Heaven Knows I've been Waiting for you]]

Please pardon my ignorance
For i get tongue-tied and my heart skips a beat
Whenever i look at you.
Amazed by your enchanting beauty.

=)

I'm still a stranger to you. Still is.

We almost had sex]]

My mp3 is eating my damn battery like no other.
Note: one battery. Two batteries.
My poor darling got scratches,
You poor little baby mp3.
Geeez, i wish there's something i can do for you.
Lemme kiss u.
*smooches*

The instance, best rnb performer is being announced,
I jumped off the seat and bang the seat!!
You don't know how exhilarated i was,
Congrats Namie Amuro!
I'm just your pathetic non-speaking, non-understand japanese fan!
I'll eat more eel and suhi fer ya alryt?
Soka!

There's nothing i can do to gain that 67%!
Thanks mr careless-ness.

I'm in a big dilemma,
Should i be taking driving or riding license?
Ahh..either one it does benefit!
You know, driving just seems appealing.
And and and..... lets make love at the backseat of my car.
I badly wanna get my hands on that ford focus!
Each time brother in law drives,
I have this SHIT-I-WANNA-DRIVE-OK- look.
Mom talked like as if she's some driving instructor,
She even hit the kerb OKAY!
And the ground turned black shit,
Whe she drove that mercedez vito.
That's my MOM!

I just love namie too much.
After i'm done with exams,
I'll get a job.
And sign up for sign language course,
Japanese speaking class,
And license?
I HAVE TO,
Or mom will be calling me 'bakka',
For not wanting to take driving/riding license.

you took everything i have always wanted.

Click on my fooking gorgeous pix!]]

Dumbado tittle.
I just realised the navigation box is bonkers.
I'll adjust in a week time.
Because i still can't read mandarin!
And my blogger is in mandarin.

Wo ke yi shuo hua yi nehh..
Wo bu ke yi read mandarin.
Bu kuo wo ke yi read hanyu pinyin!
Wo hen hen hen hen si huan ni.
Zhen de.. ni si huan wo mah?
ARGH.
Figure out larrrrrrrrrrrr.

At the rate i'm studying,
I can make this lamp post rotate,
And forward today to Sunday.

Saturday a must WATCH on mtv-japanese music award.
Wo de nu peng yo, namie amuro nehh.
SOKA???
HAIK HAIK.
She's performing,
So i need to watch.
ARGGH.
How am i suppose to stay out on that night?
No driving license!

Satirical jestings]]

Retail theraphy went OH SO GREAT!
Got a new shoe and a stussy polo t.
At a BIG BARGAINNN!

Ash n I were so happy.
We're on the moon,
I guess?
For her?
No worries ash, gf coming back for u.

Its hard for me to tip-toe and hide in the house,
Because my little niece will chase me
And demand to be on that 'sedan'.
She's just too ireesistible!
It seems like she loves my parents, her parents and ME!
Exclude my other siblings.
HAH.

Crap,
I need to go now.
Cough is bad.

I can't explain how much hatred i have inside,
How crap huh?

Looking for complications]]

'Make my way back home and learn to fly'.

Deluding Myself...

Just got back from slacking with mj,her mom and her god ma.
Cool people I should say!
Funny beings.
=)
Coughed like i've-never-coughed before.
People might be thinking i'm suffering from tuberculosis.

Wanted to deposit some cash into my bank(s) account,
But I'm afraid i might missed the bus,
And I can't stand to wait another minute or less.

Argh. This cough is the terrible ever man!
Please motivate me to go to the bank tomorrow,
But I need to take a bus to CCK in order to deposit into,
My Maybank one!
*FUMES*
Maybank you damn bitch of god knows who,
Why the heck you're not all over Spore,
Just like DBS and OUB?
You see,
Im afraid if I make my way all the way there,
And the deposit machine is "Temporary out of order".
I hope not!
That is like the machine's favourite LINE you know.
I won't be suprise if I look like a damn retarded person,
Trying to deposit the cash in.
That's cause Maybank is very confusing!!
Its transaction is like in some foreign language.

