just the girl i'm looking for]]

i'm gonna love you till all the seas dry up.
i love you.

Over the moon]]

=))






my pink shirt! =)

0315hours and i've just got back from slacking at mac/mjhse/cycling.

Au revoir guys!

You and me on that ferris wheel]]

I didn't know i do snore in my sleep, until a friend told me. This scares me what if i do sleep with my love one. And when i woke up, she's nowhere beside me. To find out, She left me because I SNORE!! You know that advertisement? The guy toss and turn, the lady spank him with a pot?? What if it happens. Hello IMH. Yo've got a new occupant!

I need to search for wadadeys yearbook. Mom threw mine away. Oh my YADAYADA GOD, I, as IIII don't even frigging know where i put her yearbook! Maybe its under my bed, my first cupboard, my big cupbpard, my drawer, under my study table, in my other bags, somwhere in my study table's drawer? Somewhere in that wardrobe. You see, room is a treasure hunt. Oh my yadayada god, please give me 10eyes this time. JUST FOR NOW! i need to search for my yearbook.

Little cupcake
who never fails to put a smile on my face.
My yadayada god,
look at the rate we're fallin!

uremyonlyhappiness.

Weenie]]


OUH THAT'S MINE!!!! Lord please pass today to november 25. I want that tuscani or maybe toyota celica!! I'll give my virginity away if someone buys me that!!

Under that cockery tree]]

This is where the lovers are put to test. The million miles of distance, the less frequent meetings, studies to be the first on the list. That endurance test!

I shall ban myself from using the computer. Each time when i have this cravings, i shall tie my hands and dance around naked! Do yoga!! Oh, paraphase. Just limit my computer usage.

Its half past 2 and i'm still in my pyjamas!

If i have loadsa money,
I will build a gigantic cupcake factory!
and we can eat cupcake for the whole year.
imissthatdirtycupacke.

If you guys miss me, just think that Hitler LOVES YOU!!
And i'm his successor... now we can sayy boo-yah to homosexuals.
Aite aite!

Bargaining with my love]]

I'm trying to control my ass.
asshole: oouh guys... dun expand...! no contraction.
shit: oh ass...lemme out fcuk.
asshole: just fart just fart.


I uploaded those NDP preview pix, and some of the esplanade 'fireworks' on Chaos day baby! Some pictures may irritate eyes and puke. If you see any uglee pictures of me, that wasn't me okai. There's like alort of blur images because i am still blur on how to operate this digicam. They have like so many scene to choose!

Mom was pissed at me. She threw comb and her book at me. I was dumbfounded, still it doesn't hurt. All along i was thinking of cupcake. Went to have dinner. Mom went "You don't eat!" She kept the chickens OK!!! But i had veggies instead. Good for shitting. Then, i went to eat the whole of the mango to myself. She went "All you do is eat only!!" Me, "free what! nothing to do so i eat arh". See, she's not mad at me anymore. I'm her little clown. Trust me. She told me to buy honeydew yesterday, but i purposely bought mangoes!! Let her be larr.. she don't want mangoes, i shall give them to ash. ASH WANT MANGOES??? kinkyness. My right arm is ugly now. Because of this blue-black. My dirty cupcake loves bullying me.

Lets talk about chaos day a.k.a 9th August.

Went for lunch at harboufront with sis,bro and my niece. Niece is only 10months and she can climb up the stairs alright. Yadayada they went to do their prayers, and i roamed around the graveyard there. I didn't went in, just peeked from below. Finally ended up waiting for them in the car. Off went brickworks? I can't get the right spelling alright. Its near queenstown, somewhere there. I used to cycle around there. Etc yada. And pweety cupcake was kinda moody cos of her family members i think. Decided to bring her to the park for some fresh air. Instead, invited her to the esplanade to watch fireworks! Fetched her, walked her home too.Whee. Alright larrr lazy to type. So mundane. I know my entry is like hanging somewhere. Don't care larr.. don't need to go into details. OH, i bumped into bracey "wife". Gotta hug!! =) Yeah yeah i know you haven't divorce me yet.


When everything seems to get outta control,
all i do is to just dream of you.
i can just smile stupidly to myself the whole day,
admiring how adorable you are.
stealing glances when you're unaware of,
that puzzled look on your face,
when you didn't catch those little jokes.
=))))))
ilu!

.ikeepmydirtylittlecupcake.

My EMO NIECE! imma proud auntie. Wait, she's kinda evil. I mean.. KINDA.

I'm off to read my torey hayden. Bought it like almost two months, i've read only 15pages. I shall relate the stories to you guys soon. In the meantime, do your thing baby! Hitler loves you. Together we kill the jews and smother that secondholocaust guy! Together lets drink booze and smoke our lungs awayyyy... YEEE HAW!! -smokes pipe-

One step closer to you heart]]

I'm bored, deprived of sleep. Famished. Just had one stick of ciggies. Waiting for yahoo to finish upload the pictures. SLOWWW! I like my new template!! By the way, ash grandma is really nice. She cooked for me egg! I donn't like egg, but i just ate it larr huh. And she took out the fish bones for me. WHEE. Ok bye.

