out smoke all tt, i can just smash her head. BUt tt stupid sister pulled me awae!!' 'I did not mean to punch syafiq.I was talking n he nuthing better smack my back. He was joking. But i duno..my body just react n land him a punch' -ryann sources-)

4)Ryann hates crazy lunatic fans & please stop looking at her . 'I noe i yandao la..dun look at me until lydat'-ryann sources-
If u do so: Ryann will ignore you for her entire lifetime or maybe yell at u. (Tested PROVEN. 'I went lyk WTH u looking.Dun look la.Go awae. I did not mean to be proud la.but i hate it.Do u lyk it if a gal pass by u thru n fro 10tyms in lib wen ure trying to study?' -ryann sources-

5)When Ryann says 'I dun mind' 'Its ok. Dun question her agn.
If u do so: She will change her mind.

6)Don't Lie to Ryann.If the truth hurts, just let it out.
If u do so: Ryann will get pissed.

7)Don't force/pressure ryann to do something.
If u do so:Ryann will not do. 'I duno why tis asshole kept forcing me to meet her. Wat the fuck is it wif her?Duwan mit my probs la. If face pretty can la.Wtf' -ryann sources

8)Don't EVEN DARE slam the phone down on Ryann w/o saying 'bye'.
If u do so:Ryann will be damn piss cz she hate rude people. Ryann will call u back n yell at u or she wun call u ever agn unless if u aplogise

9)Please be courteous/polite e.g:Thank you, sorry, Byebye,excuse me,please.
If u do: It turns ryann off. Hate rudeness

10)Be hygienic e.g:No body odour, smelly breath, pls shave ur armpit hairs dry sweat etc
If u do so: 'Its fucking turn off sia... yucks! I wun date dirty people. Its such a disgustin sight to see a lady/man wif bushy armpit. YUCKS!!' -ryann sources-

Settle down inside my love, accidentally in love..

Tis song ah..owaes on d radio sia.
I'm lyk WTH?

-smells her shirt-
ahhh...
it smells nice! *dreams*

skool was ok.
after skool had to stay back,
Mdm nurmah d egg called mom,
czi skipped her remedial class.
its not tt i WANT TO SKIP.
i tink tat i HAVE to skip.
oh well..

She told mom i haf great potentials la..
but d only ting abt me is tt i dun attend her class.

(The egg n me.she's nagging.im sittin infront of her)

Egg: did u hear just now wat i've said?
ryann:(kip quiet n shrugs.. busy dreaming)
egg:i told her u got great potentials. i noe u have great potentials n u can go far.but u better stop talking n dreaming in my class.
ryann: (Still dreaming..act dumb)
egg: so why din u come?
ryann:(still dumb n dreaming)
egg: why..tell me??!
ryann:went to mit my fren.
egg:who is ur she?
ryann:saedah my fren.
egg:why is she more important den ur studies isit?
ryann:(was lyk.. WTF OK!!i wanted to attend ur class). I wanted to attend but i cnt get thru her to tell her i got remedial. But i told her oradi to mit at 2 n ur class start at two.. n can't expect her to wait for me until 3+.
egg:if ure fren got brain, she will call u rite after waiting fer so long??
ryann:(reaction..so u sayin she stupid ah?!! ryann kept quiet)
egg:which skool is she from?

ryann:(tinks n cnt sae shes frm gal skool cz ltr she noe i lesb) bedok town
egg:bedok town isit??
ryann:yes
egg:how old?
ryann: 15
egg:wat special abt ur guys rs until u willin to skip my remedial???
ryann:(wanted to smash her head & denies) -larfs- NONO..im NOT LYDAT OK!!
------------------------
wateva la tt blardy bitch.
just cz i neh answer her kol,
she nag at me lyk as if i have sex wif her husband lydat.
one tym only wat..
i owaes call her.
wth.
n dad idiot.. had to spoil my mood,
he nagged n scold me,
but me,
i make tis kind of face 'Wateva ok.Nag la..im not listening'
n i kept dreaming n dreaming n humming songs.
mom irritated at me cz i make face lydat,
my probs la.. just nvr pick up only,
make big fuss.
she tot i stole her money
cz her bag was opened!
HELLO!! FOR WAT?!!!
i dun steal her money ok!!
maybe is tt maid la steal her money.
dumb.

-dreams-
ahhh...
-smells shirt-
wheres my polo tshirt?!!!
damn...
ahhh..

i gtg now la..
my big intestines nid to release!!
OUCH!!!

 
[25]kiss me,caress me,feel me,hold me,hug me,love me![17]

I love ayumi hamasaki!!! MARRY MEEEEE!!!

Im wearing my hot pink tshirt!!! -prances arnd-
Oh my..im damn slpy.
im DEPRIVED OF MY AFTERNOON NAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHH!!
Lets listen to trance ATB-Long way home.
Soothing.....

Just read Khai's blog.
Poor gal..got rejected twice.
I tink ah she's d kind lyk den sound stead.
Not lyk me,
haha...im very bad la.
Cz i lyk to "torture" d gals lyk,
must make d gal lyk me n play hard!
Wahaha... ok la..not too hard of cz.
Khai, yah... work on tt gal aight!
Dun be so sad lah abt 'baby'...
Hope ure moving on!!
-smiles-
I am one happy gurl!!

Just now was RHD!
THey said i look gr8,
fizah told mrs mohan "mai look sweet rite?"
Mrs mohan went "sweet??no la..pretty!!!"
i'm so proud of my mom tto give birth to me as a handsome and pretty person!!
NOTE THE BHB!!!!
I'm sorry la... listenin to techno now...
want dance!!!

Went home...
lalala... accompanied ash to d tt ting wif her gf.
At outram la... n den we went seperate ways!
took mrt to jurong east..and den to woodland!
Met her dere!
Saw he 2 guy frens..khairul n sham!
Took 168 to bdk,
went dating.
LOLS!
In d mrt i kept dozing n dozing,
until cannot stand,
heck care la..i just leaned my head at d mirror la.
Tats why hair lyk duno wuts!
Next mth cut hair agn!!
I cut hair evry mth cz i dun cut very short,
i dun lyk shaved or slope hair!!
i love my hair to be trimmed!!!
and spiky2!
I want chg hairstyle,
but center parting,side,armani all done b4.

im sorri i rejected ur calls.
i get very irritated wen i tok to u.
wen i call u,u asked why call.
wen i dun call,u said im ignoring u or wat.
can u just be happy tt i take my tym to pick d phone n press d 8numbers n wait fer u to pick up d fuckin fon wic ut ake a long tym to pick up?!!!
and im not wif her ok.
and hold and get control to ur own life.
dun do anything stupid lyk slashing urself or give urself awae to pple cz of me.
if u had hold on to my heart n never treat me lyk dirt n let me down umpteen tyms,
i wun have let go of u ok.
i guessed u duno how much u tore me wen u kept breaking up wif me,
in a fit anger.
and later on patch up.
have u ever spare a thought about me b4 asking for a break up?
i expect u to be more matured den me since ure older den me.
u tink by tellin me ure not a virgin and ure bcum a whore,
u tink i care?!!!
i do care ok..but rite now,
i JUST CANNOT STAND UR SHITS OK!!!
its becoz,
u duno how to control ur life.
get hold of ur own life ok!!!!
No use to ruin urself over someone.