Geez, What if i walk all the way to yew tee,
And the damn deposit machine is also 'temporary out of order',
Or can't bank in my money!
Oh i know!
I can ask my sis to bank in for me right?
She works in DBS.
Oh yeayy~

Mom came to visit me.
So happy together.
She must have missed me,
That is why she's super nice,
And she actually fed me food!
How lucky I am!
I know.

Know what?
My sister bought bro in-law a belt,
For their 8year wedding anni.
And that belt cost a fucking bomb!
THREE HUNDRED AND FORTY NINE!!
GET THAT?
GET THAT?
CAN YOUR READ THAT?
SHIT!!
Its some damn italian brand.
Ermenegildo Zegno.
Cripes, what is that?

If someone buy me that,
I would ask them to return it to the shop!
Haha.
Joking.
I'll wear it proudly,
Wear my pants very high,
Tucked my shirt realy really in,
Exposing that belt.
THREE HUNDRED FORTY NINE YOU KNOW!!
Sucha a waste sial if never show off.
Nono, I will ask them to put the price tag on too!
Paste the receipt too!

Bro in law bought her a new handphone,
For their wedding anni.

Ouh!
Who is willing to marry me and pamper me expensive gifts?
I NEED A RICH LADY!

Boring entry.
So lame.
Don't blame me.

Bubble gooey...

I'm dying of starvation soon.
2121hours, and the only 'food' I consumed was a bowl of
maggi this morning.
Taste sucks too.
Must be me.
It taste damn salty.

Shit.
And i wonder if water channeled to the tap is
Actually sea water.
That explains why my maggi is salty!
Salty yucky.

I need laksa.
No!
I need to go pasar malam!
Buy that takoyaki.
But i can't carry that almost 7 or 8kg niece of mine.
I can carry actually,
But its 25 mins to carry her to and fro.
Argh.

//Your love makes me fly!

Bitterness]]

This entry is not meaningful to read.
But its 4am and I'm still fuming.

I wouldn't want to buy that damn coffee bun
From rotiboy again.
Never.
The damn employee just fooking sucks.
I would tie her down to a pole and pee on her face
If that was only possible.
I bought damn 3buns,
Which cost $3.60.
I handed the $50 note to her.
She asked for small change.
Shit!
If I have that small change,
I would have given it to her you damn mule!
I am not angry because of she asked for small change.
What i am most angry about is,
She talked to her colleage in mandarin
(THIS IS THE TRANSLATED)
"How come $3.60 don't have! $50 have! nonsence"
I would have barked the shit out of that stupid old auntie.
Auntie seems nice.
Barked at that damn old frigging dried mule!!!
Shit. I know your damn language and just shut up!
Your job is to serve the damn customers,
So take their money and return their change LAR!
Cannot is it give the $50.
TOO RICH WHAT? Not like you!
One day of work cannot earn that damn blue note.
That was purely sarcasm.

This damn 'barking' session would have happen,
IF ONLY I WAS NOT SICK AND COUGHING LIKE SOME CHRONIC PATIENT!!!!
Bitch.
I wanted to just leave the damn shop by cancelling my order.
But my brother in law was there.
ARGH!
My toa payoh trip just sucks in the day.

And the evening trip to toa payoh.
Basically we were eating,
When suddenly "True files" was aired on tv.
Its funny to see the patrons,
Even ALL of them,
To turn around regardless whre they sitting,
ANticipataing the damn show.
It pisses me off because I so badly wanted to get out of
THe damn stupid place REAL REAL REAL BAD!!!!
Boredom was killing me.
I was sitting and this damn stupid ching chong girl,
Stood infront of me.
BUsy yackety-yack with her friends.
"Aiyo very scary!!"
And she was making comments and too engrossed.
I yawned loudly.
She turned around.
And when she walk off,
I wanted to gorge her stupid ugly peanut eyes.
Small already like water melon seeds,
Still dare to diao at people larr.
Pretty but rude for what,
Like that her damn beauty can put into the ass larr.
SHIT.
If i had the chance to talk to her,
I would say,
"Relax larr! WAtch tv excited ah? Never see a plasma tv before? or a damn crimne scenes on tv? Really ah never? Aiyo bitch, so poor thing ah. Like that,every staurday at 10am,Stay at home hor. Don't go out. Then can watch tv like you have never seen before yar? Or bring your tv set out wherever you go on that day? Make everywhere feels like home.You can stand infront of it! Lie infront of it. Anything can you stupid donkey! Ok byebye! "

Oh how great it feels.
Why am i ill?
URGH.