I have a history of losing my shirt]]

i am afraid of my imperfections. the idiosyncracy of myself.
i'll come back to continue after my trip to harbourfront.

sweetest stuff]]

I learnt the bitter truth about fagging when your friend is sucha big clown. At that split seconds, my lung was congested with nicotine, abit of tar. All i can do was to laugh real real hard- my witchy laughter. We bitched all the way from ash's house, to tampines coffeebean. I think i got cheated of my $8 or $4. I lost $14. That explains my negative zeros in my bank account. Oh hell!

That little giggles of hers just makes my day!

I feel so extremely guilty for not turning up for berline's birthday mini-party. SHUCKS. I shall make it up to her. Oh no, is she mad at me?? But my sister lied, she didn't fetched me to cck. And my grandpa got hospitalized again that night. So i hafta take care of my poor sicky niece while my parents went to visit my grandpa. Real bad day. I'm terribly sorry hun.

i keep you my dirty little cupcake.

She said "i wanna get laid RYANN!"]]


Its raining!!!!

When middle month comes, i shall declare a 'state of bankruptcy'. I need a personal accountant to manage my expenditure. I'm sucha walking contradiction. My heart and my head is constantly having civil war with each other. Like cats & dogs.

Busy schedule larrr I HATE IT. Ah sao said "You won't lose her if she's meant to be yours". =))

Parents went to visit grandpa. At this very age 18, i have never been to a funeral. I have never seen a dead person. Apart from seeing orbituaries which ironically is my favourtie section in straits time. I'm scared larr. Scared SCARED. I have this wild imaginaton of the dead chasing me around the neighbourhood. That shall be my mom if i told her i wanna marry a girl. HEHE. Wait, i don't think she really objects to it. Oh i know, if i tell her i wanna get a sex change! She'll chase me with her favourite phrase "I SLAAAAAAAAAAAAAP you DEVIL!!" She calls me a devil because of my anti-'gravity' hair. Hur.

you make me smileeee.
i'm still love-struck!

at the rate we're falling,
we're moving at the speed of light.

that pretty girl in blue uniform]]

OH MY FCUKING GOD!!!! *runs amok* This watch is super duper cool shit. I love that color. How fcuk can it gets when its bidding price is 99US cents? Byebye my favourite. I need to get my watch repaired, sentimental values. I've never ever worn a watch or even own them for atleast a year. To say that, i always breaks them wihtin a year? That'c cause they cheap stuff. HA. Been 5years, it super rocks. When i have enough money, i shall get its chrono repaired as well. This time, i'm feeling kinda stingy. Anyone who owes me 10cents, please return.

I'm getting tired of tuesday class,
kinda pradoxical it seems but,
It seems i'm the only one with brains there.

ALright done,
my niece is crying her heart out,
she hates medicine.
HAH.

Today was awesome,
Should i go into details?
This is my smile-o-meter =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
And oh man it felt great.
No it wasn't sex.
Had the longest bus ride again from woodland,
Slept in the bus,
Reached home slept too.
This is hot stuff,
I shall sleep again now.
Alright when do you ever hear me wanting to go to sleep?

that cuppycake i adore,
in blue skirt.

That cupcake i adore]]

Your eyes
which first held me captivated
where I stood.

Your smile
to dazzle the sun
and warm every corner of my soul.

Your voice
like a sparkling mountain stream
which flows into my heart.

Your walk
and the way your gracefulness
takes my breath away.

Your hair
about which I dreamed
cascading into my face
as you leaned over me.

Your hands
whose caress I crave
to hold my face
in their tenderness.

Your arms
I long to have around my neck
as you pull me close
to your warmth.

Most of all
everything you are
changed the way I feel about my life.

I love you.

*note:this poem has nothing to do with the below post.

cuppycuppycuppycuppycuppycuppy.



For every reason that excites to this,
I heart this lady a million times.
For having faith in me,
And believing in me, throughout that those malicious stories.
Still being a good friend,
And yes a great gf.
Therefore babe brin i thank u.

Aye, u promised me that you will,
Smuggle me in your briefcase and bring me to jc.
Why haven't you done that?


*****

I'm still in a state of confusion,
This can't be it.

NDP picture will take its time to be uploaded,
CD can't be found.
This is frigging frustrating alright!
Shall claer my bowels now.

Insomnia & confused is my pseudonym.

Coffee with ginseng extract and gingko nut is equivalent to,
MAJOR INSOMNIA.
To only managed lulling to sleep at 730am.

The correction,
ash is no longer a part of the singles club.
Sorry girls =)

Its just a lovely thing that we had.