If u had not played truant in ur secondary skool life,
if u had not skipped ur poly skool life,
if u had been true to me,
if u had not run awae from home,
if u had not went to such crowded place,
if u had listen to me by not to drink,
if u had not treat me lyk dirt.
IFS...
have u ever listen to me????
NO.
i had to sneak out of the house just to visit u @ d hospital,
until reach home at midnite,
dad almost land me wif a punch,
u asked me to visit u althou its a minor tingy of ur appendix..
n tat is if u had not skipped ur sec skool life.
if u had not skipped ur poly skool life,
tat CRIME wun haf taken place,
and i did not have to rush down to clementi,
to wait for 3hrs for ure investigation,
wait lyk a toot ok,
wats worst is tt im ur witness.
i forgave u wen i found out u were two-timing me,
tot of another bung holding n caressing my own gf,
how can deir own gf stand it?
but yet..i forgave u n still went on.
i had to lie to my parents just for u to overnight at my hse,
cz u did not listen to me wen i told u not to run awae frm home.
u realli let me down tt tym.
if u had not went to tt tt crowded place,
u wun mit tt bangla n those unnecessary stuff wun haf happened.
if u had not treat me lyk dirt,
by brkng up n want a patch over n over agn,
my love for u wun have fade.
tell me how can i love u if u kip dissapointing me.
i did not press on u wen u broke wif me 2 days b4 my bdae,
jz cz u find me childish n ltr demands a patch up.
u tore me inside n outside,
wic stupid lover would want sucha gf.
im not despo ok.
i tink i deserve better ok.
ure frens hated me for got no reason,
cz u guys are from TOP SKOOL WAT...
n we're neighbourhood skool(low class lyk wat u described).
wen ure mad at me,u pull me down wif ur harsh words,
u wear a mask wen ure infront of ur frens.
u told dem bad tings abt me,
n behind dem, ure a different person.
i deserve a better gf den tt.
any lover will just kill deir gf if dey're r humiliated.
u humiliated me infront of my 3 ex gfs.
i did not contact wif dem n u find fault wif dem,
humiliate me.
where can i put my face if im humiliated thrice???
even my frens dun do tt.
i tried to patience wif u,
but its useless.
now wen u tell me ure not virgin anymore,
wat more can i sae!!!
WAT MORE?!!!!
stop it can.
get hold of ur life lyk wat i've said.
dun eat panadols,
dun slash urself,
dun do stupid stuff just cz u cnt 4get abt d past.
wen ure angry at me,
u did not tell me.
u just make attitude.
how can i noe wat fault have i done,
if u had not tell me.
n u expect me to noe.
how can i noe rite!
u said ure sad wen u found abt me liking her n she liking me.
i noe ure sad,
but wat can i do?
u cant force me to love u.
u have let me down many tyms,
u tore up all my emotions.
i just cant stand it anymore.
i just cant.


Omg..im depressed over these shits.
sumtyms i wish god did not make me to mit u n u miting me.
but maybe..He wants us to teach a lesson abt love n yah..
i duno arh...
*Stressed*

im angry wif dad.
he said he scared to give me d camera fon,
he scared i lose d fon.
cz he told me his frens said his dotter hp lost.
TATS HER FUCKING STUPID FAULT LA!!!
SHE DUNO TAKE CARE WAT TAT WHY LOST LA!!!
y must drag me..
i've never lose my hp or wallet b4.
i've never lose anything valuable b4 OK!!!
I'm not forgetful ok.. i min..tings la.
if duwan give me d fon,
just sae so la.
no nid sae until lydat!!!
go n die la.
lyk i care lydat dun gt tt fon.
go to hell arh!!!
mom said d fon my brother can use wen he got back frm camp,
she said let him use he oso want.
he workin wat,
cnt buy one himself!!
i hate him ok..
he can buy expensive stuff,
but tings lyk wax or food cnt buy.
wtf ah.
my wax oso want use.
get a life ok!!
no future lyk tis kip depending on pple.
my eyes tearing la.
i hate la...
she makes me so stress lyk hell.
i feel guilty.
but guys,do u tink i shd be guilty?
she let me down many tyms.
not once..but many tyms..

ARGHS!!

shall not be lyk tis.
shall smell my shirt to slp. ;)
i hope u wun lemme down lyk she does

Beware of flying shoes...
 
Its 1.40am n im chatting on msn wif ash.
ok la..shd be slpng.
i min d pple all went to slp.
me?
i just woke up!
haha.. good morning Lee Kuan Yew's Dogs! Singapore.
 
We're larfing abt tis incident.
Saodah n i on d wae to bus stop la.
Its lyk d bof of us noes tt SUMTHING great is abt to happen.
Orite.tis skoolboy of mine was talking on his hp while crossing. 
He went "where r u? "i reached"
So loud sia he talked until we ah opposite road can hear!
Hmp..we looked at him while walkin,
and u noe, d road got road divider?
la di dum...da da da..
surprise surprise
He tripped on tt ting,
he fell lyk elephant lydat!
He went lyk BAM!!
in mly u call it nangka busok
but he ah..nangka busok giler nyer.
He fell so hard, n....
HIS SHOES FLOWN OFF IN THE AIR!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
If he die ah,his shoes is his only remains.
And if got cars or motor,
n d driver or rider kena hit ah,
cause of death is "FLYING SHOES!!!"
I wanted to laugh la..but yah.. must act cool!
Later he feel humiliated la..
When his shoes got FLOWN OFF!!!
Oso,wen his shoes got flown off,
i did not continue to look,
haha..got tym sia to wear his shoes in d middle of d road.
So guys, BEWARE OF FLYING SHOES!!
His fall was damn bad la...
he kept groaning 'Aww...pain...aww..pain'
Yah.. haha... i tell u if zak n me witnessed the scene,
we dun care..sure larf lyk hell.
But.. aiyah.. haha.

Oso got tis indian uncle!
He rode his bicycle.
Cycled so fast as if ride motor ones.
den his back tyre hit d kerb.
n yah.. u can see the reaction la..
sumthang la.
Again,we witnessed the full event!
Luckily his sarong neh drop off!!
But i still prefer the flying shoes!!!
 