Oh.
Bought yami yoghurt.
The lady looks like bracey!!
=)
OH NONO!
Don't give me that look.
Haha..bracey im complimenting you neh!
But you're sweeter and friendlier.

//You know i love you so/

Another senseless ramblings...

My blog is all up.
It is still bare.
Ah. Heck.

My head is now a barren land
My heart is an isolated island
My love had been wasted
And this love have been infested.

This is sinful,
Repeating mariah carey-we belong together
On my mp3.
:s

Elevation..

This blog is temporarily dead.

Don't worry.

I'll blog once i get the layout ready.

BYEBYE

You gotta be the one that saves me]]

My blog is damn rusty.
Do u guys think so?
Its not already a part of me anymore.
Shrugs i don't know why.
Maybe it has come to a point where
I have nothing interesting to blog.

Today is sunday, the 5th.
I'm having mixed feelings.
I'm filled with joy and also sadness.

I wanna thank you for giving me the best days of my life.
You filled my life with so much vibrant and colors.
You taught me how to love again after 3 years of heartache.
I know i never had the chance,
To tell you how much u mean to me,
But in every ways I treated you,
I must have oozed out the feelings.
I have no idea what moved me to rummage that box yesterday.
The box- your letters, the diaries.
Reading the letters brings back,
To the phase where we were madly in love with each other.
And how I used to write letters to you,
At anytime of the day,
Even in between my tests.

That is how much u mean to me.
You're the love which keeps me from dying.

The diary entries we used to write for each other,
The letters,
They were the only thing whats left now-
What I'm still holding on to,
Apart from our love.

With every of Iloveyous I once said to you,
They meant right from the bottom of my heart,
And with every of them,
I pray that I will never lose you.
Never.

There were nights I couldn't sleep,
Cos my mind is filled with much of paranoia.
What if tonight you're gone,
What if this morning you left.
What if you're gone any seconds from tonight?
I was much afraid to lose someone who meant so much to me.
Someone whom I'm much dearly in love with,
The only drug I consume.
But reality hits me,
I've lost-
YOU.
Losing you means I've lost everything.
Things will never be the same anymore.
I can never smile like I used to,
The puzzle is one piece incomplete,
We can never go back to the phase anymore-
Back to Square one.

Sometimes my head just hurt,
From thinking of you -too much.
I asked myself,
Why am I hurting so much?
Why am I deeply affected?
What makes me less inferior than them?
But this little question,
As little as it is,
I can't seem to find the answers.
Nor will I ever digest it.
'Why do you have to go?'.

I will always be there for you,
For better or for worst.
Never will I forsake you,
Or doubt this love we once shared.

Writing that letter,
Took me alot of courage.
Its never gonna be easy to tell you how things are now.
Especially for me.
Because a chunk of my heart is still in love with you -.
Badly.
I know I should get used to this new phase.
I will; someday.
Somedays -not so soon.

I wonder why it is so hard to move on.
Although the tears have already dried,
But this heart is never too far from scars-free.
Why do you have to leave me with-
So much scars on my heart?

The things you used to say to me happily,
About them going crazy for you,
Your huge pool of pts,
Do they mean so much to you?
Do they mean so much more than me?
Perhaps.
I can never find the answer.
With every stories you tell me,
You sink me with much of griefs.
How can you ever moved on so fast?

When I hear you voice on the line,
I felt like I have to tell you-
About how much I'm still in love with you.
But something just stops me from telling these to you,
Cos they meant nothing to you anymore.

My friends tells me that these wounds will heal -one day.
How soon is one day?
90days passed and still it is there.
Still pinning.
Still hurting.
And my head is spinning,
Its like rats are invading into my blood vessels,
Ants laying eggs,
Munching on my brain cells.

How can i ever smile like i used to?
Happy 13th months sweet darls.

For better or for worst**

I need to take this heavy load off my poor heart.
Yet I can't.

If only..