Hmp..im irritated wif my tis distant fren of mine.
Wtf sia isit wif her.
useless to console her!
i wun help her if she kept tellin me abt hr stupid probs.
she brought it open herself.
its STUPID!!! ABSURD!!! MINDLESS!!
to.. uhhh well nvm.
if me ah her "prey" 
i will call mental hospital.
lyk despo la.
she got everything n wat more does she wants?!!!
can't stand despo la...
it irks me off!!
i can love w/o a gf needless to sae a stranger.
why cant she.
atleast her situation is better den mine!
oh well.
people!
 
My blog is lyk sumthang wrong.
d linkies lyk at d center.
wtf sia.
and yah.. the blog is not full screen rite?
cz my comp shows full screen,
bt others dun show!
its ok bah..shall chg. SOON!
not really soon!
i want PSP la...
psp-photoshop
so can create my own pix!hmps

I'm tinkin about d III scenes.
I love the 3rd scene alots!
Yeay.. well..hmps..it was not planned.
It just happened.
Ahhhh it was damn great.
Of cz cnt elaborate la..
later u all kaypoh2!
shall slp wif the scene III incident!
Too much for a newbies.
Kinda la.
 
Wat i've said b4 is im not ready,
yet now im still not sure.
im afraid to give my heart awae,
its a gamble to let others to hold ur heart.
but i rili want it to happen,
after all many stuffs.
hmps... -tinks-
i love you 
 ========= 
Summary wat i've eaten:
recess:Fishball tomato soup noodle wif extra noodle!
2 siew mai n lychee!
 
cheezels!
a lil bit of twisties(bought 2 twisties,my siblings finished dem!)
 
supper:rice n fish1(orite it was too mucg..but im damn hungry la!)
 
Ok..i shall haf coffee later. Cz the taste aroma damn shiok,
and it lull me to slp. So i can have a speedy nite!
 

Dream girl...
 
I picture myself, having a successful career. Own a cafe/restaurant,car as in fast sleek cars,bike. Hmp.. i duwan drive scrambler cz i dun lyk tt kind of bike.I want a racing bike.Ahh..i realli lyk aprilia bikes.I own a condominium,living wif my 2 stupid moronic frens, ash n junk ump..if dey want to la. I'll be a good auntie and spoils him/her(Sex not confirmed).My cafe/restaurant will be very successful, great customers. Oh yah..ump i'll still be a bung.Means if go to work must wear lyk office clothing(hate to dress formal)??Wif a tie n spiky highlighted hair. I want some purple! I duno y.I'll have a damn hot chick!Mixed race preferably & WIF brains.I will NOT splash her wif expensive luxury items of coz. Spend lah on her but not much.Duwan to be so stupid.Cz the rs will be a materialistic one.We will play sports together, walk down the beach at night.We will just cuddle each other,kissing,tongue intertwine,groping.She must smell fucking nice la or i will dump her. Im sorri but personal hygiene is important.Well..the gf part is when im ready to have one cz i prefer dating.Must get to noe more about the person.Chicks will come after me cz im so hott,nice,romantic,sociable lyk deir dream bung!!WAH CB SIA TIS RYANN! If no gf, i picture myself getting lotsa hickeys frm diff gals??Ahh... Everyday,go date wif diff gals... Its a date!Not gf. Get to noe dem 1st mah i told u readi. Oh tats all for my dream.I better DATE MY BOOKS!! Or i see myself working with SEMBCORP(rubbish company). Yah..
 
Oh..tis compo below was written by yan. It has nothing to wif me & its not true ok.pls dun chg ur opinionon me.i wun do those stuff.I dun chat on IRC.Tis yan kept larfing and talking when writing. Crazy sia.. make own story, larf alone. Hmps.. The characters are changed.Nothing got to do wif me or anyone. Any similarities withe the dead or alive,is purely coincidental.
 
    Once there lived a boy named Ryann who likes to chat on IRC. He likes to chat with lots & lots of gals. Then he met Ayumi. She's really funky, outgoing n great.N so dey started dating. Along the way, he also met tis gal named Kristin. Dey also started dating. But both of the gals didn't noe Ryann is cheating on them. As days goes by, as the grass grows taller, as the flower blooms, Ryann just kept quiet about it. He did not even feel guilty. The gals thought tat he is a perfect guy for dem. They think he is sweet & caring guy. No one can resist his sweet- talks and charm.
 
    One dae, Ayumi asked Ryann out, on that day also Kristin asked Ryann out. Ryann was puzzled & didn't know what to do. He don't have the heart to reject one of dem & he also couldn't reject both. So he make a time to go out with both of dem(guys don't try tis at home).
 
====to be continued.
 
Tats all..she wrote it halfway cz she wanted to pee and cannot go on writing. HAHA.
 
I'm thinking what happened in my room.
I miss those.
KISS ME BABY!!!
HUG ME N NEVER LET ME GO!!!
i love her smell.
i lyk her waist!
-moans-
orite..enarf.
 
Yea.. below was taken on 2003 RHD.
Ryann da Ahh was @ d scene.
Spot her man!
So ugly rite???
I want to go n die la.
I look damn disgusting.
Sorry d scanner not sharp!
Pls comment! Hah 
 


the cranberries-_dreams_

p/s: frm tmr onwards,i shall write down wat i eat for d whole dae.Watch my intake.

Recess: rice,chicken,fishcake(the food sux ok) & fruitpunch.

Dinner: rice with squids n chicken(a bit of it).

5lychees.
1 apple.
a sip of coke.

orite tats all.
must noe give in to temptations.

Nites!

Nothing i have is truly mine...

[NOW]
happy or sad: happy & angry cz tis mosquito bit me!!! ARGHHHH
sleepy or awake: sLeEpy
hungry or full: full
dirty or clean: cLEan
single or taken: SingLe
alone or with someone beside u: aLonE
sick or healthy: healthy
[WHAT]
you last ate: noodle
you last drank: coke
you wearing now: my green shirt n short
are you thinking of: slp n waking up later at 3am or 4am to revise on ss.n im skared of o's!! *Cries
are you wishing for: hmps... i duno..
do you overuse: hmps.. not realli
do you take for granted: money

[WHO]
do you miss the most: LALALALALALA
do you love: LALALALALALA
do you feel most happy with: LALALALALALA
makes you laugh like a maniac: zakiah a.k.a big bird. ak.a preity zinta
makes u sleep: comb human tcher
makes you cry: no i dun cry
makes you angry: BAH
enlightens you: wth...
ill-treats you: my BLACK neighbour dog! 4eva barking at me!i throw cockroaches at him den he noe!! fuck him la!!yucks.

[WHEN]
is your birthday: 25/11
is your wedding anniversary: yest
is the happiest day of your life: when i go cycling
is the saddest day of your life: whenever i have comb humans.the teacher damn boring.depress sia go her class
did you last swear: just now
did you last have a fight: fist fight was sec2. i did not mean to punch her mouth.it bleed n i felt so bad.but dun wurry...we still frens.
did you last cry: many months ago

[HOW]
do you break off with someone: i duno.. hmps.. -tinks- make attitude yah.
do you overcome depression: stare into space n cry wen its so uncontrolable!<--duno spell.
do you live your life: live to eat.

[WHY]
do you normally get angry: wen i am doing my work, or sleeping. if im, doin my work,dun disturb me. i will yell at u.
are you that who you are: stupid la u.wat english is tis??
are you doing this survey:lyk got nthg better to do 
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Its 1215am.haiks.. skool later.
Im tinking.
i'm writing in blue.. cz im feeling blue
*sings:when im feeling blue,
all i have to do,
is take a look at u,
then im not so blue.
Wen i kiss ur lips,
i can feel my heart beats,
lalalalalala
Duno how to sing summore.

*headache*
do i want it?
or do i not want it?
will i stand,
or will i not?
-stares into space-
do i haf tt much of patience,
or will i give it up halfway.
but she does not choose her life to be tt wae,
is her parents.
can't blame her.
althou we can't mit tt often,
its fine by me.
shall not be selfish or she will get hell frm her parents.
if we can't talk on d fon tt much,
its ok..atleast i get to hear her soothing voice.
n yah.. 3letta words!*smiles*
shall make myself busy studying,
and my life wun be so pathetic as to miss her all d tym.
hmps.. -ponder-
i dun expect her to wait for me oso,
cz i duno wat d future haf in store for us.
wat if everything suddenly just go wrong,
one party will be hurt,
the other will be enjoying wif another person,
or maybe both just lose interest?
I duno.
waste of tym & effort.
lets live for todae!

Later in d morn shall iron my KNEE LENGTH SKIRT.
-faints wen she look at her skirt-
idert fool.
tmr sure tt TAN announce my name.
WTH.
I HATE HER!!

[x]If my life for rent,n i dun learn to buy.
Well i deserve ntuhing more than i get.
Cz nuthing i haf is truly mine.

While my heart is a shield,
and i won't let it down.
While i am so afraid to fail,
so i won't even try.
Well how can i say i'm alive[x]Goodnight peeps!

i'm not crazy im just a lil impaired..rite now u dun care.
 
Bloghopped just now.
Lyk wtf sia..wif tis triple b's fren.
bird broke up wif his fwen wat...let her be la.
Anyhow only la call bird bitch!!!
u fucker idert la...
who want ur fwen!!
uglee lyk hell.
even my black neighbour dog more handsome sia!!!!
ur fwen is just a despo sex maniac!!
all she can tink is just fuck gals!!!
just stead for 2 days want touch d breast,
n asked bird to go up block.
ya la..do wut??
tink i duno isit?!!!!
next tym,i see u,
i kill u ah....
dun care!
bird,u have my full co-operation!!!
Why must u scold birdy bird cz she brk wif ur fwen,
i noe la u jealous din get to stead wif her.
u go lah sound her..den can bcum str8 cupple.
better wat...can have real sex.
wtf.
i dun even scold my ex gf bitch even thou dey bastard me,
or scold my fren's ex gf bitch,
Everybody has deir reason wats...
wtf!!!
ARGH!!!
people dun get d wrong idea..
yepp...
 
just now went to skool frm sis hse!
all da wae frm cck to jln damai!!!
vito green van lalala...
 
ryann:(walks into d room wif her messy hair) EH!!! y r u dressed???
sis: i oso want to send u too
ryann:aiyah..u kaypoh kaypoh la...
 
physics mock exam?
haikx.
 
cca?
ok la.
 
i cnt write anymore.
if i kept thinking and dream about love my studies will get nowhere.
lyk wat love can do for me now?
flings?
hmp..by d end of d day,im still the same old person.
i am nothing.
i can only share love n care to everyone.
wardah is calling me.
duwan pick up.
not in d mood,
i end up ventig my anger on her.
sis told me to let out my feelings.
maybe im not tt kind?
i prefer to dump dem in my heart n mind,
later dey will blend,
add some emotions to it,
results=depression juice.
*cheers to depression juice*
i duno y i keep repeating tis,
vindicated-dashboard confessional.
love hates me.
i look around n see couples kissing,
i wonder when will tat dae arrive.
maybe it wun happen to me.
wat for love?
i'll end up breaking deir heart,
i duwan to "murder" deir heart.
or to suffer side-effects of bein heartbroken?
O-level is in 95days.
wonder wat will happen to me by den.
yestedae was slpng,
dreamt tt we got together n sumthang happened.
breaking up isit?
i jumped out of d bed instantly.
joker sia.
also..i woke up cz i tot its 7am,
but its 3am in d morn!
and i got an sms at 4am.
a gd nite msg?
ahh...
hmps.

You smiled the widest when i cried inside,and my inside blows apart.
 
Testing testing one... two... three!!!
YAYYYYYYYY!!! my font is in tis neon green!
hope u guys are able to read it in my neon green!
wooowww love the color!!! -make hand gestures-
just onlyne,
blogger has changed.
well done!
 
haikz.. wat shall i write todae??
im lazy to go sis hse n slp over.
she said
"come la slp my hse... tmr ur bro in law send u to skool!"
woow... they so love me.
ya la..no gf..my sis n bro in law loves me.
my darling ygr bro love me..i tink so.. aprt frm calling me fat!
wahhhh..
eh i hope i dun sound lyk a despo w/o gf.
nono.. ryann is not despo.
 
woke up 430am fer skool.
im lyk... WTH???
if its my hse, i wake up 7am onex(latest)
but ah.. i duwan to miss d train.
i took d 2nd train n 2nd bus.
from yew tee mrt to woodland.
lucky tt kampong gal sms-ed me lyk just in tym.
cz the station is apporaching woodland.
n i said to myself,
if she dun msg me ah.. i take train all d wae.
maybe tt y kinda pissed?
cnt be la... maybe cranky woke up damn early?
hmps... next tym want take d express bus!!
bt batok... _reminisce_
 
my jijie told me to go skool by mrt,
or express bus.
cz she so wurried abt me.
my bro in law want send me to skool summore.
nah nah...
so kind of dem.
 
skool was ARGH!
tt TAN caught me.
"unpick ur skirt!!omg ur skirt is short!"
lyk 'wtf' la tell her.
noooooo I WUNNNNNN unpick!!!
monday shall wear the longer one.
BAHH!!
oh my..how to live wif skirt touching d knee?
-cries-
oh well.. just live wif it lah ryann!!!
ryann mind shouts: NOOOOO CANNNNOTTTT!!!
so went to d office,
n d clerk said,
"aiyah u...wear sexy for wat??? see la.. sinful wat..."
My skirt not TAT MINI OK!!!
i wear got wear sexy2 one!!!
i wanna scold her.. but ah.. i am cool.
act dao!
wahaha...
 
mdm wong kept calling me to do maths sum on the board.
hate it sia.
maybe she caught me dreaming?
i dun tink so la.. cz im sleepy.
i nid my afternoon nap,
or later in skool very slpy.
lyk baby sia.
ahhh...ohh....woooow...ahhhhhh fuck me!!!!!!
pls dun mind tt.the author is mad
 
so ump was tinking,
if i haf a gf,
how will i cope wif my studies or life?
evrytym go date... until books oso do wat??
hmps.. n den later in skool slpy n cnt concentr8.
haix... and i duwan to feel sad abt my special someone?
wat m i toking?
i mean.. yah my frens dey having tough tyms wif deir gfs n rs,
and dey sad n kept whining?
dey talk about deir gfs,
n wat do it talk abt?
i cnt talk about gals cz dey will tink im cassanova.
i duno la.. i dun lyk to talk or think so much abt my special someone.
bcz its a big distraction.
ok althou i lyk it...but face it ryann.. its ur o's!!
wasted $266 for n-level.. n tis O-level duno how much la.
n ump..i want someone who can understand me,
cz if im "down n dirty" wif my studies,
i forget abt d world.
i noe dey sae dey understand..
but dere's a limit of being patience.
i will by den be damn lazy to date.
i want her to be happy..
and i cant stop my late habits.
fated to bcum guest of honor one day.
i min..most of d days.
all the tym.
i cannot be punctual.
i duno y..maybe i spend too much tym getting dress?
education is primary to me,
i want to have a gd career.
if i tink,
imagine i have a gf now,
n failed o's
and who noes by den we broke up.
dere goes my "ruined" future.
i noe its lyk selfish,
but lets face it man.
oh sorri if u guys r d type where love is a primary tingy.
 
i duno la..dun mind me.
byebye...
 
p/s: hmp.. to saodah,mel n brin, wrote some note fer u guys in my "Tagboard". 
is in the previous entry. ok.pls tag at d latest entry u've read.thanks guys.

depressed

Went to smoke.
at 1145pm just now.
was so depressed cnt tahan.
was tinking alot,
i noe im nuthing to u,
but i duwan u to be fooled by her.
bcz i care.
yah...
she may be lying,
my frens noe abt her.
yah...
haikx... my tummy was empty.
i felt sick,
n vomitted.
nuthing came out,
except saliva...
yucks..
haikx.

Malay oral sux to da max!!

My mly oral??
oh my.
B to da A to da D!
Coz, im used to speak el to outsiders.
action la.. speaking.
ahh wth.
kept saying "so..." "and den"
After tt i went lyk "eh eh eh no!"
Wth.. Dey asked "have u tried rock climbing?"
so i said yah but i dislyk it.
i fear of heights.
and dey ask wat sports u play.
so i said I BIKE AT BUKIT TIMAH!!!!!!
and said im the only GAL in the group.
and dey were lyk "WOW!!"
i exaggerated they lyk discriminate me cz gals bullshit.
n i proved to tt wif RYANN!! anything is possible!
AIyah..shd have boast to dem i go biking at,
pulau ubin and den got scars la..
and the guys lyk salute me,
cz of my bravery
wen i went down the hill at bt tima,
hit a tree n on the spot i get on my two feets,
and heck care abt my wrist and my head.
and d next day ic nt move my head.
also must boast i go bike at sentosa!
we cycle in the inside trail one,
so deres no other waym
we had to go down tis hill,
infront is d beach.
the banglas were lyk "WOW!"
must see the look on their face.
i can jump down from flight of stairs oso can!
see..ok lah sori fer bein boastful.
dun action wif me ah!!
ok lah..
oh d examiner said to me,
"i see ure well-dressed,wif ur neck tie, ur uniform, but wat interests me is ur shoe.ur black shoe.are u allowed to put on?"
he tot i break skool rules.
so i said "no.."
he replied "no.. but i see most wear whites."
i'm lyk,
'wtf lah..u dun teach my skool dun ask can"
i gave him a "Slap back"
i said "we can put on black,white or blue sport shoes"
he was lyk "oh...cz i dun see many skool practice these tings."
HAH! he must teach those stupid skools.
can only put on canvas white shoe!!
-evil larf-

skool was fun!!
the guys were lyk.. hah!
ferget it.
and dey kept asking me wat to wear fer RHD!
i duwan go skool sia.
i duno.. see ferst!

im crossed now.
so yah.. shall write in mly,
cz lyk pple dun understand?ok!
its in lyk broken mly?


alamak babe,
chill ar.. sombong sials u ni.
apesal cam gini?
dah attached skrg mau action dgn gua eh.
sampai sms pon tak reply.
wow.. bukan main setia nampak cik oi..
kalo dulu,
haiyah..takmo ckp.
nanti takot u nyer gf chg opinion la.
nanti bad itngs hapen,i jugak.
relax ah..takkan reply sms takleh ke?
org tanyer pon salah.
bukan nye gua nak curik gf lu.
gua takde niat lah nk curik gf lu.
i can carik chicks lain.
i tak sapu member i nye pompan.
ape mau sapu2 pompan org,
takleh carik sendiri ke..
ade mater ade tangan ade mulot buat ape.
i tak lan jiao wei la member i..
wow kencang... sombong kia dgn gua eh?
ahh..gua tak kisah ah,
ingat tu, gf tak sebeberapa,
kawan itu jgn luper.
takmo step sombong kat sini eh.
mcm gini skrg lu buat gua eh?
oh takpe takpe..
sian nah..gua relax la,
i cool jer.
u tau kan i anytym can just get chicks kan?
u kan ckp i bleh dpt chicks sapu tepi jln pon bleh,
cz u ckp i hansem?
oh.i memang dah lamer tau.. u tak ckp gitu pon,
org lain puji la.
i dah biaser la..
acherli kalo u nak tau,
i tak sembarang sapu2 la.
ape mau sapu2 sembarang ni?
lagipon i tak despo la.
baru kenal2 i tak stead nyer,
kite mesti chill.. dah kenal lamer,
dah au, boleh lah go.
so ade gf tu, baik2 ah.
kalo nampak i kat luar,
takmo step ah.
u igt u je leh dpt?
i pon lah..i tak payah carik.
ade jer nanti nk.
oh k la..ape ni..i nk ckp..ump..
oh.. happy kekalan sampai ke anak cucu cicit eh babe?
semoge senantiasa hapi.
maklum lah i ini ape kan..
trash kan?
ahh.. oh i nak nasihat kan dgn u,
kalo u marah dgn gf u,
jgn main timer la mcm u buat kat i.
u main timer dgn i,
i tak kisah..
i raser kalo u buat lagi pon takpe.
hati best la.
shiok.
kalo marah,jgn nak mintak2 break,
pastu ade hati nak patch.
i tak suker lah pompan cam gini.
immatured la.
ur gf kan precious in ur life,
ye la.. k lah..ape2 take care ah.
free free, picit ah.
gua chao dulu eh.

i sound SO THE typical mly.
ahh..nvm..
must have a balance life!
ok bye!

Hopes, dangles on the string

1. name: ryann

2. like tis name given: i created
3. hw mani ppl in ur family: 7 plus me

4. who ish in ur family: mom,dad,elder sis(not livin wif us.married), elder bro, me, ygr sis, ygr bro.

5. height: 156cm?? hAH

6. weight: Fat la.. 54kg

7. are u thin: wat did i just said?

8. do u hv stead: mei ren ai... ahh.. so uglee who wants?

9. hw mani ex: 7++

10.fav colour: green,bright green!! green n green n green n greeen

11. fav cartoon: xiaolin showdown? n tt fairy god godmother? i duno la long tym neh watch cartoon. i dun reali watch cartoon.i watch manga cartoon?? japan!!!i love

12. best frens: i clique wif pple but yah..sadly best frens is so hard. oh best frens is my elder sis! cz.. i duno.. she's gr8. she loves me. i love her. she cried wif me, she share my sadness.. she helped me alot and tats y my parents n i r in gd terms?? I have alot of good frens! Lyk ashie the trashie elephie, yan junkie, wardah raul, zakiah..

13. hw mani gan korkor: mei yo

14. hw mani gan jie jie: one gan jie n one gan mei

15. wat u lyk: hmps... errh.. i love japanese gals n chinese? hah.. i duno.. i lyk my maths TYS!! orite i just lied.

16. are u childish: haha i tink so..but not to a large extent??

17. are u chio: ugly lyk toad tt y no stead

18. whr ur hp: beside me

19. wat r u doing nw: listening to songs n doin ti quiz

20. hw long u wif ur stead: I DON HAVE!!!!! DONT ASK!!

21. wat songs u lyk: depend on u, season, voyage, endless sorrows, evolution, flower garden, boys & girls, fly high, audience(dey r from ayumi hamasaki plus those trance remix). cranberries, goo goo dolls, dashboard confessional, leann rimes, janet jackson,the calling.. .ahhh to summarize i really love trance n techno! ah ok fine?

22. ur dreams: to wear tt white dress!!bcum a nurse la!!! or maybe join chatec, and den learn business. And yea!! i'll own a cafe one dae!!! Too bad we cannot run pub or disco. Or tat will be my dream. When i was young, yah.. i wanted to open disco. HAH. Oh to own a car n motorbike! AHhh... tats all. Gf?? Ah... haven tink of tt. Oh n to go japan!!!

23. are u a lian: ah beng. hahx
24. most often found in: my bro's home

25. a chiongster: nopiex

26. when u get envious: lyk wen i see romantic couple n wen tis bung is soooo damn ugly n her gf is lyk damn chio??

27. are u a flirt: ash said i am. wtf. i am NOT. i am social ok!!!

28. a flirt now: noo.. i am an extrovert.

29. wat u wear when go out: t-shirt n jeans. hate to dress formal. Sometyms berms or soccer short!hahh...

30. hw old: turning 17

31. hate: errh... those are involved in the 9th FEB incident plus the HSA!

32. love: family, friends, close frens, MY ELDER SIS, my HAIR!!!! Hugs* depends who hug

32. most important part of u: huh?

33. wat u love bout urself: u guys will say i am bitchy. want to noe??? hah.. ask me personally

34. act cute: i am one?

35. are u hapi: miss her*

36. eva hurt sumone: yes

37. sad memories: i dun remember. Cz i only keep those happy memories.

38. ur stead loves u: trying to make me jealous??? no stead. got fans.HAH

39. vain: anyone finds ryann vain. put up ur hands!!! -the whole of singapore raised their hand*

40. ambition: nurse not really paramedic. nurse. or own a cafe. a chef?

41. loves animals: i love babies more

42. problem maker: more to noise pollution maker?

43. scared of: cockroach, snake, rats, lizard, those stuff wic lives in forest?? big ants.

44. rich: god is richer den me

45. eva buy anithin 4 ur stead: ex gfs
46. wat r the things: roses, pens? i duno la.. dun remember lah.

47. free tym: sleep, talk on fon, take a walk at the park wif junk, internet?

48. study in: school?

49. sch ish fun: esp if el is b4 recess. can just anyhw leave the class for early recess. can talk on hp, and sms in el class, can make noise, can sleep, can dun pay attention, can laugh loudly, can cry, can fart, can ANYTHING!!

50. last bt nt least: dya wanna hear me sing?
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im tinking abt jsut now wen we're crossing d road n my bag fell n u noticed tt.. ahh. And the hugs?? ahh... sumtin is lyk wrong wif me.

Vindicated

Ryann Da AHH was at the scene. Guess where is she??



Did it out of boredom.. i dun haf tt software or else i can mix d pix perfectly.ahh... lyk obsessed wif myself?


i wear a mask in the day,
at night,im back to my usual way.
i hide all my fears,
i shunned myself from others.
i laughed,i played,i smiled,
but inside im totally ruined.
not a soul hear my cries.
neither do they stop by to ask whys..

I am filth..

vertical horizon-everything u want
Somewhere there's speaking, it's already coming in
Oh and it's rising in the back of your mind
You never could get it unless you were fed it
Now you're here, and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen, listen and wait for
The echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

You're waiting for someone to put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight and watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine with all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island and into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice, but you still hide away
Anger of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you, and I don't know why

And I don't know why
Why, why
I don't know

---------------
Oh god..i am feeling lyk a damn depressed bitch.
i could tear up but it takes a lot for me to cry.
i want to talk but there's no one i can confide in.
i feel lyk runnin away but my legs wun take me awae.
i am disillusioned.
i am one depressed bitch inside.
i am filth.

Shall go n smoke until my lungs are filled with toxic chemicals.
and i will cough until blood comes out.
and i will be so helpless with no one dere.
i will lie on the ground battling for my life,
but with not enough strength.
i will slowly watch the angel take my life awae.
i will die a lonely & painful death.
and watch my rested body while my soul drift awae.
with people asking what happened.
things they never know.. things dey do not wish to noe.
the mask i wear,
they will never know the real me.
all my anger, my sadness,my confusion, my loneliness,
my silent cries.

*Feeling so helpless*

Still in love with ur sins

Finished skool at 12noon,
cz of da musical nite.
shd have book d tix so i can get,
wanted to buy frm frens,
but he/she sell it to other peeps.
its ok bah...
Out of the 3 musical nite,i attended once!
HAH!!

Im at home wif parents ONLY.
Wat am i spose to do?
I kept walking around the house,
cz i haf no idea wat to do.
i took my nap oradi summore.
oh..shd go n eat!
but i tink mom cook fish??
ahh... no BONES!!

Oh i so wanna tell u guys abt p.e just now.
IT WAS FUN!!! WE PLAYED WELL!!
Ump..cz deres only 6 gals,
so yah.. each two of us were put in grp of guys.
so we spose to play wif dem.
only d gals r allowed to score!
yah.. it was fun.
its lyk captain ball,soccer,rugby,basketball mixed.
we can kick the ball,throw it n we cheated,we ran wif d ball too.
HAHA.
oh.. 1st game,our team lost,
cz the opponents,d guys blocked us but i managed to run arnd,
n yah.. dey r very athletic dey hve soccer capt in deir team,school basketball player n those.
And asyiqa lyk cannot jump?
she expect the ball to go to her n roll to her.
But its ok.. cannot blame.. wats lost is lost.
OH n the 2nd match?
IT was so much better!
so.. i ran around,throw ball shoot stuff.
and den our grp owaes win cz im gd wat. (haha..dun faint guys)
and den Mr Ganesan asked me to change join the other team.
and my team guys dey were lyk "AHHH...cannot la.. she's the only one good!!"
haha.. but its ok la..
mr ganesan is a nice teacher acherli.
So im the other team,
tis Taming SAri fuckign irritating.
He kept blocking me,
but he cannot chase me..he slow poke.
Irritating.. yuck i feel so disgusted if i accidentally touch him.
tt one despo la...
i duno.. im acherli afraid of him,
cz pple psycho him,he can easily be lured.
AHhh.. yah..
Mr ganesan forgot about out evry "chores",
hafta do sit up n push up.
But tt arshad reminded him.
ahh..
so yea.i took d "chores" seriously,
and did it.
YAYY!!
AFter tt, i was lyk,
i duno..
cz if im under d sun for too long i will make noise.
but today no..
cz the game was fun n had no tym to complain.
HAH...
hope next week we will play floorball.
but i wanna soccer.
oh.. we shall see...

my heart now is lyk in my throat.
i feel so scared n nervous.
i haf no idea why.
OH HELP ME!

Shall call yan to help me wif therapy.
haha...

*9th world wonder...

My world wonder.Ranked randomly.

1)my Bicycle!!(im so proud of my bicycle n if u show me ur bike, i sure will spit at ur bike.haha.. no la..not tt fierce)

2)my atm card (its so da reliable n i owaes dun carry money. pay nets.BAH)

3)my spiky hair (ahh...)

4)my diff kind of wax for diff purposes. (loreal-architect wax is wen im goin out lyk very important stuff. the wax shiny2. wow! loreal-remix is go to skool one. Gatsby-twist n spike for at home use.haha wtf. no la.. go near place use tt.loreal-out of bed hmp.. used up liaox)

5)my ump dumb computer!!

6)my diff kind of watch but d batt all died. STUPID UNRELIABLE WATCHES!! (my titanium swatch watch i bought for $195.. HURHUR!!! i love tt watch alot!! HURHUR.. shall get d batt replaced tmr! my 2 swatch.1 timex. two adidas watch. one casio.)

7)my mother(she cook great meals...YUMYUM)

8)my friends!!! (oh... )

9)My sister n her hubby!AHH
-=-=-=-=-=-=-

where is my parents??
i want food...
HELP MEEEEEEE!!!

Fridae,
im goin for a jog wif tt brinjal.
jog at pasir ris park.
anyone wanna follow us??
OH BRINJAL!!!
BEWARE..i will beat u lyk eating brinjals.
i bet i run faster.
ahh if u win,
dun get so excited.
cz i gave u chance win.
BAHHH!!!
im happi la can bully her on fridae.
WOAH!!
shall catch up wif her so called boring life.
ahah so bad la me..
shall interview her...
if she cancel ah d jog,
i go burn her hse.
haha no la..
siao.
gtg now
food is here.
BYE

Back posture problems.

Hi everybody!
tis is Dr ryann.
hmp.. hope u guys have d tym,
to read tis long advice and stuff,
about back posture probs.

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Back posture problems
Do you suffer from posture problems? Your posture is so important as carriage reflects breeding, strength of character, and alertness. Find out the facts about posture and how to correct your posture problems.

Your body is held in various positions by your skeletal muscles. Movements are possible because of muscles pulling on bones. If you have ever noticed a crane working on a construction site you will know the beam of the crane is somewhat like the bones of your arms and legs. Cables push the movement from one direction to another. Muscles in your body can be likened to the cables. The skeletal muscles, or voluntary muscles enable movement and connect one bone to another.


There is no denying good carriage is very important. When you first glance at a person you naturally notice how he or she is carrying themselves. Carriage reflects our alertness, breeding, and strength of character. The parts of the body will be balanced when good posture is present. When standing the neck, shoulders, lower back, pelvis, and hip joints all should be in line with one another. When sitting, the hips and back of the thighs should support weight and the feet should be flat on the floor. The lower back should be supported by the back of the chair.


To achieve efficient movement it is necessary to maintain holding your skeleton together through the ligaments and muscles of the body. The organs in the body have a spatial or relative relationship to each other. It has been determined good posture will be developed when it is possible to conform to good balance in daily activities including work, playing, sitting, walking or running.


The manner in which you choose to sleep is of major importance as over your life span you perhaps will sleep one third of the time. There cannot be one perfect position for sleeping, but certainly some positions should be avoided. When sleeping the spine should be in a normal curve and sleeping on the stomach should be avoided. Using a pillow or pillows that are too high will not be good for your body. While sleeping on the back there should be support under the knees. If you choose to lie on your side be sure to keep your knees bent and have your pillow just high enough to keep your neck straight. An excellent secret of good posture is changing positions during your period of sleep. The body usually automatically changes positions as you sleep. It is very rare for a person to fall asleep in one position and to wake in the same position without changing positions during the sleeping period.


Good posture can be established in childhood through good habits as it is very hard to master these habits after bad posture has existed for many years. Parents should do their very best to teach their children good posture habits in the early childhood years. A child can easily learn the correct way to sit at the table or at a desk while studying and doing homework. When a child is allowed to do his homework or to study while lying down he will form the habit of poor posture at an early age. By noticing how the child is standing a parent can make suggestions and corrections that can be followed for better posture. Schools can provide proper seating and teachers can show students the proper manner in which to sit correctly.


Not all types of physiques are the same so this makes it impossible to standardize the human body. The best posture for each individual will be determined by the individual's body structure. There is considered to be a standard for each type of physique. Each person will have individual body curvatures that will be different from the other. It is possible to inherit weak ligaments and muscles making parts of the body more prominent than others. Bodily structures can be suppressed in the body build of one person and not in another.


It is necessary that there be a conscious decision to achieve the most perfect posture and to form the habits of checking your own individual posture. Of course in daily life there will be times when posture will not be considered. There have been several studies at various research facilities that have revealed a definite correlation between good health and good posture. Having good posture can be a contributing factor in preventing disorders such as menstrual abnormalities, foot problems, arthritis, and also backaches.


The major causes for poor posture need to be mentioned as these can be due to many factors including inherited or organic defects, faulty habits, clothing or fatigue. There are many people who have inherited limbs of uneven length, crooked spines, defective bones, weak muscles, or deformities such as bowed legs or constitutional disorders. Sometimes even malnutrition especially during the childhood formative years can be a contributing factor in poor posture. For the majority of people having poor posture it is due most likely to faulty or bad habits in sleeping, walking or sitting. Fatigue can be a common cause of bad posture as habits of slumping can be from muscle relaxation. Having a profession where one deals with delicate work requiring very close concentration can be a factor contributing to poor posture. Sometimes a person can also have poor vision that leads to faulty posture as it would require leaning over to read.


There is a common type of poor posture caused by postural defects due to curvature of the spine. There exists in the human body four curves, two are present at birth and these are the sacral and thoracic. As a person matures and grows two others are added, the lumbar and cervical. With these four curves the balance of the body becomes maintained. If the spine if perfectly straight these curves can be seen when viewed from the side. This includes both a view of the front or the view from behind a person.


Poor posture can affect the health of a person as there exists a cramped position of the internal organs in the body. These organs consist of varied abdominal, the lungs and the heart. The body cannot function normally if the organs are pushed against each other by the presence of poor posture. The circulation of the body is slowed down and ligaments can be strained. When the body isn't functioning normally then the diminished blood flow can lead to chronic disorders. When the blood isn't allowed to flow as it properly should then other parts of the body can become congested with blood. The pelvic organs can suffer if other organs are sagging. If a person tries to read by looking down too far or by looking up too high then the eyeballs can become distorted. Poor sitting habits can lead to bad reading habits and also then to defective vision. Neuromuscular fatigue can result from poor posture and cause the body to have less energy. The joints become strained and become also painful. Often in later years a person can develop severe pain from backaches caused by many years of poor posture. A person can also become "pot bellied" with constant fatigue and stretching of nerves in the spinal cord. The abdominal organs in the body can also sag. Sometimes the result of poor posture can be a great deal of foot pain as the feet fatigue very easily.


Over a period of years the habits that have been formed in sleep, sitting, or walking can have an effect on the skeleton. The spine has bones and cartilage disks that are very sensitive. There are hollow bones in your spine called vertebrae that are stacked one upon the other. There are many major nerves that enter and leave these spaces between the vertebrae and if damage has developed over many years to the cartilage disks or the bones then the nerves can become pinched. This causes pain to occur that can feel like an electric shock to certain areas such as the legs, back, shoulders or neck. This can be prevented by the practice of good posture.


The manner in which you sit, stand, or walk will determine the quality of your posture. The efficiency of your body will depend on your having good posture. The weight of your body will be distributed more evenly along the body's center of gravity. Each bodily activity such as sitting, reclining, running, or walking will require a different posture. Each activity if accomplished correctly will allow freedom of movement with the least use of energy.


Many elements can effect posture such as diet, weight, feelings, sleeping habits and fitness. Often people who are tall will walk with their heads down and their body bent thinking others will see them as not being so tall. When standing, the body should be erect but not stiff, controlled and also balanced. Support should not be necessary such as standing against a wall or a chair. One might practice standing in front of a mirror to obtain better posture. The weight of the body can be shifted to one leg or the other and can caues a standing posture that is a "hunched" position leading to bad posture.


Special attention must be given to the feet as they are very important to having good posture. Wearing shoes that are comfortable and fit and also being aware of these features instead of adhering to the current style will help posture. There are so many shoes to be found on the market today that are not proper footwear as they can easily cause back strain, poor posture, and also injuries to the foot. A common foot problem known as the fallen arch, or flattening of the arch of the foot can cause pain in the arch, ankle, and also in the lower leg muscles and can be a leading factor in poor posture.


Having regular natural exercise daily including in activities that help to maintain good posture can be very beneficial. There are a few exercises that can strengthen muscles such as the ones below.


The body can be trained to keep parts in proper alignment by standing straight with the back against a wall letting the head, shoulders and hips touch the wall. The heels should be about four inches from the wall, no less than three. The back can slide up and down the wall as far as possible while keeping your balance.


For the spine to be exercised and to remove excess curves, lie on the back and bend the knees over the body, bringing the forearms around the knees and clasping the tips of the hands together holding the legs together and rocking the body from side to side.


The abdominal muscles can be strengthened by sitting on a low bench with the feet under the edge of a bed, then lying back on the bench slowly lift the trunk of the body with the abdominal muscles. This will also help an over bluging abdomen.


Lying on the back with the lower legs resting on a chair with the arms folded across the chest. Lifting the hips a few inches off the floor first letting the weight rest on the shoulder blades, returning the hips to the floor, taking deep breaths. Then by slowly exhaling the air the spinal curvatures will be strengthend. Another exercise in this same position can be achieved by extending the legs on the floor, taking a deep breath, and then raising the chest high and contracting the abdomen.


Bicycle exercises can be done with the legs in the air, using first one leg and then the other to pedal in large circles. The legs must be kept in the same plane and the knees must not touch as they pass from one to another. The legs should not swing sideways in their movement.


To exercise the spine and to remove curves, one can lie on the back and bend the knees over the body, bringing the forearms up around the knees and claspign the tips of the hands together to hold the legs together then rocking the body from side to side like a cradle.


Excellent posture can be obtained by regular exercise as stated above and by just being aware of the need for practicing good posture habits. The quality of a person's life especially in later years can be determined by a lifetime of good posture.